Kirigiri closed the door and locked it, her head spinning with thoughts she didn't know how to deal with...
"You killed Him"
"You were meant to kill the mastermind"
"You don't deserve to live"
"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT."
She sunk, dazed and conflicted, to the floor with her back pressed hard on the lock behind her. Gasping as if someone had their hands wrapped round her neck, and was squeezing the life out of her. The odd white haired boy... the one who called himself Ishida...the one who murdered Aoi...who was he? Thoughts of questions she had intermingled with her intense self loathing as Kirigiri pulled herself up off the ground, reaching to place a chair in front of the door.
Groaning, she managed to achieve this.
Tiptoeing slowly over to her bed and climbing in, her eyes began to feel wet... at first she wasn't sure what the strange sensation was...the lump in her throat, the heat in her cheeks, the saliva building up in her mouth, her curiously dry lips...
Then she realised
she was crying.
Sadness was such a strange emotion to Kirigiri, as she felt it so uncommonly, it was more painful than she remembered...her eyes stinged like the had been pricked with a cactus, as if someone had poured a litre of salt water into them...she felt so uncomfortable with this unfamiliar emotion.
She felt exhausted, but wasn't so sure if sleeping was a good idea in her current situation. Kirigiri struggled to keep her dull purple eyes open, resulting to hitting her arm as hard as she could to keep herself awake.
As she pounded on her arm she concentrated on her skin's colour.
Pale
grey
black
blue
...
red
Kirigiri pulled back her fist and stared at her arm in frustration.
She had drawn blood, and she had black and blue bruises all over her shaking arm...
Kirigiri sighed, and threw herself backwards onto the bed. It was no use...the pain was just making it worse...she would just have to...
she would have to trust Him.
Kirigiri closed her crying eyes and begged to whoever might have been listening...
That Ishida wasn't as bad as he seemed.