Here is the next chappy..
me jaldi mein hun... to sab ko indiviual thanks nahi keh paaun gi...
Thanks to all of u for your precious reviws ..thank u very very much.
So... here is the long update for all of u...
HERE WE GO.
After attending the last lecture Adi and ayush came out from the auditorium and move to see the notice board. After seeing the date sheet of final exam. Like any other student they become tensed. Ayush looked at Adi and found him lost somewhere. He said.
Adi…sirf 15 days…yaaar….
Adi just nodded.
Hmm…
yaar... hua kia hai tujhe... lecture mein bhi ajeeb sa behave kar raha tha...ab exam date pe bhi itna simple reaction...
Adi shook his head: kuch nahi... bas yun hi... acha chal ab ghar... parhai bhi karni hai,...
Ayush felt something really serious but didnt force Adi to tell because he know that Adi will tell him very soon.
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Adi entered inside and saw his mother ready to go some whre.
maa aj to aap ka off tha... phir...
beta wo... tumhari chachi ke sath market ja rahi hun... kuch cheezein leni thi...tum... khana kha lena...
ok... Adi just nodded.
Tarika said: adi... kia hua beta.. school mein kuch...
nahi maa...bas aise hi...
acha thek hai... dihaan rakhna apna...me jati hun...
and move to the door.
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Abhijeet Daya and Rajat sitting in Acp's cabin in front of Acp sir.
Acp sir started: ye raha wo route jis se hotey huey.. us plan ko... Mumbai tak lana hai...wo plan is waqt Kahan hai... ye tum teeno jaaney hi ho...bohat hi important plan hai... ghalat hathon mein chala gaya to bohat tabahi ho gi...
Daya Asked: to phir sir... Abhijeet akela kiun...koi backup sath hona chahiye...
mahi... strict orders hain... ke kam log involve hon is mein...
Abhijeet said: sir me handel kar lun ga...
good... or tumhare sath... teen or officers hon ge... aik crime branch se... aik stf se... or aik cbi se...
yes sir...
now... i think its enough... abhijeet jao tum ghar... subha pach baje nikalna hai tumhe...
Abhijeet stood up . Acp sir folded the map and stood up. Rajat's cell rang so he excused himself and moved out.
Acp sir said to Daya: daya... wo file apne pass safely copy kar ke pc mein se delete kar do...
daya move out to follow the orders.
Acp sir glanced at Abhijeet and found restlessness on his face he cant name it as a fear or something .
He asked: kia hua... koi problem?
no sir...
good...
Abhijeet turned to go.
Abhijeet...
he turned: yes sir...
Khayal rakhna apna...
yes sir...
now go...
abhijeet moved out and acp sir sighed.
ab aik or bete ko khoney ki taqat nahi hai mujh mein..
he move back to his seat and try to concentrate on work. But cant get rid off that feeling which was continuously indicating about some thing not good in future.
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Abhijeet reached home and glanced at his watch..yes he is home has decided to open his heart..the fatherly emotions in front of Adi.
He thought for whole night..seriously in the fear of committing a mistake he is doing a greater mistake
He will leave tomorrow, he dont know he will return or not. Before going he should make sure Adi don't live with the life long grudge. As he had seen in Nakul. He wants to hug him tell him just like the childhood .
Papa hain na beta…
he smiled pulling out the shopper from the car a new pair of sports shoe and some rock music cd. Adi will love this he is sure.. Last time when he gifted Adi something without occassion? He dont remember..
sach kehta hai Daya kharus ban gaya hun me…
He entered inside.
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Adi was sitting in his room looking at the time table,
only 15days..
No this time he will fulfil his fathers dream.. How can he be such an idiot..only things he can see is the anger..? The scare the love behind it..why was he blind to those? He was always comparing his father with his mamu or chachu..he forgot that different people have so different means to express love
Today he need to speak with him,last time when did they sat back and spoke?
Just chat?
Long long back..
Now a days after two three lines they start arguing..and most of the time Adi himself starts it
A small point abhijeet disagree with him and he starts..the only thing coming to his mind is papa dont like me so he is opposing
Adi was busy in thoughts when heard
"Adi"
He looked up, his father is standing there at his room door he wished to go and hug him..but something stopped him . today he understood not only his father is diffrent from his uncles..
even he is much different from his brothers..they do this hugs so easily and he is thinking
Abhijeet entered :
wo tum..tum parhai kar rahe they?
Abhijeet mentally slapped himself..again..once again..why cant he get out of this parhai thing..
Adi let out a small sigh; han wo history mein thori uljhan thi bas...
han history..wo..me..bata dun...
Adi frowned..his mind gave him strange alarm
ye papa ko kia ho gaya..wo history bataein ?per ye to kabhi bhi nahi kaha unho ne...bachpan se mumma parhati hain...
He said aloud "aap?"
Abhijeet too got he is moving in wrong track again
He said : nahi wo tumhari mummah nahi thi to..acha choro wo tum ne school se aney ke bad kuch khaya?
Adi nodded awkwardly
abhijeet nodded also.
Both are thinking when landline rang. Adi looked at Abhijeet and moved out.
It was ayush informing their tution teacher has called them for some special lectur Hee. kept back the phone and turned to Abhijeet.
Abhijeet had already heard the one way conversation. His face fall..
Adi noticed it and said :wo ayu ne kaha...
Abhijeet cut him :haan jao..der ho jaye gi...
Adi looked at abhijeet keenly..and after long years called in a cute tone
"papa.."
Abhijeet didnt looked at adi but looked away
niklo tum Ayush wait kar raha ho ga..
nd moved to his room
Adi sighed : papa ko kia hua?chachu se jhgra hua?ya dadu se?umm sayed ayu kuch bata paye..
And he too moved to his room.
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Aftr ending tuition adi and ayu are returning home,they are walking to the bus stop when ayu speak up
tujhe hua kia hai..? subha se dekh raha hun..aise kiun moo pe 12bajaye ghum raha hai...?
Adi looked down "ayu.."
hmm bol..
me na aab se acha banne ki koshish karun ga (ayu frowned) ab se or dil nahi dukhaun ga papa ka..me bahut parhai krun ga..bahut acha..
Ayu cut him strictly ye tujhe kis ne kaha tu bura hai..?
nahi malum hai..
phirse ulta sidha sochne laga..tu bura nahi hai Adi, bas tu or uncle bahut diffrnt hain...per dono hi bahut achey hain...samjha?or haan agey se mere bhai ko bura bola na to dekhna..uncle ne kia peeta us se bura peetun ga..bilkul Daya uncle wala jhapar..
Adi smiled : Ayu me bahut dil se parhai krun ga..achey marks laun ga na?
bilkul...
per mere dimaag mein...yaar...me bahut dull hun...
chup phir se burai?acha chal me hun na..me tution lun ga tera..tu aj se parhai start ker or jo jo points mein problem ho gi note ker..phir me dekhta hun...
Adi grinned and both reached the auto stand.
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Tarika entered inside with Abhijeet's clothes in her hand.
abhijeet ye tumhare kapre.. or kuch...
she saw him sitting on bed with the pic in which 2 years old adi sitting in his lap and playing with his laptop.
aise kia dekh rahe ho?
apne bete ko..
abhijeet?
Tarika mujhe kabhi kabhi bahut darr lagta hai...
Darr?
haan.. Adi mein ab bhi itni bachpana hai..zimmedari nahi hai.. wo kia kare ga..meri job aisi hai ke kabhi kuch bhi ho sakta hai...phir?tab wo kese...kia?
tum isiliye itni sakhti karte ho na?
hmm..mujhe nahi pata me kesa tha bachpan mein... mujhe kese parvarish mili..per mujhe har pal darr sa lgta hai ke ager me zada relax hun to Adi shayed bigar..Adi samjhta ho ga papa mujh se pyar nahi karte..apne chachu se shikayet bhi karta hai...per tarika mujhe jatana hi nahi ata pyar..
Tarika replied: pyar... jatatey to ho... per thora alag tarike se...
Abhijeet smiled sadly mere bete ko bahut shikayetein hain...tarika bahut sari..tumhein yad hai.. bachpan mein.. muh phula ke bolta tha papa bahut bad hain...jab bhi me us k saath nahi khelta tha, aj bhi... dil hi dil mein waisa hi kehta ho ga..us ke sapne us ki khusiya me kisi mein us ka saath hi nahi deta...per selfish ban ke... us ke liye sapne dekh sakta hoon... wo bhi apni marzi ke...
Tarika try to make him understand: per wo sapne bhi to us ke faiyde ke liye hi dekte ho...
per us ke sapno ki bali charha kar...
Adi came out from his room for drinking water when he listens some voices from his parents room he moved there and about to knock the door when.
Abhijeet... aisa nahi hai...dekho... tum insaan ho... farishta nahi... ghalti tum se bhi ho sakti hai...
per me ne usey thappar mara... kitne saal se... aik pyar bhara shabd to kaha nahi... phir to thappar marne ka bhi haq nahi hai na...Pata hy tarika raat ko us ke sone ke bad jata hun usey aik bar pyar karne per jab tak wo jaga ho bas tane deta rehta hun...
Adi want to rushed in and hugged him very very tightly but he kept standing there and listens.
aaj bhi jab... wo gaya tution ke liye... to aaj pehli baar... muje us ki parhai pe ghussa aya...me ne itni mushkil se khud se himmat ki lekin ye parhai beech mein aa gai...
Adi smiled tearily
Abhijeet after some pause spoke suddenly
mera aik kaam karo gi tarika... me jab chala jaun na kal...to usey kehna... kehna ke...us ka baap us se.. bahut pyar karta hai... bahut...or kehna ke ...muje maaf kar de...
Abhijeet tum ye sab...
nahi tarika... bolne do aaj...pata nahi... me laut bhi paun ya nahi... wo plan... plan itna secretive or sensitive hai ke... ab tak 20 officers us ke liye...
tarika felt the cold shiver but didnt spoke
me nahi chahta ke mera beta... anjan rahe mere pyar se... khud to shayd kabhi.. samney keh na paaun... please tum...
Then stood up and move to his cupboard and returned with a shopping bag
is mein... Adi... k liye... do gifts hain...usey bina occasion kabhi kuch diya nahi...to samjh nahi aya kia kahun ga...tum usey...
Adi felt his sobs wl come out so just rushed to his room.
he entered inside and closed the door and sit on floor.
pa..pa...
He sobbed.
mere liye.. itna pyar... or me...pata nahi kitni khawhishen qurbaan ki hon gi aap ne... kitna kuch... or me... aik thappar kia maar diya sab bhul gaya...
aap ko haq hai papa.. haq hai aap ko muje maarne datne sab ka haq hai...
mere liye sapne dekhna ka bhi haq hai...or un sapno ko pura karna mera farz hai...
he wiped his eyes harshly and stood up moved to the shelf he took some thing and stared it
some one inside him speaks: arey... ye to tumhara sapna hai na... isey kia kar rahe ho...
he said in determined way: nahi... mere liye... papa ne pata nahi kitne sapne kitni khawhishein tiyagi hon gi... kitni baar bhookey rahey hon ge... muje to chachu ne sirf aik bar ka bataya per pata nahi kitni..
(shook his head) to kia me un ke us sapne ke liye jo mere hi bhaley ke liye hai... apna aik sapna nahi tiyaag sakta...
he stared that thing for the last time and throw it down.
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Abhijeet entered inside Adi's room and saw what he always wish
but at this moment he is not feeling happy not satisfied...he dont know why,...
Adi was sleeping bruying his face in the book He move forward and made him lay comfortably on the bed. He glanced at the book...
ye.. physics...mere dimgh mein ghusti hi nahi...aik to papers se chir... chalo... wo de diye... per ye physics ka paper hota hi kiun hai...
to janab ko... history ke sath sath physics bhi pasand aney lagi...Abhijeet smiled sadly.
he placed the book on shelf and moved when his foot got hit with some thing. He look down and find the bin in which adi usually discard rough papers and all. He was about to push it forward when his sharp eyes caught some shiny thing in it. He bent down to took it out.
He glanced at it and suddenly felt something rolling down to his cheeks.
It was the golden trophy which was awarded to the winner of under 19 inter school tennis tournament.
he smiled when he remembered the twinkling eyes of his son while showing this.
He felt very angry on himself after remembring his reaction.
han ye to theek hai... per ab zara parhai per bhi concentrate karo tum... jao Maths ki book le ke aao apni...
This is the dream of his son this is the passion...
and he... he is forcing him to sacrifice his dream just because his own fear
How can he be so mean..?
He spread his hand on the trophy: meri wajah se...mera beta apne sapne qurban kare ga...kesa baap hun me...(then wiped his eyes and looked at Adi)nahi.. tuje kuch nahi karna pare ga...koi sapna koi khawhish nahi...
Placed back the trophy on the shelf and move back to Adi. Abhijeet covered him properly and kissed his forehead.
He turned and started moving. Suddenly he turned again and movd back to Adi's bed. He started staring at his face.
Suddenly he remembered Daya's words.
tumhara beta na... kabhi kabhi... bilkul tumhari tarha lagta hai... angry young man...bas farq itna hai... tum kharus ho... or wo nahi...
he rufled his hairs.
Ayush got the sensibility of his father.
Ashish got the style of his father
but what his son gets..
NOTHING...
He wish that he could wake him up and told him that he love him love him alot...he is the only reason of his life after his duty... he is nothing without him...
He sat beside him and started his silent convo with his son.
Beta... papa aap se kuch kehna chahtey hain...aap na.. papa se naraz mat hona... papa really love u yaar...per me thora kanjoos hun... aap ko pata hai na...(smiled) nahi aap ko kese pata ho ga... me ne kabhi khud ko janney ka moqa hi nahi diya...per aaj me aap ...aap se kehna chahta hun... beta... ke aap ki har khushi pe muje bhi utni hi khushi hoti hai.. jitni Ayush or Ashish ke pita ko hoti hai un ki kamiyabi pe..per me na.. darta hun.. ke kahin... aap ko zindagi mein koi mushkil na uthani parey mere baad...(hold Adi's hand) aj bohat dar lag raha hai papa ko..kiun ke papa jantey hain ke shayad wo wapis na aaein... bas dar hai... to is baat ka... ke kahin aap se miley bina hi na jana parey... aap ko galey se lagaye bina...
words stuck inhis throat and he leaned back and closed his eyes.
doctor came out from labour room and informed.
congratulations... aap ka beta hua hai...
He felt like saari khushiyan aik taraf... or baap banney ki khushi aik taraf
He asked: or tarika?
wo thori weak hain... thori dair mein hosh aa jaye ga...
nurse handed him the baby boy. He hold him very carefully and looked at his face.
the pure innocent face... he remove the tears from his eyes and kissed him softly.
he came out from his sweet journey and saw Adi moving his head in sleep. He patted his head. Adi turned to him and hold his finger and smiled in sleep.
Abhijeet's vision got blury and he traveled back to one more sweet memory.
He was watching some talk show when Tarika came with 7 months old Adi and said
zara is ko pakro... me is ki Khichdi le ke ati hun...
han me dekh raha hun...
Tarika went.
aa..aaa...hahh..
Abhijeet glanced at Adi who was smiling on some thing.
He took him in his lap
arey... mera bacha kia ga raha hai haan...
heehh..aaa
aley wah..
He spread his palm in front of him. Adi focused on his ring finger
he showed him: ye dekho...
Adi very minutely exemine the ring and then hold his finger tightly.
aley... inni jol shey pakla papa ki fingal...
he tried to free but Adi didnt left so he just smile and turned his eyes to the television. After some time he felt a sharp pain in his finger and shouted suddenly.
aaaahhhh...
hearing his shout Adi started making so many faces and then cried out loudly. Tarika also came.
kia hua...?
is ne meri finger ko khichdi samjh ke kha liya...
he showed her his finger, where the teeth mark is visible.
both looked at Adi who was now looking at his parents with really angly face.
and a laughter blast echoed in the house.
abhijeet laugh lightly but then bit his tongue because Adi frowned in sleep.
He removed the fresh tear formed in his eyes and lied comfartably beside Adi.
His one finger of the hand is in Adi's grip and from the other hang he is weaving his head.
After some time he too went in the dreamland.
After some hours some body called him.
Abhijeet... utho...
He opened his eyes and signaled tarika to lowerd her voice.
sshhh...Adi uth jaye ga...
Tarika whispered: 3:45 ho rahey hain... tumhe nikalna hai 5 baje...
he signaled her again and sat up then took out his finger from Adi's grip carefully and moved out with tarika after patting Adi's head.
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after some time he got ready and came back to Adi's room and saw him sleeping he sat near him and looked at him. he felt a hand on his shoulder.
Abhijeet...
haan ..me me bas ja hi raha tha...
me is ko utha deti hoon...
and she was about to call him but he stopped her
na...hahi... soney do...(smiled ) kitney aram se so raha hai,...
hmmm...
Abhijeet stood up kissed Adi's head and both moved out side.
After some minutes Abhijeet stepped out from the house ... but with an incomplete feeling in his heart...he wanted to express his emotions to his son... but failed miserably ...
he feels that once again he missed a chance of express himself in time...
something deep inside his heart telling him he already missed a chance but this time the difference is...
This time he cant blame any accident any circumstances any thing because this time he is and only will be responsible.
and he left for the duty with a pray that God just give me a chance.
but he didnt know what destiny has planned for him.
end of chappy
to..please ab r and r
next update on Friday i know kafi lamba gap hai.. per due to some reason me update nahi kar paaun gi...
tab tak... take care
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