YouLove
the song of the heart
Anxiety was her worst enemy.
Since her mother died years ago, whenever she stood up in front of her father, under that stern gaze of his and the cold aura surrounding him, Lucy froze, her heart stammering against her chest in fear, and her neck started to sweat as her forehead.
A knot formed in her throat.
That reaction wasn't normal for a daughter, who talked to her father after several weeks.
But she couldn't help it.
After Layla died, Jude had always been so cold and heartless. Lecturing her for wearing skirts or making friends of low class. Looking at her like she was worthless, just a long bump in the road of his work.
She really, really tried to fight those feelings off.
Lucy gulped down, trying to control her shaking body as she looked back at the man sitting behind the mahogany desk.
Files and papers and pens were scattered around, pretty messy for him, since he used to be a neat man.
She didn't know anymore.
His stone, brown eyes analyzed her as if she was an important contract he was about to sign. His fingers were intertwined under his chin, his yellow suit impeccable.
"Lucy." he said. His voice was firm.
She didn't know why he called him there.
Oh God.
What if something happened?
Or worse. What if he found out about her youtuber life? After all, that maid saw her lying in the floor and squealing. But that shouldn't be proof enough, right? Or perhaps one of his many contacts saw her videos.
She'd knew from the start it was a very risking thing to do.
But it made her happy, and it was worth everything.
She'd got to know so many people and make new, true friendships. Like Levy. Who would know if they'd be friends, if Levy didn't recognize her from her videos that day in the hallway?
"Yes, father?" she said. Her voice threatened to break at any point, but her undying will avoided it to happen.
She'd not show her weakness.
She'd remain strong before the man that tortured her, consciously or not.
She'd win this battle of hers.
"I've hear of this Math exam of yours," he said. At the same time, she relaxed and tensed. That was not the end of the world for her, but every time he reproached her something, she had the urge to punch something.
She was afraid, but if you asked her exactly what she was afraid of, she couldn't tell.
She decided to go for the safer way, if there was one to start with. "I'm sorry, father," she said.
Jude's expression didn't change in the last bit, "You said you'd be the best in your class."
It shocked her that he remembered those words, when she'd forgotten all about it until then. It seemed so long ago.
"I'll try my best, father." Lucy said. Even to her, her voice sounded empty.
"I expect from you only the best." Jude said. "If Math is difficult to you, I can hire a personal teacher to-"
Lucy blinked back tears. She did not interrupt him, she knew better than do that from past experiences. But she didn't listen, or else she'd break.
When he finished, Lucy took a deep breath. "That will not be necessary, father. I'll try my best in my next exam."
It even wasn't the worst note of her class. Yes, Math was one of her cruelest enemies, but if she really put a little effort on it, she knew she could get at least average grades -but she didn't put the little effort on it. She didn't want to.
"That is all."
She slowly let out the breath she didn't know was holding, and after bowing her head to him, she left the cold office.
Many maids and employees asked her is everything was allright with their gaze, knowing very well how harsh their boss could be. Lucy offered them the biggest smile she could muster at the moment, which shouldn't be so big.
Everything would be so easier if her mother was still around.
At the end of the corridor, Lucy found herself running, crying even before she crossed the doors to her safe oasis. The complete different decoration of her room made her feel slightly better.
She sat against the wall, burying her face between her knees, her hands tugging harshly at her blonde hair.
She couldn't wait to turn eighteen and go live by herself. Maybe she could study far away and live in a campus and meet new people, forget about all this.
Yes. That sounded good.
She cried loudly, letting everyone know about her misery. But nobody heard.
Time passed and passed by, without her noticing, in that Wednesday day, until the last rays of sunshine leaked through her curtain, snapping her out.
She frowned and lifted her eyes, feeling how swollen her eyes were. The light hurt her vision, so she blinked a couple of time for it to adjust again. Great. She'd cried like three hours straight.
Her family was not like in fairy tales, that was for sure.
Lucy forced herself to get up, wiping away the last tears and she threw herself over her bed. Grabbing her phone, she saw how many messages she had from Levy, asking her if she was okay since she didn't reply to her first ones.
She resisted the urge to reply sarcastically. Levy didn't deserve any of her shit.
Groaning, Lucy got her laptop and placed it over her lap, turning it on. She checked her Twitter notifications, and then her YouTube ones. It was the normal amount she got daily, so nothing special had happened while she wasn't on.
But of course she saw Natsu's new video.
He was sitting over what she presumed was his bed, his expression slightly ashamed. At his side, she spotted the blue fur.
It was the cat Levy saw walking with him.
For a moment she'd forgot all about that. He really lived close, not at the other side of the world. But not even that information cheered her up.
"Yo guys," he said. She saw him a little tense, but he was smiling nonetheless. "This is random, but I lost a bet to Ice Princess and now I have to do it…"
Lucy frowned, adjusting her earphones into her ears to listen better. She gasped when he picked up a guitar from his side and put it over his lap, frowning at it.
"The bet was about if he had guts enough to take his girl to the movies and pick a really cheesy movie. He didn't have to look at her in the entire movie. Said girl came out sad because he didn't even pay attention to her, so I lost. Now I have to sing a song he picked. At least this one is decent," he shrugged.
"And sorry if I suck," he laughed beautifully, "I had guitar lessons when I was like seven,"
Lucy smiled unconsciously, eager to listen to him sing. How dare him do everything good?
"This is Time of Your Life by Green Day,"
He started to play.
It was obvious he hadn't played the guitar in a long, long time. His fingers were unused to it, moving kind of awkwardly, but he managed to put it off and play the song.
And his voice. Lucy was shocked when he opened his mouth. It was obvious he wasn't the best singer out there, but he did his best. It was normal, not perfect but not horrible. At least he didn't sing like a barking dog.
But parallel to if his voice was good or not, his specially calmed her. It was deep and strong, things she felt she wasn't. Or maybe it was the song's lyrics.
"I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos and memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right,
I hope you had the time of your life." He sang.
Little tears dripped from her eyes, but she held the rest of them back. She'd already cried her eyes out, she didn't want anymore.
When he ended, he sighed and scratched the back of his head uncomfortably.
"So, I still suck at these things. Fuck you, bastard. Bye everyone."
The video came to an end.
And Lucy laughed.
She closed his video and read what she missed on Twitter while she was gone. There were a lot of curses in Natsu's tweets directed to that Ice Princess, making her laugh some more.
But it didn't matter. Because her laugh was temporarily, only for a few minutes, but how long was going her sadness to last?
The thought crushed her down again, and sighing, she wrote a new tweet.
'I'd do anything to take this feeling away.'
Then she proceeded to answer all of Levy's messages. It took her a handful couple of minutes, but seeing her worry so much for her well-being warmed up her heart. She'd try not to repeat it. After all, she knew Levy was going to lecture her for doing that.
Levy's scoldings were very different from her father's.
NatsuDSlayer: Are you feeling sad again?
Lucy blinked at the screen.
CelestialLucy: Yeah, but don't worry, I'll be fine.
NatsuDSlayer: Hey! I can't leave a sad person feeling down! What can I do to cheer you up?
CelestialLucy: Ahh, but I'd feel like I'm annoying you!
NatsuDSlayer: No! I wouldn't have talked to you if I thought you were annoying ;)
Lucy absentmindedly blushed at his emoji. She later cursed herself for being so sensitive when it came to the boy, who surely had no idea who she was.
Even if Levy insisted otherwise.
CelestialLucy: Thank you, really :)
NatsuDSlayer: Though it sucks to talk here. Add me to skype, it's Dragon777. That way we can talk easier!
Lucy nearly had a heart attack.
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