Lucy [Flashback]
Captatio [Pursuit] – IV [Pars II]
"I was useless."
The day can go by so slowly when your emotions are in a limbo. Other than this morning, that was the last time I talked to my dad, let alone see his face. He just comes and goes like the wind. It was late afternoon almost evening. Many of the servants in the house were moping around, since Natsu was nowhere to be found. Everyone was tired of the goose chase. I was tired of the crap. It was quiet and there was a warm breeze. "Go." I heard a whisper in the wind.
"Who's there?" No answer. I didn't recognize the voice, so I must be hearing things. I was sitting here on the porch alone and depressed, but I was feeling different now. Now I felt alone, depressed and confused. But there was no need to sit here forever. I got up and took a quick peek at the sun to watch it set. Because of Natsu's disappearance, no cleaning was done today. Which means that all I got was a lack of sleep, an accusation I didn't deserve, and loneliness. Just great. It was dusk now, and I've got to admit, I've never been so bored in my entire life. Usually by now, Natsu and I would be hanging out right about now. We would at least be doing something. Summer's a pretty long season, especially if you're alone. I hate summer, yet I loved it at the same time1. I felt drowsy, but I didn't want to fall asleep here on the porch of all places, so I tried to shake the sleep out of me by walking. I walked and walked, but I still felt empty. I slumped down on the floor. This was useless. I was useless. I just sat there on the floor, until someone came by. It was my dad. Oh great, the words of encouragement are here. He just stood there. It pisses me off so much when he just stands there and says nothing. "Well?" I said. He opened his mouth as if to say something, but closed it back. Then he proceeded to walk away. I was so angry. "You'd never treat mom like this! Why are you doing this to me? Do you hate me?" I began to cry as I stood up. "Well guess what? I hate you! I bet mom hates you too!" I couldn't take it. I wanted to be alone. I began to run to my room.
"Lucy, I-"
"Don't call my name. Don't you get it? I HATE YOU!" I ran off without turning back.
I sat alone in my room. It was quiet, just the way it should be. My head was empty, there were no thoughts in my head. I guess I might've acted a little of a drama queen, back there, but those were my true feelings. He was all I had left in my family, and he didn't even treat me like a daughter. "Leave." Oh great, just what I wanted to hear. It was that voice again. There was no one else around, so I wondered where the voice came from. I picked up my mirror and looked into it. Nothing unusual this time. I went to my drawer and opened to third shelf. Good they're still here. They were a few of my celestial keys. I decided to take them out. My keys and this mirror were really the only important items I currently had. I heard a knock on my door. It was probably ,my dad, so I decided to ignore it. Then the knocking continued. It was hard to ignore now, because whoever was there just kept knocking. I got pretty annoyed so, I went to the door and opened it."What do you want?" There was no one there. I must have a fever, because first I was hearing voices, and second now I heard knocks. When I looked on the floor, there was a trail of sakura petals leading somewhere. Who did this and how did I not see this before? I didn't want to leave my stuff behind, so this time, I took my keys, and my mirror, and followed the path. I followed it until, the trail stopped at the front gate. What did this mean? Was this a prank?"Go." It was that voice again. This time, I decided to talk to it.
"Go where?" I asked.
"Go." it said.
"Where?" I asked again.
"Go." it said. Ok this wasn't working. I didn't even know who I was talking to. Was it trying to tell me to go meet Natsu? "Go, go, go, go."
"Alright, I get it!" With this mirror in my hand, and keys as well, I took a step out the gate. It wouldn't have felt so weird, if I was fully prepared for it. I took more steps until steps turned to a slow jog, and then into a run.2 This pace I was taking, felt nostalgic. It was almost as if, I had already felt this feeling before. I didn't feel alone either, I felt as if Natsu was here with me. I didn't want to look back. I only wanted to look ahead. With the warm breeze coming at my face, it felt good. I felt empowered. I felt free, and for once I could say that I was truly happy. I don't know how fast I was running, but I didn't want to stop. I just wanted to be free. Goodbye, servant hood, hello freedom. For once I actually felt free, and I was truly happy. I wasn't sure how fast I was going, but that didn't matter. I was on my way to freedom, and best of all Natsu. Wait for me, Natsu.
Hello, my fellow nakama! Hope everything's good on your end? ^^ I'm getting pretty excited concerning the story's progress. I've been keeping up more on my summer work, so time is clearing up for me :D. I'm heading to Nigeria for 2 weeks, in a few days, so I'll still try my best to update as much as I can. So as always, put a review down here, it helps me a lot! ^^. Well that's it for now, so Tao is over and out :).
Author's Notes:
1. This is a pun. Natsu's name means "summer" so what she's saying, is that she hates the season but loves the person.
2. Reference to Chapter III.