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After getting off the phone with her daughter, Mia couldn't help but stay outside for a few more moments just trying to process how she was gonna ask Happy about by he hadn't reached out to her. Part of her knew the answer and she wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt.
When her phone went off again she checked the ID this time and inhaled deeply. Seeing Austin's name coming up on the screen, she pressed ignore, before placing her phone on the arm of the chair and sighing in frustration.
She was pulled from her thoughts when she smelt a whiff of chocolate mud cake with cream soaking the delicate sponge.
"Mmm, my favorite. Thanks" Mia accepted with a smile that covered her slight fear of the phone call she just ignored.
"What's the matter baby girl?" Her fathers gruff but soft voice asked as he sat with his daughter.
"Just thinking daddy. Sorry for being rude in there" Mia explained.
"Don't worry about it. Everyone knows how you feel when it comes to him. In my defense though he's here on strict business. Your ma invited everyone round for dinner. He's been having a hard time coping with his work and shit" Lee explained causing Mia's heart to ache for him slightly. Mia knew the weight of his place in the club. He didn't wear the patch unholy ones as a decoration.
"You think I should go see him?" Mia asked in concern. For some reason she wasn't taking that as good news.
"Your mother has a few plates made up for him. Maybe I think you should" Lee rasped softly. Squeezing her leg gently, he tapped that same place then stood and headed inside.
"Remember that time when Gemma spilt the beans about me not being yours?" Mia asked stopping her father in his tracks. He gripped the wooden door handle a little tight and gritted his teeth.
"You are mine Mia. No matter what anyone says" Lee spat out remembering and hating that his daughter had to find out the way she did.
Mia could only nod. "I wouldn't speak to you or mama for a full week" she laughed. "Tara was here with me the entire time… We sat in my room, slept in my bed. Reminisced on the things we did with Tommy" a ghostly smile crossed her face. Mia would forever love Thomas Teller. "Then when I finally talked with you guys I still couldn't believe what I had heard." Now she made eye contact with her father and patted the empty seat he just vacated.
"That was the most gut wrenching time of my life. You wouldn't talk to us, eat with us. You couldn't even stay in the same room as us and we tried forcing you too."
Silence filled the open air as Mia rested her head against her fathers shoulder. "You thinking of telling him now?" Lee asked catching Mia's attention. He looked at her with a raised brow as if to say 'don't lie to my face young lady' and she chuckled.
"How long have you known?"
"Since the day you told us. She has his scowl and everything. Nothing but the strong Lowman genes in her that girl" Lee chuckled.
Mia sighed deep in thought. "I don't know if I can. He used me then. He made me feel cheap, like I was just there to fuck and fill" Mia spat out.
"Jesus Mia girl. There are some things you can share with your old man but an insight of your sex life ain't one of them and it doesn't help when it's one of my brothers" Lee stated clearly causing Mia to giggle when Lee stood and made his way to the front door. "But think about all the time before then. The time that you had together. Doesn't that count for something?" When she didn't answer he continued. "In your own time, tell him" with that, Lee disappeared.
Mia played with her dessert lazily as she tried raking her brain with the familiar questions that she always went over in her head but after only coming to one conclusion, having to sought him out face to face, she gave up all thoughts of the what ifs and questions altogether.
Heading back inside with a mission she looked around the lounge for her brothers old lady Hanna. "Hey, I could use a stiff drink tonight. Do you wanna come out with me?" Mia asked with a look you just couldn't say no too.
"Yeah. We can catch up. We were just about to head out too. We can start at clubhouse before we hit up the clubs if you want?"
"Great then I'll met you all there" Mia declared before she headed out. Hoping that Happy wasn't home when she got there she held her breath for the entire ride there.
Sighing in relief when she didn't see his dyna parked in the driveway and spotted no lights on she got out and headed straight for the house after checking up and down the street hoping no one was following or watching her.
Once she opened the door she thought she would come across the old nasty smell of the house not being aired out in a while but instead found comfort in the same aftershave and cologne that Happy still used.
"Shit" she spat out and keyed in the code to the alarm system she almost forgot Happy had someone install. When it deactivated, she headed straight for their old room knowing if Happy had stayed here occasionally, then he wouldn't of bothered tipping half of their shit out which included her wardrobe full of dresses. She sighed in relief to see that they were still in there. She thought about checking the rest of the house out but then reminded herself that she would just end up staying if she did so she got a fast shower in, shaved her legs and underarms before washing herself off.
Once she finished in the shower she changed into a clean pair of panties that were in her suitcase and threaded her arms into her bras before clipping them and hoping like hell she had a decent outfit to wear out clubbing.
Searching each draw from top to bottom, she huffed in frustration before checking the wardrobe and quizzed through the articles hanging in there. Some caught her eyes but it was the peachy orange strapless knee high dress that caught her eye and she pulled it out. Studying it carefully, a slow smile appeared on her face and she checked herself out in it through the large mirror hanging on the inside of the wardrobe. Liking it, she placed it on the bed and took to doing her hair and makeup. She brushed out her natural dark curls then applied a little makeup before finally trying on the dress that she just managed to squeeze in.
She had to admit that the last time she tried it on it was perfect but after having a baby, her breasts filled the thing along with the curves that came natural with her post baby body. She always took to running in the parks while pushing Livy in her stroller causing a smile to appear on her face the second she thought of her daughter.
After having changed and added perfume to herself she felt fresh and ready to party. Tomorrow was another day and she wanted to have fun for as long as she could before the bomb dropped.
Arriving at the clubhouse she headed straight inside and was immediately pulled in for hugs left and right before she even made it to the bar where she ordered a double shot of vodka straight. The blonde sweetbutt tending to the bar raised a brow at her and she glared at her.
"What's the matter honey?"
"I'm surprised your on that side of the bar and not tending to any of the guys round here. You look new to me. What's your name sweetheart?" She asked. Mia looked the sweet but up and down.
"I should hope these assholes keep their hands to themselves. My father would have a fit if they knew they even touched me" Mia stated with a grin as she spotted Kozic walking up to her but the snide comment from the blonde had her turning back to her that sounded a little bit like 'did you sneak out to hang with the big bad tough bikers?'
Before Mia could answer back Kozic's voice broke up the argument that was brewing.
"Hey darlin can I get two beers" he asked all the while looking at Mia. Kozic sat down next to Mia casually causing Mia to chuckle.
"I think he was talking to you darlin" Mia spat out after hearing blondie scoff and whisper something under her breath. "Was my parents stopping by?"
"Your dad was and I think your ma said something about cleaning up before dropping by."
"Good cause I wanna get this party started. I'll have the same again thanks honey" Mia couldn't hide the grin when the blonde twitched her mouth. She got a clean glass and poured her poison. Mia wrapped her hand around the glass and put it to her mouth.
"Little bit of a heads up Shelly. This is Amelia Hunter. Lee and Lucy's little girl and Haps old lady. Little bit of respect will get you places" Kozic whispered as she pulled the glass from her mouth and coughed up the last bit she had just swallowed.
"Shit why didn't you say anything? I'm sorry" the blonde apologized. "And I didn't even know Hap had an old lady. Whenever he's here he fucks any pussy he can get his hands on" Shelly confessed not bothering to hide her grin. She much like every other sweet but knew the rules when it came to members who had old lady's but her grin told Mia that she purposely spilt the beans wanting to get back at her.
"If that was a bite or if your trying to get a rise out of me it didn't work honey. Hap and I are no longer together so you can have him for all I care" she spat back causing Shelly to straighten up some and glance at Kozic who sat shaking his head. "Now give me the fucking bottle" Mia ordered with her hand firmly placed in front of her. Shelly retrieved the half full bottle of vodka from the shelf and handed it to her before she spun on her heel.
"You don't know what the hell you've just done girl" Kozic stated as he glared at Shelly.
"What? Bitch came around here all full of herself." Kozic could hear the jealousy laced in her voice and sighed.
"Well she is royalty here. Treat her with fucking respect from now on cause I think your gonna have a hard time finding it if she so much as talks to you again tonight."
Shelly narrowed her eyes at Kozic's retreating back before she tended to another member who's needs needed meeting.
Mia spent her night lounging on members and talking with them about random shit before she sat down with Lorca. She surprisingly hadn't drunk back half the bottle but she was on her way to having a hella headache in the morning.
"So you gonna explain yourself young lady?" Lorca asked in a dead serious tone. Mia shrunk in her seat and watched her father and Skip in a game of pool.
"Not tonight Lorca. I mean, it's not that I didn't want to tell you guys. It was just hard to. It was hard even telling mom and dad" Mia drunkenly confessed.
"Why? It's not like you had a one night stand with the guy and he up and left you" Lorca chuckled before he realized he was right and suddenly he felt like shit. "Shit I was joking Mia girl. I'm sorry" he apologized.
Mia sighed sadly before her laughter broke out and she took a pull from the bottle of vodka.
"I'm playing with you Lorca but it was a one night stand and he did up and leave me" Mia stated clear for everyone around them to hear. "But that's enough. I love my daughter and I wouldn't take sleeping with him back if it meant no other happiness. Can we just let the topic go and let loose. I haven't been out in a while" she confessed.
"Well baby girl you came to the right place" Skip chimed out as he pulled Mia from her seat next to Lorca. "Now I do believe it's your turn. I did just beat the old man" Skip smirked as Lee scoffed.
"Rack 'em up then big bro. If I win you have to buy all my drinks when we go out but if you do then you still have to buy them" Mia chuckled.
"If I win then we just stay here and you can have all the free booze you want" Skip negotiated causing Mia to narrow her eyes but shook hands on it.
After twenty minutes of back and forth off putting, Mia finally sunk the eight ball and spat in his face saying that he couldn't go back on his word.
Around midnight Mia still felt like going clubbing so she rounded up her girls and the guys and filed into her mothers SUV where she sober drove them all into town.
"Thanks ma. I love you" Mia confessed.
"I love you too baby girl. Skip watch my girls for me" Lucy declared as she pulled Skip in for a kiss.
"You know we will ma" Skip exclaimed with a grin knowing half the guys who came out weren't nearly as drunk as Mia and Hannah.
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Mia was feeling the pain of wearing heels shoot through her feet as she danced on the dance floor. Loving all the attention of men groping her she couldn't help but wanna shove them back at the same time. Pulling out of the crowd of people she finally managed to lean against the bar and rest her feet when she sat down before she felt an arm reach out for her causing her to pull her arm from his grasp.
"Hey babe, calm down" a hot looking blonde haired buff man said as he held his arms up in defense. "If I could guess, I'd say your looking for some fun" the man smirked.
Mia tried concentrating for a second adjusting to the dizzy spell coming on before her eyes gleamed in drunken behavior. "Shelly" she offered holding her hand out for his.
"Andre but my friends call me Dre" Andre used his famous pick up line and smirked moving closer to whisper into her ear. Just as he whispered something in her ear, he was pulled back before she was swiftly pulled from behind and draped over someone's shoulder which was the tell tail sign that someone had ruined her plans of anything ever happening with Dre tonight.
"What the hell were you thinking Mia. Get your ass in the cab" she heard Skip order. Mia shrunk as she quietly obeyed her brother before he was ordering the driver to take her to their parents house. Never one to take a taxi alone, she stayed awake paranoid about everything that could happen to her on her ride home.
"Hey can you take me to 86 cherrywood place please."
"No can do sweetheart. Your brother had strict orders to get you back to your folks" the cabbie who was a woman stated catching Mia off guard. She sighed in half relief but she was adamant to go back to her house.
"Look miss I live there with my boyfriend. If you can't take me there then let me out" Mia snapped causing the cabbie to look back into her rearview mirror.
"Fine. Sit back for the ride and tell me if you need to puke so I can stop" the cabbie stated.
On the ride home Mia couldn't help but look down to her hands and close her eyes from the motion sickness causing her to yell out that she needed to throw up.
The cabbie ended up stopping twice for Mia to throw up before she made it to the address she asked to go to. Once Mia fished her keys out of her bra where she stashed everything she headed inside knowing her brother had paid the meter bill by just throwing cash at the woman to get her home safely.
She stumbled into the house and closed the door behind her. Flicking the light switch on she almost forgot again about the alarm system as it rang out and she swore under her breath. Keying in the code she made sure to lock every lock on the door and headed for the lounge hoping there would still be alcohol in the cabinet they had kept their goods in.
Flicking on the lounge light she gasped in shock when she noticed the room wasn't how she left it earlier in the night. There was an empty Jameson bottle and beer bottles on the table which was a clear sign that Happy was home.
"Shit." Reaching for the fresh bottle of Jameson, she headed for the stairs and stumbled up them slowly as she headed for their old room making sure to flick the lights on as she went.
She found Happy passed out halfway on the bed they once shared and smiled sadly. All of the feelings she buried deep within her suddenly started rising again and she felt that familiar pull towards him.
On shaky legs she crossed the room and tried flipping him over but he felt like dead weight.
"Fucking hell" she growled out. With one final hard push, Happy went rolling all the way off the bed falling face first onto the ground.
"What the fuck?" He growled out on high alert and wide awake now.
"Shit I'm sorry Hap. I didn't mean to push you all the way" Mia apologized slurring obvious in her speech. "I tried rolling you over so I could pull your shirt off but you were too heavy."
She heard Happy growl when he stood to his full height and clicked the kink out of his neck and back. "The hell are you doing here?" He slurred out drunk and high revealing itself at its best and avoided her last statement.
"It's my house too" she answered. Shuffling over on the bed she patted the empty space next to her.
"Na I got the couch. You take the bed" he declared as he ran a hand over his scruff.
"Honestly Hap I didn't mean to force you outta the bed. I really did just want to take your clothes off. I know you sweat like a pig and no I didn't just say that to get a rise out of you."
"Well then you shouldn't say anything at all" Happy growled out before he reached for a pillow and slowly made his way out of the room.
"How are you?" She asked stopping him from leaving.
"Not sure I know what you mean" he rasped out deeply with his back still facing her.
Mia slowly stood and closed the distance between them. She reached out for his shoulder softly and gave a gentle squeeze. "Dad told me your up here on business. Not hard enough to figure out why. You wanna talk about it?"
"Not in the mood for a heart to heart Mia. Get some sleep."
"Your still gonna be here when I wake up right?" She whispered but he heard her loud and clear. Instead of answering, he headed out of the room going straight for the couch as he flicked all the lights out leaving her to her thoughts before she passed out on the bed.