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After the fallout
Chapter 3
Puck drove around, not really concentrating on where he was going but somehow knowing where he'd end up.
It was a route he knew like the back of his hand. He parked in what used to be his usual spot and just stared into space as he glared at the now deserted school.
What he was expecting to find he didn't know.
He made his way through the empty corridors and headed quickly through the once busy halls until he came to the room that held so many memories both good and bad.
* Flash back *
It had been February the fourteenth, Valentine's day and he'd been paired with Kurt to sing a love song. His image as a jock and all round straight sex shark meant he was annoyed at the pairing at least he pretended to be not that he'd ever admit it to anyone. Just lately he hadn't been getting any at all because all his stupid brain could think about was how hot Kurt's ass looked in those super skinny's. He'd even had to turn down Santana and they'd been friends with benefits for a while. It was time to admit it to himself he was gay and he didn't want to hide it anymore.
After they'd sung Puck was feeling brave, he looked at Kurt who seemed to return his warm gaze but then the sound of applause shook him from his daze and then Kurt choose that time to speak. 'Noah' and then the spell was broken. 'It's Puck' 'I've been wanting to say this for a while I like you' 'I like you too Kurt' 'I mean I like you like..'. If it hadn't been for the fact they were in front of the entire glee club he would have admitted it but fear clutched his heart. He couldn't admit in front of everyone that he wanted nothing more than to sweep him off his feet and kiss him.
He closed his eyes for a moment then glared at him. 'Kurt, when will this end first you crush on your step brother, now me, I'm not a fag' he stormed out.
'Noah Puckerman' that voice made him stop in his tracks. You didn't walk away when Santana was angry. He turned only for her to slap him hard across his cheek. 'What the fuck Santana'. 'You may not be brave enough to admit it but I know you want to be with Kurt' He looked down 'I'm not gay Santana come on you know that' he glared back defiantly at her. She moved closer getting right in his face and said 'all I know is what Kurt said took guts, to confess his feelings for you in front of everyone and the way you looked at him when you where singing I know you feel the same'. He turned to leave 'you've hurt him bad Puck I hope you can live with that'.
He called her later that night. 'Your right San I'm gay' 'I knew it' 'how'? 'oh come on everyone has seen you staring at him' 'shit so everyone in glee knows?' 'yep' 'I bet that's why Finn hasn't come round and tried to hit me yet' 'oh he wanted to go after you but Kurt begged him not to hurt you'.
'I feel like such an asshole' 'serves you right Puck you crushed his heart, it didn't have to be that way'. He sighed 'yes it did I'm on the football team can you imagine what would happen if I suddenly came out and started dating Kurt..' she cut him off 'they'd treat you like they do Kurt everyday, you try and be this badass but your not. Kurt holds his head up high every single day, proud to be who he is while you hide away in your closet, in my book that makes him more badass than you'll ever be'.
He couldn't sleep that night Santana's words had affected him more than he wanted to admit. She'd managed to brake though his stubbornness. He spent the night writing a song explaining his feeling about Kurt and asking for his forgiveness.
It was Wednesday night. Puck went to sit near Finn, they hadn't spoken since the day before, he was hoping to explain but the angry glare he sent him told him to stay away. So for the first time he sat alone. Kurt walked in moments later. He tried to make eye contact but Kurt didn't even look his way but he could tell his eyes were puffy like he'd been crying.
He couldn't take this anymore no one was talking to him apart from Santana and even she wouldn't sit anywhere near him.
'Mr Shue I've got a...' but Puck never got a chance to finish that sentence, never got a chance to sing to Kurt explaining how he felt and asking for a chance to prove his love because a loud crackle suddenly filled his ears as glass from the windows flew in all directions and a putrid green gas filled in from the football field outside.
The force of the blast must have knocked them out as when he came to Puck could tell that something was off. It sounded as if everyone was yelling at once, which he supposed was natural as they must all be in shock but he couldn't take it' 'shut up' he screamed covering his ears as he ran out through were the wall once was and out to the football field. As he passed by he heard new voices and slowly realised that somehow he was hearing voices in his head but that's impossible maybe I'm in shock was the last thing he thought before he passed out.
*End Flash back*