"WOODS!" Raven shrieked trying to get her teammate's attention. She had been yelling the other girl's name for several moments but to no avail. "LEXA MOTHERFUCKING WOODS! ARE YOU FUCKING HIGH RIGHT NOW?!"

"Keep it down, Raven. The captain is going berate you once again if you don't keep your volume to a minimum. He's trying to rest." Lexa finally replied, as she was jarred back into reality.

"Well, maybe if you'd answered me the first time, Commander. Hell, if you had answered the second or third time, that would have been nice as well." The shorter girl retorted.

"Sorry. I guess I've kind of been in and out of it today." Lexa explained as she sat up from her horizontal position, her elbows now leaning on her knees for support.

"What's up now, Lexinator?" Raven sighed as she plopped down right beside the distracted brunette.

"Ugh, it's nothing." Lexa tried to explain with a deep sigh, "I was dropping Anya off at the airport this morning." She shook her head looking down in between her knees before she continued, "And I swear I saw her again…"

Raven jumped off from the couch exclaiming, "This shit again?" She shook her head wildly, "You swore you saw her in Rio that one year and then Amsterdam the next. Then you saw her on your next vacation in Spain the following year and then again during Oktoberfest last year! Now she's following you around home?!"

Raven sighed exasperatedly and put both her hands on Lexa's shoulder shaking her hard, trying to talk some sense into her, "Lexa, my main man. My partner in crime. My platonic soul mate. The mother of my future child with your perfect ass genes. Have you looked in a goddamn mirror lately? You can get any girl you want. You can get any guy you want. Hell, I've seen dogs jump on you faster than a fat kid on cake. But for some damn reason you can't get over this girl? She left you years ago, and you been hallucinating her return to your life since."

Lexa shook her head, tired of repeatedly explaining herself over and over again, "Rave, it's not like that. She was my best friend. We were absolutely nothing more than that. It's just she left without a damn word." Irritated with the conversation, Lexa threw her hands in the air as she jumped to her feet. "Not a fucking damn word. I thought that if I could count on anyone, it would have been her!"

She was pacing back and forth by this point, "And I can't stand that I keep seeing her everywhere. She left me and then I had the worst fucking year of my life. She fucking left us and then I was thrown into a fucking ditch."

Raven noticing the tears in her friend's eyes, wrapped both her hands around the other girl, enveloping her in a tight bear hug, "I don't know Lex. I barely get this passionate about my exes much less an old friend. You sure that was it?"

Lexa shook her head again and reiterated, "Yeah. Just. Friends."

"Whatever you say." Raven spoke again rubbing a hand in soothing circles on her friend's back. "So, you saw her again today?"

Lexa was finally feeling calm again and was thankful for having Raven in her life, no matter how exuberant the other girl was, "Yeah. I swear it was Clarke too. She was getting into a back of a cab, but before I could assure that it was her, the cab took off." She sighed for the umpteenth time in minutes, "It was her, but like older. She was just like I remembered her. She was…"

Before she could continue her thoughts, a loud ring interrupted her. Both women jumped to their feet as a taller man ran into the room. "Reyes! Woods! Girl talk is over! Accident down by La Cienaga! Let's get going!"

Lexa patted Raven on the back as both girls rushed out the room, "I'm probably crazy anyways. I'm just too tired and too stressed. How about we do drinks on Friday?"

As the three of them jumped onto the fire engine Raven joked, "Or you can just get laid?"

Lexa rolled her eyes and Raven jumped into the driver's seat before seriously replying, "But yeah. We could all use a drink." Raven let out a loud whoop as she drove off, leaving the firehouse behind.

It was a few hours later in the day when Lincoln and Lexa found themselves in the weight room training to waste time. Lincoln was spotting Lexa when he admitted, "I didn't mean to eavesdrop earlier, but I was walking into the room when you guys were talking."

With a grunt and Lexa pushed the heavy weights up trying her best not to lock her elbows in place, "It's fine Lincoln. You're like a brother to me. And everything I don't tell you, you'll most likely find out from your girlfriend anyways."

Lincoln chuckled with a defeated shrug, holding his hands underneath the bar in case she needed his help, "Although that is true, you know the one thing Octavia doesn't talk about is Clarke. And when she does its usually led by alcohol and followed by tears and screaming. I sometimes feel like she needed the closure more than you did." She did another two reps before he questioned full of concern, "Are you okay though?"

Lexa was silent finishing up her final reps of the set before she sat straight up. She wiped her forehead with the damp towel that draped her shoulders, "Yeah, I'm fine, honestly I am. It's just…" She shook her head again and made her way over to the punching bag. Lincoln followed in suit as he helped her put her gloves on and he stood behind the bag to hold it in its place, "It's just she left, you know? Like she physically left me, but I see her randomly and it's like she didn't really leave. Like she's still here but I have no access to her. Kind of like a ghost. It's her ghost following me and taunting me when I start to finally let it go. Man, I can't even enjoy a vacation without seeing her!" She gave the bag a few jabs and continued, "I'm over it. She had to do her thing and leave. I get it. She didn't want to come back. I get it. It just feels like I wasn't important enough to say goodbye to."

The deeper the conversation got, the harder she punched, "It wasn't that bad when she left though. It hurt yes, but it was something I knew I could handle in time. But then I got the news about my parents and then everything started spiraling out of control with Costia. She was nowhere to be found when I needed her the most."

Her punches were getting softer now as she looked her partner in the eyes, "I mean don't get me wrong. I love Octavia. She really is one of the best friends I have and I am blessed to have her and I am blessed that she stuck around even though I wasn't the kind of company she needed in her life. I wasn't the kind of company anyone needed in their lives."

Lincoln gave her a soft smile, "But there was only one person who really knew what I needed and she was no longer there." By this time Lexa had completely stopped and was just standing there freeing her thoughts to the larger man, "Then I moved here and started again. I finally got a fresh start. I got a job and I could finally afford my first vacation. Octavia was the one who chose to go to Rio de Janeiro. Fucking Carnival was all she could rave about for months! I was completely wasted when I looked across the alley and I swore I saw her. Her blonde hair. Her eyes as blue as the sky. Her smile as bright as the moon above us. I swear in that moment I could even hear her laugh. I was so in shock that I couldn't even cross the way to find out if it was Clarke. I was finally getting beyond everything and that one moment reset my entire progress."

Lexa chuckled dryly and shook her head, "Well at least it got me here." They both sat down on the bench and she took a swig of water finally starting to feel the dehydration set in. "I came back home and started spiraling out of control again. I almost burned down the apartment but then you showed up."

Lexa smiled at Lincoln before continuing, "I never thanked you for that, did I? You saved my apartment and then my life."

He smiled at her brightly chuckling softly, "I just told you to lose the candles and get your belongings together."

"Technically Linc, you told me to lose the candles and get my shit together. One word makes a whole lot of a difference, Lincoln."

He laughed whole-heartedly this time, "I guess. I mean, if it worked then it worked. Who cares what I really meant. You got your shit together and now you're out there everyday saving lives. Fuck Clarke. Fuck everything else. It's you that is important. Take care of yourself Lexa. Don't let anything or anyone else get to you. You got this. And you got the rest of our help if you need it. You got Raven's love and Octavia's and if you're lucky you even have my love." Lincoln joked, trying to lighten the mood.

He pulled her into a tight hug when he spotted a smaller Asian man leaning against the door with a smirk plastered on his face, "I swear I'm the gay one and Lincoln over here is the softest teddy bear I've ever seen. Have I ever told you that you'd make a beautiful gay man?"

Lincoln picked up his water bottle and chucked it at the paramedic, "Shut up Monty. What are you doing listening in anyways?"

Monty laughed as he caught the bottle before it could hit him, "I just came in to see if you guys wanted to take a break and have some dinner?"

"Depends on who is behind the stove tonight." Lexa asked as she took off her gloves and wiped herself dry.

Monty cringed while he remorsefully replied, "Chef Raven."

The two friends got up and looked at each other before simultaneously suggesting, "Postmates?"

Monty laughed and threw the water bottle back at Lincoln, "Delivery it is. What do you guys want?"

The trio spent the next few minutes arguing over which cuisine they wanted before they had unanimously settled on Italian.

Lexa, Lincoln, Monty, Monroe, and Raven sat around the T.V. as they usually did during dinner in the firehouse when Raven insulted, "Y'all are asshats. Why won't you eat my food? I made enough for the entire firehouse! Y'all should be blessed to eat my cooking!"

Monty chuckled, "Sorry Raven but I have seen better cooks on America's Worst Cooks. You're exceptionally lucky that you didn't ignite that piece of chicken tonight."

"Although, it does appear to be a bit charred," Monroe added eyeing the piece of burned meat wearily. "We're also lucky that you only cook in the firehouse. There's immediate and unlimited access to firefighters and water."

Everyone besides the ridiculed girl laughed, "Y'all are serious mother fuckers. Insufferable." She took another bite of her food before she slyly spit it out and placed her plate back on the table.

Raven didn't even have to ask when Lexa offered, "I got extra spaghetti and meatballs. Give me your plate, Reyes."

Raven hopped up and down excitedly like a puppy as she handed the taller girl her plate, "Thank you so much! I love you! That chicken tastes like a fucking pillow. I've bit into my fair share of pillows and I swear this chicken is dryer. I don't even know why you guys let me cook. It's just wasting food and money at this point."

Lexa shook her head, "Maybe because your middle name is stubborn and the last time I told you that you couldn't cook, Monty almost had to stitch me up!"

Raven's face fell, "Oh yeah… That. Sorry about that again." Raven kissed Lexa on the cheek and grabbed the filled plate from the other girl's hand, before returning to her seat.

Lexa feigned disgust and dramatically wiped the kiss off her face, "Whatever. I wasn't going to finish it anyways. It would have gone to waste."

"Whatever bitch, I know you always got my back."

"Yeah, yeah. Whatever Reyes."

They all continued to eat and joke around for a while when Lexa heard her phone beep. She finished her bite and pulled it out finding that she had a message from her sister, Anya.

[Anya] Hey sis. Just got home. My layover flight was delayed. I'm so damn tired.

[Lexa] Good. Was getting worried when you didn't text me. Was about to alert the search team. Lol

[Anya] Well I'm texting you now. I'm about to hop straight into bed. How was your day?

[Lexa] Same 'ol. There was an overturned truck earlier. We got the guy out of it. No casualties. So I guess that always makes the day better.

[Anya] Look at my little sister out there saving lives. I'm so proud.

[Lexa] Shut up.

[Anya] Haha. Anything else you wanted to tell me about your day?

[Lexa] Nope.

[Anya] You sure?

Lexa was sure that Anya knew about her sighting of the blonde today somehow and she was eager to find out. Lexa looked up from her phone and eyed everyone suspiciously, "ALRIGHT! WHO TALKED TO MY FUCKING SISTER?"

The group of friends jumped, alarmed at the sudden outburst. Everyone aside from Raven looked at her and she easily found the answer to her question. "Really Rave?"

The other girl finally looked up and made eye contact, "She asked me to tell her if it ever happened again and I promised her, Lex. She's just worried. Please don't kill me."

Lexa glared at Raven before readjusting her eyes to her cell phone once again, "We'll talk about this later."

[Lexa] Anya. You can't ask my friends to spy for you. We have a bro code and because of you, she broke it.

[Anya] Sue me. I care.

[Anya] So what happened?

[Lexa] Nothing. I thought I saw her. I didn't. I moved on. You should too.

[Anya] You sure you okay? I'm here for you if you need to vent.

[Lexa] Sis it's okay. I'm okay. I worked it out earlier. If I'm not okay I'll call you. But for now you should get some sleep. You've had a long day and you've got a long day at work tomorrow. I must get back to dinner anyways. Mom and dad would beat me senseless for my table manners right now. Good night. I love you.

[Anya] Okay. Remember, just a phone call away. Love you too baby sis.

Lexa quickly slid her phone back into her pocket and went back to consuming her food. She knew that Anya only worried because she cared, but it always made her feel like she was a little child again. Reverting back to the times when she was a scrawny little girl who needed her big sister to help fight her battles. She was grown now and she could fight her own battles. Whether they were physical or emotional battles, she could hold her own now. Still, she knew it came from a place of love and Lexa was blessed to have her as a sister.

She also knew that Raven only told Anya because she was worried as well, so she really couldn't blame the other girl too much for keeping her promise. She looked up at the other girl who gave her a small apologetic smile. Lexa gave her a small nod back, silently accepting her apology.

Lexa quickly scarfed down the rest of her food and excused herself to the sleeping quarters, needing some peace and tranquility. They all understood and let her be. Lying down on the bed she closed her eyes and took a deep breath, releasing it slowly. It had been a long day and maybe all she needed was to rest her eye.

Her shift was to be over by 7:00 AM the following morning and it had been a quiet day, so Lexa was hoping she could just sleep it off until she was released from work. It took some time, but she finally dozed off dreaming about a certain blonde she tried her best all day not to think about.

Now that you guys have seen into both their lives, we're gonna get this started. Tell me what you think so far though. I'll try to post once a week after these initial 3 chapters.