Chapter 12- Anger and Bijuu

A/N I don't own Naruto. I do own Hisana, Fei, and her dogs.

So this chapter and the next one will be Fei's training during those 2 and a half years.

Warning. There is some strong language in this chapter.

I didn't talk to Hisana for weeks after that memory incident. Winter was coming to a close as it was close to March and the days where warming up. Training had been a quiet affair until she finally snapped when we had been traveling through Suna once more.

"Fei you need to stop acting like a child!" she had shouted during one of our afternoon sparring sessions. "Get over yourself. If you want to become a kunoichi as strong as Tsunade you need to get over it." I fumed slightly stating "I have been here a whole year and a half. I have been lied to every day Hisana. I'm angry." I sighed "I'll get over it. I just don't like that the truth came from someone I hardly know."

I turned away plopping myself onto the cold ground. Hisana came up and sat in front of me "Fei, I'm sure they had their reasons. Maybe they wanted to protect you from the sorrow you would feel." I glared at the ground "Well they shouldn't have done that. I deserved to know the truth. Hisana my whole life is a lie. I thought my parents didn't want me so they left me out in the cold that night and that lady from the orphanage gave into her pity and scooped me up. I'm cursed, everyone I love seems to die and leave me alone."

I could feel the tears gathering in my eyes but tried not to let them fall. Hisana rose up and swiped her leg out hitting me in the side sending me falling over getting dirt in my face. I shot up shouting "What the hell!"

Hisana smirked dubiously "Has Naruto died? What about all your friends in Konoha? Your friends back home? Not everyone dies because of your dumbass, don't be so narcissistic! Everyone eventually dies Fei and when you finally realize that it becomes just a little easier to deal with. Your mother died protecting you because she loved you. Your father died because he loved you and your mother. Your foster family died because of their need to protect you, I'm sure. It's just the cost that when we love people and everyone dies someday, we have to deal with that hard hit because we have comrades and ties. Fei, you know what happens when people give up their attachments?"

I stared at her before shaking my head "No." She smiled ruefully, suddenly dissipating the somber mood. "They become heartless and lonely. Trust me I know it well…" my face softened slightly "Thanks."

Hisana suddenly struck out and flipped me over her shoulder "Now, you ready to really train? I've been going easy on you and we need to kick it up a notch!" My eyes widened as she ran at me kicking her foot towards my face while I scrambled to stand up and jump out of the way. "Shit, are you trying to kill me!?" She smirked "No. I'm training you. Now enough talking! Fight me, I'd like to know how you made chunin!"

We trained in close combat taijutsu for the rest of the day using no chakra. I had been flipped over her shoulder more than not and my ass was sore from hitting the ground so often.

I still knew little about Hisana at that point in time but hearing her words on comrades and death really opened me up to the type of person she was.

Throughout the next week Hisana ground into me that I should be great at taijutsu along with chakra because there are times I won't be able to rely on that.

My back was killing me the more times she slammed me into the ground and the trees as we traveled. She decided that training was an ever present thing and threw me off guard when I thought things were peaceful, like eating dinner or walking through towns.

My food was often found among the dirt and she would say "You should have been ready for anything! You are a chunin Fei! Stay focused!" My mood kept going down as the more I thought I advanced she would pull out new moves from her seemingly endless supply and take me to the ground once more. I felt that horrid discouragement as days passed turning into weeks and I felt no progress.

It had been late summer that Hisana decided to slow down on the physical side of things and focus on chakra.

Her chakra system made my own look pathetic and weak but there was something in her eyes that made me think she was lying to me. But I went along with it and when we reached the land hidden in stone she decided it was time to stay in one place for a while.

There was a small hotel that we stayed in near their kage tower and we would venture out every morning to practice with chakra.

"Alright Fei. I need you to come stand over here." She gestured to a large rock "You miraculously have a change in chakra nature already. Probably due to your family clans. I want you to replicate that rock. Every detail. If anything is off I will destroy it and you will start over."

I quirked an eyebrow confused "What does that have to do with chakra?" Hisana just turned away pulling out a book "Get to it! No sleep until you get that rock perfect!"

I had frowned muttering "Whatever." Stomping closer to the rock and taking in everything.

I pushed my hands out forming a snake sign and shifting my feet into a better stance. The rock formed perfectly and I gestured to Hisana to check it.

She hummed and sent her fist breaking the rock into pieces. "Try again!" she went back to her book. I could only stare at her as she ignored me and I huffed slamming my hand onto the ground this time not bothering with hand signs.

The rock formed same as before and once again Hisana smashed through it. By the 10th time she destroyed it I was fuming. I growled out "What the fuck do you want from me!? Seriously! That rock is perfect!" Hisana merely shook her head and spoke "No actually Fei, it isn't perfect! You need to find out what's wrong on your own." And sat back down reading her book.

My rage was getting the better of me and I heard a small "Fei. Something is missing." In the back of my mind. My eyes grew wide and I spun around searching for the source of the whispering.

Finding nobody other than Hisana who was watching me with a raised eyebrow, I went back to making the rock replica. But before turning to Hisana I checked everything, there had to be something off. I hit the rock a couple times with my foot and noticed the replica I had made was not as sturdy. But I didn't know how to fix it.

I had turned to Hisana mumbling "I don't know how to fix it…"

Hisana smirked "What? I'm sorry you'll need to speak up." I frowned shouting "I don't know how to fix it! Alright! It's not sturdy!"

Hisana patted the ground "Sit. And I'll explain." I sat harshly on the ground and waited for Hisana to explain "Okay. The look and feel of your replica is sound. But its hollow and lacks the fundamentals of a rock on the inside. You need to focus on making it strong to hold up against my hit. Your jutsu is superficial. You need to have faith in your chakra Fei, it seems like you're afraid of it."

I looked away wringing my hands "There's- there's something there. When I get into dangerous situations my- something happens."

Hisana frowned before nodding "I'll look into it. Let's keep working on this exercise okay?" I frowned more and got up standing before the rock.

It took me a week to finally get the rock to be sturdy as I quit every time I heard that voice in the back of my mind. Hisana had been getting frustrated and decided that she was going to do some research and I was left to my own devices. Not wanting to travel the town I stayed in and wrote to Naruto.

Dear Naruto,

Your training better be as hard as mine. Hisana is kind of insane! I'm dying and it's only been 6 months. She has this weird jutsu that shows your memories whenever she uses it. I have so much to tell you when we get back to the village! I'm turning 17 soon, 6 days. Can you believe it? You'll be 14 before you know it! Have you written to Sakura lately? Last I heard she was busy punching things. It makes me wonder what kind of teacher Lady Hokage is. I wonder how Kakashi is. I haven't written him yet, although if I do I doubt I would receive a letter back before we get back. How's Jiraiya and his training method? I know we got a taste of it back during the chunin exams so I can't imagine it being easy, or practical. I can't wait to get back to the village and see everyone. It'll be nice to be a team again.

Signed your friend,

Fei Yamasaki

Happy with my letter I sealed it and sent it off with Hisana's messenger bird Mika.

The day passed by while I was finding the right words to send Naruto and before I knew it Hisana was slamming the door open and grabbing my arm pulling me down the street with fervor. I pulled my arm back harshly ignoring the looks of the villagers "What the hell Hisana. Really, you and everyone need to learn to stop dragging me by my arm without telling me what's going on!"

Hisana scowled "Look. I need to check something so come on!" she grabbed my arm and I let her drag me along to the place where we usually train.

"Okay Fei. I want you to stand there." She pointed to a spot next to her and when I stood there she grabbed my arm and turned me around lifting my shirt up so she could see my back. "Aha! I knew it!"

I was startled by her shout and pulled away from her "What the fuck Hisana! You don't just pull up someone's shirt! And what do you mean by 'Aha'?" she smirked "Fei, do you know about this mark on your back?"

I nodded "Yea. It's been there since I was little. Some birthmark or scar I think." Hisana shook her head and produced a large book "Look Fei. Read what this says about seals. The one on your back is right here." She pointed to a triangular marking that held a swirl inside and I quirked an eyebrow before appeasing her wishes.

'Soul Seal' was on the page and I couldn't help but blurting out "Okay. Who decided that name was a good idea for a seal." But Hisana scowled and gestured for me to read on.

I looked back at the book "The soul seal is one of the 4 forbidden seals related to a tailed beast."

My eyebrows rose again "The chained seal, the deception seal, and the hatred seal all serve one purpose. To seal a Bijuu inside of the soul that can only be unlocked through these four things. The chained seal being the only one that cannot be unlocked by the container or the Bijuu itself. The soul seal may be one of the most forbidden due to the fact that it binds the container and the Bijuu soul together. The reason such a seal is forbidden is because of the fact that once sealed together they can never be parted. Even in death these two souls will be joined and the jyuubi will die as well."

I turned to Hisana with a questioning glare "You think this- this seal is something that I have? I- I am not like Naruto! I don't have a beast waiting for me to let it out!" Hisana merely shrugged "It looks exactly like this. Maybe if we go through your memories again-"

I shook my head fiercely "Fuck no Hisana! No way! Find another way!" Hisana sighed "Well looks like we have to put you in major danger!"

She grabbed my arm while I shouted "No Hisana! What are you doing?!" she pulled me over to one of the higher cliffs in the village and before she pushed I shouted "Dammit your as crazy as Jiraiya!"

I was falling faster with every second and I wasn't able to summon that giant dog king Hotara. I was screaming when I heard that voice in the back of my mind 'Trust Fei. Trust me.' I shouted 'No!' in my mind but realized that nothing could be worse than dying from falling through the air at top speed and hitting the ground.

I shouted 'Fine!' again in my mind and I was suddenly pulled away from reality and I found myself in a white space where a tall beast stood cloaked in shadow.

I backed away watching the beast hang its head low. 'Fei' a rumble sounded from the beast 'You trusted me. Thank you. It took me years for Haruko to trust me. It got him nearly killed many times.'

I could only watch in silence before I realized my body was still falling through the air. "Hey! What the hell! I'm still falling outside of this place! Any moment now I'm gonna go splat! No more Fei!" I watched as the beast shook with silent laughter that looked quite menacing. 'Silly child. You will see when you leave.'

I frowned as the beast continued 'I have been trying to contact you for years Fei Yamasaki, but you have blocked me out completely only letting me out when you get angry or scared.'

I flinched remembering the dark chakra and out of body experiences "That was you?" receiving a nod 'My name is Ryu."

I nodded feeling less intimidated "What are you?" Ryu chuckled 'I am a Bijuu, known as the zero tails. A piece of every Bijuu lives inside of me creating one single entity.'

I frowned "Why are you here? Where did you come from?" he chuckled again giving me goosebumps. 'Later. We shall talk later. Just remember I am here for I will not go unnoticed any longer. It is time to return to your reality Fei.' He began fading away and I found myself hovering in the air atop chakra shaped like Ryu.

Hisana was grinning from the ground "Fei! Believe me now?" I jumped down as the chakra began to dissipate. "Fine. I believe you…" Hisana looped her arm in mine "Well Fei. Things just got a lot more interesting! New training starts tomorrow!

The next few weeks were working out how to contact Ryu, the supposedly friendly Bijuu that stated he only wanted to help.

After seeing what the Bijuu's that lived inside Naruto and Gaara acted like I was pretty skeptical but Hisana completely bought it. We trained constantly with ninjutsu incorporating taijutsu at every turn. Hisana questioned through me what his chakra natures would be considered.

Upon hearing that he was a master in something called yin-yang release Hisana became excited "Once you master your own change in chakra we can work on his! But I warn you, it will be very hard. Yin and Yang are very hard to work with and personally I don't know any jutsu associated." I nodded excited that I was finally doing something that felt like progress.

Hisana's change in chakra was wind and lightening but over the years she had picked up a few earth and water jutsu's that would help me along. With her using primarily lightening release she challenged me to do my best as lightening almost always triumphed over earth.

Hisana showed me ways to balance out the stronger offence with stronger defense and decided sometime during the winter a year after leaving Konoha, that I would now work on my Kekkai Genkai.

Now let me tell you how torturous that training was. I passed out due to chakra depletion way too often and days went by with no real progress. Ryu was no help at all, refusing to lend me his seemingly endless amount of chakra stating on the rare times we spoke 'This is your own change in chakra, your own Kekkai Genkai which is something that won't take my chakra.' I had growled angrily at him and tried over and over to use my chakra correctly.

I was having no such luck and Hisana decided to put that training on the backburner and send us out for a mission she had picked up in the Tsuchikage's office. I was surprised they had let her take a mission considering we weren't from this village but apparently they had been good friends for years.

The day we were scheduled to leave came and we were on our way. The mission called for us to go to a small village off the edge of the village hidden in the sand, and help repair some houses that had been ruined in a fight between 4 ninjas from the village hidden in the waves.

Hisana had a scowl on her face as we traveled obviously still upset about the man back in the village hidden in the rocks who refused us a carriage to travel in. So now we were stuck walking all the way.

"Hey Hisana. Do you feel that?" I had questioned while we were walking listening to the forest die down as the wild animals fell asleep.

Hisana shook her head "No. What is it?" I frowned "It feels like someone is getting closer." Hisana pulled me behind a tree as we watched a small carriage pass by.

When I realized who sat atop the carriage I stepped out from the tree pulling Hisana along "Temari!" I waved at the blonde sand sibling noticing Gaara's red hair peeking out from beside her and Kankuro's infamous kitty hood.

Temari jumped down in a fighting stance before she noticed it was me "Fei!" she smiled gesturing me closer. "What are you doing here?" I

smiled back "I'm on a mission! There's this village that needs houses to be built."

"You can hitch a ride with us." Temari turned as Gaara spoke up from behind her startling me as I hadn't heard him get down from the carriage.

I turned to Hisana who grinned happily and jumped onto the carriage groaning "Damn I am too old to be traveling this far for missions." And promptly fell asleep. I grinned sheepishly "Sorry on her behalf. She's been training me." Temari looked shocked "Hisana Reimei is training someone. You must be pretty special Fei."

I grinned "You bet I am!" and jumped up settling myself next to Gaara.

I must have fallen asleep because the next time I opened my eyes we were traveling through the desert towards a small village. Gaara was wide awake and turned to look at me as I spoke "Is that the village?"

He nodded quietly "Yes. We have business here as well. We will be staying here a week before we head back to the village hidden in the sand. Your welcome to join us." I smiled at the boy who a year ago had been a vengeful child hell bent on destruction. "You know what. I'll take you up on that offer."