Hello naughty children it's gonna get smutty all up in this bitch. Because there is never enough sin in this world
Basically, a third of this chapter is pure filth. You have been warned. Holy fuck, this took me so long to write and I ended up half-assing it in the end, like fuck it...yup :I
Song Inspiration:
Lua - Bright Eyes
Santa Monica Dream - Angus & Julia Stone
As Tsukito noticed, Apollon seemed to feel significantly better after he came clean with him. He knows it might take a while Apollon to move on from his past and maybe not loathe himself so much.
But Tsukito can't be the one to help him do that. He only has a few days left in Delphi. He was going to leave Greece altogether and never see Apollon again.
It hurt Tsukito to think about it. He had gotten so attached to Apollon. Too attached. In all the time he spent wandering the globe all alone, Apollon was the first friend Tsukito ever had in a long time.
...It felt kind of wrong to consider Apollon a friend, but Tsukito doesn't know what to consider him.
He doesn't even know how to tell Apollon.
Apollon took Tsukito back to his hotel in Delphi the next day. They came back pretty late at night and no one was around, so Apollon just flew Tsukito to the window of his room.
"Thank you." Tsukito said as he pried the window open and climbed through, "Sorry, it must be a pain to carry me all the way back here."
"Oh no, it was no problem at all, really. So, see you later?"
"Actually, would you like to come in?" Tsukito asked, "Just...take a human form before you attract attention."
"Is it okay? Is it really okay?"
Tsukito nodded, "It's fine. I get kind of lonely during the night, since I don't really sleep."
Without hesitation, Apollon clumsily climbed into the window, falling flat on his face with a dull thud. "Oww..."
Tsukito laughs softly, "Are you okay?" He took Apollon by the hand and helped pull him up. "Be careful."
They stood there like that for a moment, just staring at each other intently. Another moment later, Apollon carressed Tsukito's face. "You have very pretty eyes, you know that?"
Tsukito cleared his throat and let go of Apollon's hand, realizing he's been holding it a bit too long, "I...uh...I'm going to go shower. You can sit tight for a bit."
Apollon takes the moment to quickly switch into his human form, "Okay!"
As Tsukito disappeared into the bathroom, Apollon just seats himself on the edge of the bed. He idly glances around the room, the sound of running water drowning out the silence. Apollon's gaze landed on a book sitting on the desk. Mildly curious, he reaches over and grabbed it. It seemed to be a scrapbook of some sort. The cover was blue and decorated with colorful seashells. Apollon leafs through the pages, his eyes skimming the diary entries and photos with such fascination. Tsukito wasn't kidding when he said he's been to a lot of places.
Then diary entries were something else. While they seemed a bit mundane, like Tsukito was just keeping a log of everything he did, what caught Apollon's interest was that they seemed to be like letters. Letters addressed to Takeru. Every entry was littered with phrases such as: "You would've loved it." and "I wish you could come with me."
It came off as a little strange to Apollon, but he kept reading. He couldn't help but smile when he reached the part about their trip to Rhodes. He was glad Tsukito had fun that day despite how quicky everything went south.
Just as he reached the last entry, something fell out of the scrapbook. Apollon bent down to pick it up. It seemed to be a small newspaper clipping. His eyes widened as he read the headline.
"Horrific Traffic Accident Kills Two."
Suddenly intrested, Apollon kept reading through the article. It was a petty accident caused by a driver texting and driving, crashing into another car and killing both people inside. Among the deceased were...
Izanami and Takeru Totsuka.
In that moment of shock, Apollon didn't notice Tsukito coming out of the bathroom.
"Hey, give me that!" Tsukito snatched up the scrapbook and newspaper, taking Apollon by surprise.
"Oh...I'm sorry. I wasn't trying to be nosy."
Tsukito didn't say anything to him as he shoved the scrapbook into his bag.
"Tsuki-Tsuki...did Takeru actually pass away?" Apollon asked.
Tsukito just sighed in response, "I guess I can't hide this from you, huh?" He sat on the bed next to Apollon, "Yes, he died in that accident...along with my mother."
"Why...why didn't you tell me anything about this?"
"I didn't want you to treat me differently if you knew. I didn't want your pity." Tsukito said, choking back a sob, "...it's my fault they're gone, after all."
"What?"
"The day of the accident...my mother had called me to ask for a ride to the grocery store. I had to practice for a violin recital, so I couldn't. So she asked Takeru instead..and then..." Tsukito paused, "After that, my father became an alcoholic and my older brother just left us without a word. It wasn't long before I left too."
"So why did you decide to travel around the world in the first place?" Apollon asked.
"When we were younger, Takeru wanted to see the world, so I decided to grant that wish for him. It was the least I could do for him."
"Oh, Tsuki-Tsuki..."
"That should've been me! I should've died that day, not him! Takeru never did anything wrong!" Tsukito screams, completely breaking down into tears.
"Neither did you." Apollon said, wiping the tears from Tsukito's face, "And I'm sure he wouldn't want you to blame yourself, I'm sure. It wasn't your fault, Tsuki-Tsuki, it was just a terrible accident."
"What do you know? Takeru's dead! And ever since then, my life has gone to shit!" Tsukito yelled at him, "Do you have any idea what it's like to wait for your brother and mother to come home? And they never do? Do you know how it feels to have this contstant guilt looming over you everyday?"
Apollon didn't know what to do. He had never expected Tsukito to lose his cool like this. Tsukito was usually just so reserved and quiet, it wouldn't be a surprise to Apollon if he had kept years grief and sorrow bottled up inside of him and he's just letting it all out all at once now.
He grabbed Tsukito by the wrists, begging him to calm down. Tsukito struggled in his grasp, refusing to do so, so Apollon did the next thing that came to mind. He quickly leaned in and gently locked his lips against Tsukito's. Tsukito stopped his struggling, completely frozen in his spot. He didn't exactly resist, much to Apollon's surprise. Instead he felt Tsukito's body relax as they kissed.
What was he doing? Doing this kind of thing when Tsukito was vulnerable. He couldn't help but feel he was taking advantage of Tsukito.
Apollon pulled himself off of Tsukito, trying to comprehend what he had just done, "I..I'm sorry, Tsuki-Tsuki, I don't know-"
"Do that again."
Apollon just stared at him completely dumbfounded, "W-what?"
Tsukito just clutched his face in his hands and pulled Apollon towards him, kissing him again. Apollon pushed him away, "We shouldn't be doing this."
"It's fine, I'll give you permission just for tonight." Tsukito whispered, "I just want to forget for a while."
Tsukito pressed his lips against Apollon's, this time the sun god didn't resist. If this is what he can do for Tsukito, then fine. His own feelings have nothing to do with this.
Apollon's hands slipped under Tsukito's shirt, feeling that his skin was still damp from the shower. Tsukito shuddered as Apollon's warm fingertips made contact with his cold skin, gently gracing it with light, feathery touches. They pulled apart for a moment so that Tsukito could remove his shirt. Apollon followed suit and removed his as well. He gently shoved Tsukito onto the bed before continuing to kiss him. It got quite messy pretty quickly. Their tongues moved against each other or rather, it was more like Tsukito passively letting Apollon's tongue roam the inside of his mouth as he pleases.
Apollon then removes his lips from Tsukito's and instead latches them on to a small patch of skin on Tsukito's neck. Tsukito let out a faint whimpering noise as Apollon continuously sucked on different areas of his neck and along his collarbone. It wasn't long before that entire area was covered in several bruises.
While he was doing that, Apollon kept his hands busy by letting them roam any exposed skin he could reach. Soon, one of his hands had trailed down to the waistband of Tsukito's pants. He gently tugged at it before slipping his hand underneath. Tsukito gasped as he felt Apollon's fingers on his cock. Tsukito was quite sensitive and it doesn't take much to get him excited, as Apollon discovered. With just a bit of stroking and teasing, Tsukito was already half hard. Satisfied with what he's done so far, Apollon proceeds to pull off Tsukito's pants along with his underwear, throwing them both on the floor.
Tsukito didn't seem embarrased or anything, just...rather passive and submissive. Seeing him like this, Apollon just begins to realize how uncomfortably tight his pants got all of a sudden. Before continuing with anything else, he strips himself of what remained of his clothes, letting out a faint sigh of relief when his hard, throbbing erection was released from its confines.
He was absolutely sure Tsukito had never done this kind of thing before, but he seemed to pick up on things pretty quickly. Apollon just let his fingers barely graze Tsukito's legs, gently coaxing him into spreading them for him. He lowered his head between Tsukito's legs and nipped at the skin of his inner thighs, marking his soft skin with multiple red patches. Tsukito couldn't contain any noise escaping from his lips as Apollon moved on to his cock, slowly licking up the shaft before engulfing the head in his mouth. Tsukito's fingers tangled themselves into Apollon's hair as the latter began bobbing his head up and down, taking in more of Tsukito's cock with every suck. Apollon could feel it twitch in his mouth as he teased every spot he could with his tongue. After making sure he had made Tsukito completely hard, Apollon suddenly pulled away. Tsukito let out a whine of protest, as if begging Apollon to keep sucking him off.
"Tsuki-Tsuki, can you get on your hands and knees for me, please?" Apollon finally said to him.
Tsukito just nodded and did as he was told without question, flipping his body around so that he was on all fours on the bed. Apollon couldn't help but take a moment to stare. He wonders if he would be able to control himself. Tsukito was probably a virgin and the last thing Apollon wanted was to hurt him.
But the sight of Tsukito with his hands and knees on the bed, ass in the air and cock practically leaking onto the sheets...Apollon's self-contol be damned.
Tsukito gasped as he felt Apollon's hands on his ass, spreading him as much as possible. Apollon slowly licked at his entrance, just to see how he would react. Tsukito's body tensed up for a moment, which apparently was the reaction Apollon was looking for. Apollon's tongue kept prodding at his hole, gently tracing the rim but not actually pushing it inside. He relished in the sound of the lewd moaning coming from Tsukito as he dragged his tongue up and down, feeling his hole twitch slightly in response. Tsukito's legs wobbled and struggled to stay up as Apollon gently eased his tongue inside him.
"Stop...teasing me." Tsukito begged in between ragged breaths.
"Aww, but it'd be a shame if you were to cum before I actually did anything. We can't have that, so try to hold out for a little while longer. Can you do that, Tsuki-Tsuki?"
Apollon looked around the room for a moment. Certainly, Tsukito didn't have any lube and Apollon definitely doesn't have any on him at the moment and there doesn't seem to be any alternative anywhere...
He suddenly hears something drop onto the floor. From the corner of his eye, he saw a small bottle rolling towards the bed. Apollon reached down to pick it up, taking note of the grapevine designs painted on it.
Apollon doesn't know how, but he has every reason to believe that Dionysus has a sixth sense of some sort. He'll thank him later.
He quickly pulled the top off with his teeth and threw it across the room somewhere. He then poured a generous amount on his hand, making sure his fingers were as slick as possible. Apollon let his fingers trace around the rim of Tsukito's entrance for a moment before gently slipping one inside of him. Apollon seemed genuinely amazed about how easily he sucked it in. He felt Tsukito wince slightly as he pushed his finger all the way in. Tsukito hissed at the discomfort, but tried his best to adjust.
Once Apollon felt that Tsukito was ready, he added in another finger and began scissoring his fingers a little bit at a time, slowly stretching Tsukito as much as he could. At the same time, Apollon used his other hand to stroke his own neglected cock.
After making sure he had completely prepared Tsukito, Apollon grabbed the bottled he had set aside earlier and used whatever was left to completely cover his cock. Tsukito's breath hitched when he felt the tip Apollon's cock barely pressing against his twitching hole. He rocks his hips slightly, as if trying to urge Apollon to continue. It didn't take long for Apollon to pick up on Tsukito's desperation and complied without another word.
Apollon slowly began to enter him, only managing to push in halfway through before he felt Tsukito's body tense up, preventing him from going any further. He could hear Tsukito let out a choked sob from the dull pain. He couldn't particularly blame him, it was his first time, after all. And he was pretty big too, so that certainly did not help.
"Try to relax, okay? I promise the pain will go away." Apollon murmured into his ear.
His gentle voice seemed to comfort Tsukito to some degree as he slowly started to relax his body. Tsukito took a few deep breaths, hoping it would distract him from the pain somewhat.
"Okay...I think I'm alright now."
"Are you sure?" Apollon asked, sounding somewhat worried for Tsukito.
"Just go. We've already gotten this far." Tsukito replied, his tone was almost demanding.
Apollon started thrusting into him, setting a slow pace at first so that Tsukito could get accustomed to the feeling. But as much as Apollon tried to restrain himself, he soon found himself thrusting even harder and faster into Tsukito, practically pounding into him. Tsukito's mind was a haze at this point. He never knew it was possible to feel something like this and now he just wanted to lose himself in the feeling. His knuckles turned white as he gripped the sheets tightly, the sound of his moaning and panting filled the room.
Tsukito let out a noise that sounded like a combination of a gasp and a scream. Apollon stops for a moment, "Tsuki-Tsuki?"
Tsukito's mind struggled to form coherent words, "Hit it again...that spot...inside..."
"Okay." Apollon said simply before continuing to fuck him. Tsukito let out strangled cries as Apollon's cock kept prodding at that bundle of nerves deep inside of him. Soon the intense pleasure reduced him to nothing but a sobbing mess. As Apollon quickened the pace of his thrusts, it didn't take all that much for Tsukito to cum. With a scream, he came rather violently, his entire body shuddered intensely as thick white ribbons splattered onto the sheets.
Apollon groaned when he felt Tsukito's inner walls clench around his cock. The sudden tightening feeling alone was enough to send him over the edge. With just a few more thrusts, Apollon came deep inside of Tsukito. Tsukito let out a faint whimpering sound as he felt his insides being flooded by something warm and thick.
The both remained still for a moment, trying to catch their breaths. Tsukito's body went limp as he felt extremely exhausted all of a sudden. He winced as he felt Apollon pull out of him, his cum dripping out of Tsukito a bit as he did so.
They didn't say anything to each other. After that, how could they say anything? What would they say?
Apollon let himself drop onto the bed, buring his face in a pillow. He turned his head a bit to see Tsukito climbing out of bed, walking towards the bathroom with a noticable limp.
Apollon yawned and let himself drift off to sleep. He can hear the shower running...
Apollon woke up the the sound of footsteps and clothes shuffling. He slowly rose in the bed, blinking a few times to let his vision adjust, "Tsuki-Tsuki?"
Tsukito ignored the sound of his name being called. He was rushing around the room, just picking up things and shoving them in his suitcase. The dead, despondent look in his eyes worried Apollon a little.
Apollon picked up his discarded clothes from the floor and put them back on. "Tsuki-Tsuki, what are you doing?" He asked.
"I have to go." Tsukito replied, zipping up the suitcase.
"Go? Go where?"
"I'm leaving Delphi...so this is goodbye."
Apollon's eyes widened, "W-what? What are you saying? You're joking, right?"
"No, I'm not." There was a long moment of silence as Tsukito tried to find the words to say. He sighed, "Whatever is going on between us...it has to stop. You're a god and I'm just a mere human. We'll only end up hurting each other. It's better if you forget about me...and what happened last night."
"Tsuki-Tsuki, what's this all of a sudden?" Apollon asked.
"You know exactly what I'm talking about. Don't think I haven't noticed." Tsukito replied, "You were still in love with me all this time, right?"
Apollon hesitated before answering. He considered it, but he couldn't bring himself to lie to Tsukito. "...Yes. Yes I was."
"I figured as much..," Tsukito laughs bitterly, "I'll make this very clear. I do not and will never want any sort of romantic relationship with you."
"I-I get that! And I'm trying not to let my own feelings get in the way. I can still be your friend! I can still help you!" Apollon struggled with his words, hoping he could convince Tsukito to change his mind.
"I appreciate it, but there's nothing you can do for me anymore."
"But you can't leave yet! I promised you!"
"Well, I'm letting you off of that promise." Tsukito said, his voice monotone and cold. "It doesn't matter to me anymore. I was stupid to think I had any chance of getting my spark back, but now I understand. It died along with Takeru."
"But those things take time! If we keep going at it, I'm sure you'll-"
"No, I won't!" Tsukito yelled, taking Apollon by surprise. He picked up his violin from its open case, "Just leave it, Apollon. I quit the violin!"
Apollon could only watch in horror as Tsukito threw the violin against the wall, breaking it into pieces upon impact. He dropped to his knees, just staring at the broken pieces on the floor in shock.
"Do you hear me, Apollon? You couldn't even help me. There's no point in you trying so hard. Hell, maybe you just wanted an excuse to get close to me, but that's none of my business. I am going to leave and forget about you and all this. You mean nothing to me." Tsukito said coldly, "Goodbye, Apollon."
Apollon doesn't even look up at him as the door slammed shut. His chest hurt too much for him to move. Just when he thought Tsukito was different...why did things have to turn out like this?
Dionysus watched Apollon from the doorway. He's holed himself up there for nearly two days, refusing to speak to anyone who came in. All he did was stare at the broken violin pieces that he ended up bringing back with him, "So he's really gone, huh?"
Artemis rolled her eyes, "I knew this would happen. I told him, but no, he wouldn't listen to me."
"Artemis, do you not feel the least bit sorry for him?" Dionysus asked, "Oh wait, at least Tsukito is gone, so you got exactly what you wanted either way, right?"
"I was just trying to protect Apollon." Artemis said.
Dionysus just scoffed, "Yeah, great job on the protecting him part." He said sarcastically, "Was making him feel like shit part of it?"
Artemis started getting all defensive, "Why are you acting like I did something wrong?"
"Tsukito wasn't a bad guy, Artemis. And maybe you would've known that if you just got off your high horse and actually got to know him instead of dismissing him as just another human that just wants to use Apollon."
"What do you know? You've only talked to him like, once."
"Once was good enough." Dionysus said, "I could tell how much he cares for Apollon. He's really not like all the others. But whatever, he's gone now so I guess everything that I'm saying right now might be bullshit to you, huh?"
Suddenly, the sound of feathers can be heard.
"Oh hello, Eros."
Eros' blond curls bounced as he gracefully landed on his feet. He ignored Dionysus and glared at Artemis very sternly, "Artemis, may I speak to you?"
"Oooh, someone's in trouble~" Dionysus said in a singsong voice.
Artemis glared at him, "Shut up!"
As Artemis left with Eros, Dionysus looked back towards the open doorway...
...only to find that Apollon was gone.
The past two days haven't been very easy for Tsukito. He thought he could just leave Delphi and forget everything about Apollon and just move on with his life. He was done. Tsukito was honestly done.
But why does he feel so terrible?
Ever since he left, the pain in his chest just kept eating at him. So much to the point that it was almost unbearable. He just felt he had to distance himself from Apollon and it was easy to do so, but it wasn't supposed to feel so painful. And those awful things he said to Apollon, there's no way he could ever take those words back. What the hell was he even thinking? Yes, he can be blunt, but he'd never be that cruel.
But what's done is done. It's not his problem anymore and he's just going to move on.
He walked along the side of the road, hoping for some kind soul to give him a ride to his next destination. Hitchhiking was never the best idea, but he was surprised he was able to make this far this way. He was getting close to Thessaloniki and from there, he plans to hop on a plane to Belgium. Just a few more towns over.
Tsukito continued walking up the road, trying to find one that was fairly crowded with cars. But after walking for nearly two hours, the roads were mostly empty.
Suddenly, the ground began to shake, but it was so miniscule, Tsukito didn't think anything of it. Then the ground continued to shake, becoming increasingly violent by the second. Tsukito lost his balance and tumbled to the ground. What was this all of a sudden, an earthquake?
Much to his horror, the ground below Tsukito began to crack and the cracks only seemed to get bigger as the ground slowly began to open up. In a panic, he tried to get away, but the ground crumbled underneath his weight, sending him falling into the dark abyss below.
*sips tea nonchalantly as I relish in your anguished screaming*