Chapter 2: Sexual Frustration
Thalia's POV
I walk into my room from a training session with Chaos, and all I can think of is the throbbing between my legs.
She had me pinned to the floor, held down by her hands on my wrists and her knees on my thighs. I was thinking of many ways that I could move to get out of her grasp to take her down.
She saw me thinking and held me down further moving her knees higher on my thighs. All I could feel was my core throbbing like a maniac. I bit my lip trying not to let her know I was lusting for her to move between my legs.
Honestly, anything that turned me on more would make me want her more. Her grip lessened on my hands accidentally and I forced her hands up. She quickly got her grip back but our hands were on my chest rather than on the floor. She didn't realize it but her hands were rubbing my breasts.
My body wanted more. My legs instinctively moved open wanting some friction between them. And golly gosh did I get friction. Her legs slid between mine and her right knee slid right along my lady area.
My throat made a very lustful moan and my face went bright red as did Chaos'.
Chaos loosened her grip from shock and I slipped out of her grip in embarrassment and muttered at least five apologies while walking back to my quarters fast.
The sudden memory made me turn bright red again like it just happened again. I think about how nice it would be if Chaos stopped me and made me hers there and then. The pulsing in my core became more noticeable and I could feel how slick my pants were feeling.
I was so tempted to call out to her and seduce her into fucking me but I knew I would just get embarrassed and not go through with it so I decided to take matters into my own hands. Literally.
I lay out a towel on my bed and lay on it. I start thinking about Chaos rubbing me through my panties and training trousers and start to rub my covered clit like she would. I imagine her grabbing my tit as she teased my swollen core. As this thought came to mind I slipped my hand under my training vest and teases my hard nipple. Next, she would remove my clothes so I took off my training vest and lets my C cup tits bounce out and I push my training trousers off along with my panties. I hiss at the sudden coolness to my dripping gash.
I place my fingers on my kitty and slowly stroke its inflamed nub. A moan escapes my lips as I imagine Chaos playing with my clit. I start to rub my twat faster moaning more, maybe a little too much "Chaos..!" I moan out as I bury my fingers into my tight cunt.
In two seconds I am thrusting two fingers in and out of my pussy moaning the woman I want to between my legs as she walks in.
"You called…." she says as she walked in and sees what position I'm in and turns beet red.
My face goes red but not with embarrassment but annoyance. I stand up and walk up to her.
Her eyes look anywhere but me as I step up close. What I'm doing suddenly sets in and I notice she can't stand to look at my body. And I quickly step past her and go to the bathroom locking myself in.
I get into the shower and turn on the cold water and hold my breath as the icy water silks down my body. All I could see was her face, her disgusted face as she saw my body.
I soon became disgusted with myself and my body. I press my back to the cold tiles of the shower and slowly slide down the wall tucking my knees to my chest and letting the water hit me.
She'll never love me like I want her to. I'm too ugly to love.
I rub my legs noticing a small stubble. I sniffle from the silent tears and pick up my razor. I start to drag it along my legs to remove unwanted hairs. The razor catches my knee and blood starts to run down my leg. I look at the small cut on my knee.
I smash the razor on the floor and it breaks into pieces. I pick up the razor blade that snapped from the plastic mold. I look at the sharp end of the blade almost mesmerized by it.
Am I sure I want to do this again?
I looked at the blade and only saw what it could make me feel and I wanted it. I wanted it so bad.
I brought the blade to my thigh where I knew Chaos wouldn't see it and pressed down hard. After a second my flesh gave way and the blade sliced through my skin. I yank the blade out of my thigh and repeat until I was satisfied.
I gazed down at my legs to see several cuts along my upper thigh on both legs. The water washed the blood away as it came out.
Standing up after a few brief moments I turn the water off and grab the first aid kit sitting on the toilet lid. I bandaged my legs to stop the bleeding so Chaos doesn't notice and wrap a towel around my body, looking down I couldn't see the bandage and I was satisfied with the result.
I unlock the bathroom door to see Chaos had left my room. I walk into my room and sit on my bed. I look at the towel on my bed that still has a little vaginal discharge on it. You're a slut, you played with your cunt and that makes you a slut. I think bitterly as I throw the towel off the bed and into the washing basket.
Later that night, I lay in my bed with my back towards the door almost in a ball.
You're a slut
You're disgusting
You will never be loved
Chaos will never love you
You're ugly
You deserve to be alone
As I think these things I don't notice Chaos walking into my room. I feel the sheets lift and someone gets in my bed and I know it's Chaos.
She will never love you
She hates your body
You're ugly
She hates you
I feel Chaos' arms wrap around my waist slowly like she doesn't want to hurt me and I feel her soft breath on my neck as she whispers "hey.." shyly.
When I don't reply to her she pulls me close and holds me and whispers "It's okay, I'm here. Nothing will hurt you while I'm with you." those twelve words are the ones she uses when she knows I'm not having a good day or I'm freaking out.
All of a sudden my body starts to shake with silent tears as they leave wet trails down my face. I move my hands to my face and cry harder and every time I get the chance I mutter "I'm so sorry"
Chaos stays still for a small while but then pulls me closer holding me close to her warm body. After a couple of minutes of me crying, I calm down enough to realize Chaos is just holding me and not saying anything. I hide my face in my arms as I breathe slowly to calm myself down making myself more in a talking state of mind.
"You don't have to stay.." I say slowly not wanting to get upset again. She just stays there, not talking, and not moving. I turn to look at her face and I get greeted with her lips crashing onto mine and a blush so hot I could feel it from here. It took me a second to get over the shock but then I melt into the kiss and grabbed her face.
She pulled away from me and whispered: "Wake up."
My vision changed to the last night I was on earth and to the cyclops crashing his foot down onto my chest.
I woke up screaming and panicking. The next thing I can feel is Chaos holding me rocking slightly as she said those twelve words over and over.
"It's okay, I'm here. Nothing will hurt you while I'm with you."
I woke up when the sun started blinding my closed eyes. My head nuzzles into my sleeping buddy as I try to stop the sun from waking me up.
Wait. She's here? My head shoots up and looks at Chaos, obviously, the kiss was a dream but I could still feel her soft lips against my own almost rough but not too soft. My face reddened at the thought of her lips on mine.
Chaos takes a little while to look at me but when she does she looks away almost immediately. She can't stop thinking about your ugly body. The voice in the back of my mind perks up. I look down at my body and see that I'm wearing a vest and a pair of shorts. You look like a slut with so little clothes on. The voice provokes again causing me to move away from Chaos hiding under the covers so she doesn't see how slutty I look.
Chaos looks at me oddly "what's wrong?" she asks frowning confusingly, I just shake my head and hide my face in the pillow. She moves closer and I don't move away. Slut. "what's wrong Thalia," she says in more of a commanding tone than a question.
I just shake my head and get up walking to the bathroom to have a shower.