Author's note: I think we should have a Chaos chapter. Just to get her views after touching Thalia up and how she is coping with herself not knowing if she is gay or not.

Chapter 5: Getting help

Chaos' POV

Oh, my Gods…

The feelings I have for Thalia has only grown since she arrived at my humble abode. I don't think these feelings are friendly either. I think the feelings I have for the young Zeus spawn have developed in such a way even I can't understand them.

I now have to sleep with the girl. Granted it was my idea but I couldn't stop myself, watching Thalia in pain was worse than any torture on me. Even Tartarus. This girl, no woman, has changed my life in such ways I cannot explain it myself.

I would do anything for the short beauty that I now live with.

Do you think she's beautiful? I ask myself in disbelief. I've never really thought of anyone in that kind of matter and thinking of Thalia like that makes me feel Naive and inexperienced as I have never really seen someone like this till I saw her.

Sure there were beautiful people like Sigourney Weaver in 1979 but with Thalia, it's a different beautiful. It's a beautiful that you could look at all day and never get bored, where you could talk all night and never feel tired, or stay in that comfortable silence that is always filled with her being there.

I love everything about Thalia, her short choppy hair that you just have to put your hand through. Her deep blue eyes that you could just get lost in. the splatter of freckles that track from cheek to cheek crossing over her nose that you just have to try to find constellations in. her cute nose that perks up at the end. Her soft lips that gives me the heartstopping crooked smile. Her silky pale skin that almost relates to snow and flusters bright red when she's embarrassed. And so much more that I just love so much.

Love. Heartstopping. Is this what Thalia makes me feel? I become flustered at the words I use to describe the feelings I have for the pale woman that lives with me. It's not just her physical body that I've fallen for either.

I love her humour that always makes me crack a smile even on my worst days. The way she thinks of others before herself and how she will never back down from a challenge.

Love. There's that word again. I'm so confused with how I feel for the sky-spawn. I need help with these feelings I am experiencing and see if there is a way to stop them.

Do you want to stop them? I ask myself, knowing the feelings I have for Thalia must be unhealthy. But a part of me wants her to feel the same about me, that part of me has been troubling any dreams I have.

I wake up in hot sweats from a dream where I was in Thalia's room kissing her passionately and almost greedily. Can women do that? Be a part of something so irregular and abnormal?

I had to get help. But from who? My mind skips through potential people to ask and my thoughts go instantly to Athena and Aphrodite. Am I willing to bring Aphrodite here? I should ask Athena first.

I iris message Athena to see her drawing blueprints to what looked like her room behind her. Her gray eyes darting across the old parchment of paper the gods use rather than the new paper and scribbling random notes as she doodles what they mean.

I clear my throat to catch her attention. Her slightly startled eyes look up to see me. "Hey Chaos, how is immortality treating you?" Athena says like every time we call. "You want the truth or the sugar coated version?" I ask, her eyes look at me with a concern knowing something has happened.

"Preferably the truth," She says still looking at me. I sigh and start with how Thalia came here and what has developed.

"And now I don't know what these feelings mean or if they're normal," I finish turning back to the goddess of knowledge after my rant like speech. "Hmm" Is all Athena says after my long speech about my feelings. I wait for further comment. "I'll come round to see how bad it is," Athena says in almost joking matter and she swipes through the Iris message.

Seconds later the goddess flashes to my room and greets me with a warm hug and I don't hesitate for a second to give her one back. After our embrace has finished she pulls away and sits down on my bed and I join her shortly after.

"To be fair with you, I don't know everything about sex and how people feel for each other. But I know what these feelings are that you're having. I think that you love her." She says for the first time admitting how unknown she is to this topic.

"Is it wrong?" I ask and Athena nearly falls off the bed with laughter. Thinking I was joking until she seen my very serious face. "Is a man and a woman loving each other wrong?" She asks basically and I shake my head knowing that it is the way to have children happily. "So is a woman loving a woman wrong? You are thinking too much into the "normal" way of things that you don't see that a woman loving another woman is okay and acceptable. Zeus has had many male partners, does that make him wrong?" she asks and I think a little and nod in understanding to what she was saying.

"I think we need Aphrodite." Athena admitted, "She always knows how to deal with confused people." Athena stands up and creates an iris message and sees the scene in front of her.

Aphrodite was sat on top of the tied down Aries bouncing on his lower regions with such precision. Her hands were on his abdomen helping her flick her hips as she reached the top and dropped back down, as she hit the bottom of the bounce her firm ass would jiggle slightly from how much effort she was putting in.

Athena didn't even try to get her attention she just shouted "Aphrodite, we have a code rainbow, code rainbow! Come to my location immediately!" instantly after hearing that she flew off Aries' hard one and got dressed sweeping through the message.

Moments later Aphrodite came into view in front of us carrying 5 bags of DVDs and objects I could not yet name but at the end of the day, I knew I would know how to spell them in 15 languages and be able to use them with such precision.

Aphrodite kicked me out of the room for 30 minutes now, I was just about to walk in when I see Thalia walk out of her room from down the hall. I see her looking into a book about the punk revolution as she walks down the corridor, as she was about to turn into the main part of the house she looks up and notices me and gives me one of those heart-stopping smiles.

She walks over, the book closed and put on the floor so she can pick it up later and she stands next to me. "Why are you stood outside your room?" she asks looking up at me. "Aphrodite and Athena decided to take a visit and won't let me in my room." I nearly huff out. Thalia giggles cutely at my aggravation.

I look over at her and think about kissing those soft lips and it makes me feel warm and bubbly inside. Instead, I ask "how has your day been?" "Alright just reading up on a couple of stuff, I was going to fix me up a ham and cheese sandwich but I saw you and decided to hang out for a minute," she replied almost normally.

A strand of her hair fell from the messy mop I've come to adore. My fingers instantly go up and brush it out of the way of her deep blue eyes. My hand rests on her cheek and by the look of it, Thalia enjoyed my hand being there as she tilted her head towards my hand lovingly.

It was almost perfect. Until the door swung open and the two goddess' dragged me into the room. Thalia was in fits of laughter at my helpless state not being able to be released from the clutches of the educational two. They shut the door and I heard Thalia walk away. A part of me was sad but another part of me was bloody well thankful she didn't see the state of my room.

Spread across my bed was a variation of items most of which had a familiar shape to a penis. A high stack of DVDs with obscene images on them was sat next to my Tv in the far corner and the sofa that sat across from it has a whole bunch of magazines which had women with little to non-clothing on them. On my desk there were several novels about love and some information books on love. One of the book titles read "Have you found the right girl?"

As I look around the room I notice all of this stuff is orientated around the girl on girl. I didn't mind because boys don't interest me in that way.

My internal thoughts were "Welcome to the world of torture for the next couple of hours"

After hours of watching girls rub their clits and finding out all the ways you could use a synthetic penis on a girl, my last question pops to mind.

"How do I come out to Thalia?" my voice sounds naive and timid.

"Don't say "I'm gay" flat out. You need to show interest so she thinks you are and make your move," Aphrodite says almost like she is one of the blogs the girls read to me during the porn where they ate melted chocolate of their bodies.

"How do I show interest and how do I make a move?" I ask milking the information like a starving baby.

"You need to show affection and show her you're willing to run the extra mile for her to be happy, try to take her on a date or cook something nice for the two of you then when you feel like kissing her. Kiss her, show her you want her." Athena says passionately. I nod and think for a moment.

"I want to touch her in places like they did on the… videos…" I say quietly.

"NO!" They both say in sync "absolutely not on the first date." Aphrodite says demandingly. "Wait for the right time," Athena urges. "Wait till she's practically grinding on you." Aphrodite exaggerated. I thought about her grinding on me and I could feel the same throb between my legs that I feel when I think about her in that way.

"Wow… You're so full of sexual tension." Aphrodite almost admires. "What are your sexual fantasies with her?" She asks eagerly. I blush bright red and mutter nervously "sometimes I think about doing… that in the bath…" "Details come on mama needs more sugar" Aphrodite urges.

"Well she'd be sat on the bath wall and I'd be… licking softly at first… then slowly start to get faster while probably putting a finger in her…" I blush and stammer out. "Good, getting her ready at first nice. You should probably suck her clit too just to make her moan more but that is just my preference." Aphrodite says like it's a casual conversation

"Yeah but making her orgasm isn't the end goal. You want her to feel comfortable and the only woman in the world worth looking at. Possibly telling her it's your first time after you've done it may make her feel more special, and not before because she may want to take over, therefore, tarnishing your fantasy. When going to make your move you want to make sure you are the dominant and you will fuck her, not the other way around. Try with leading the kiss and your tallness over her will make her feel like she is submissive." Athena says rather casually, Aphrodite looks at her a little shocked. "What? I've had my fair share of women" Athena defends.

"You're a maiden goddess!" Aphrodite nearly screams. "It never said anything about women." Athena defends herself and they turn their attention back to me.

"When's the date?" Aphrodite asks nearly eagerly.