A/N: Man this is crazy. Views are now jumping by the thousands between chapters! While this is primarily a romance story, there still will be some angst chapters, some hurt/comfort stuff coming in and out.

Well I've been banned from Disney theme parks now. Streaking through their HQ screaming to give me ownership of Zootopia is apparently frowned upon.

Chapter 20 - Curiosity and Agony

Judy sat on her bed in her childhood home gazing unfocused on the walls around her. All of the faded ZPD fliers and newspaper clippings of heroic officers. It was a shrine to all of her dreams as a child. It seemed a lifetime ago that she was headed to Zootopia to be the first rabbit officer when it was barely more than a year. Time flies when you're having fun, she smirked. Or in love. Now there was a question she had been asking herself. Ever since Ben had slipped up that Nick had loved her for the past year she had been wondering how long had she been in love with him? Was it the last few months that they had been together each day? Or was it longer than that? Had she been in love with him that whole time and never realized it? Reflections unfortunately would have to wait as her door burst open to reveal three of her sisters practically falling over themselves in the door frame.

"JUDY!" She was crushed as the three sisters jumped on top of her, squeezing her with giant hugs that threatened to break ribs. Why didn't I pack my tactical vest?

"Hey guys. How have you been? Alice, I love your hair! Veronica, did you seriously dye your fur again? Mary you still working on that science deg-" she began before getting cut off.

"Yeah yeah. All that is interesting to catch up on," Mary said, her big brown eyes twinkling. "But that can wait. Who is that hot fox you came home with and why are we just learning about him now?"

Judy started blushing but felt a sharp twinge of jealousy when her sister called her mate 'hot'. She knew he would never step out on her but it wasn't a feeling she could control. She would just have to work on it.

"That's Nick, my mate."

The three girls sat in stunned silence before Veronica whispered, "Oh my god, it's true." Judy waited tensely, worried they might act like their father had and start attacking her over it. Before she could think of something to say they all started asking questions a mile a minute.

"When did happen?"

"Are you really mates now?"

"Does he have a brother? He's soooo dreamy."

"Have you two fucked yet?"

"Ooh yeah, how does that work? He's so much…bigger than you are." *giggle*

Judy was beside herself in merriment. She had forgotten how much fun they used to have as kids, especially into their late teens as her sisters leaped ahead of her in the more intimate parts of life. She would hang onto their every word dreaming of one day finding a male of her own. Now she was the center of attention with a captivated audience all wanting to know about the dirtier parts of her life. "Alright alright. Where do you want to start?"

"The sex!" Alice practically yelled.

"Yeah, is it mind blowing?" whispered Mary.

"Is he totally hung?" Veronica winked at her.

Judy grinned before settling down on the bed facing her sisters. "Well we've only had sex the one time last night, but we've been doing other things the past few days. He's so gentle with me. He knows how to use his digits in just the right way to torment me endlessly. And my god is he talented with that muzzle of his." She looked at the flushed faces of her sisters as she had begun feeling the same way they appeared to be. "As for his size, well, I can't compare based on personal experience, but you know that health class vid we had to watch?" The other bunnies nodded. "He's at least three or four times bigger than that." At that her sister Mary fainted. Alice started fanning herself, feeling overheated. Veronica meanwhile leaned in closer.

"And is it true?" She brought her voice down low, excited but scared of the next answer. "Do canines have that, you know, thing down there?"

Judy grinned, knowing what her sister meant. "You mean a knot?" Veronica nodded as Alice leaned in and Mary roused herself. "Oh yeah he does." She winked at them. "And when I forced that thing inside me, I swear I died. I lost all feeling in my entire body except for the one place I cared about right then. The pleasure was like white hot lightning traveling everywhere. And then, when you get locked to it, well let's just say he might be done but that thing doesn't stop messing with you. I swear I came three more times during our 'mandatory cuddle time' from that knot." Her sister's all squealed before wanting to know about all the romantic parts of their relationship. Judy went on to describe the dates they had gone on, how he was the perfect gentleman even when she had pushed him to be more dirty.

"I'm so jumping Tom when I get home and fucking his brains out," declared Veronica.

On the other side of the door, Bonnie was listening to Judy's tale to her sisters. She had come by to ask if she wanted to help her cook up some pies for dessert but had stopped when she heard their excited whispers. She wasn't at all interested in foxes or even other males. She loved Stu even when he was acting like an idiot. But she was still a rabbit and rabbit's had an innate curiosity when it came to sex. As she listened while her daughter regaled her sisters with the details of their sexual exploits her eyes got wider with each descriptive act. Well, she thought. At least I'll never have to worry about that aspect of their relationship, before wandering off, secretly wishing Stu had not been an ass that day.

After talking with her sisters for a couple hours, Judy was feeling hot and bothered. Very hot and bothered. Finally finding Nick covered in bunny kits in the living room, she hauled him to their room.

"Cute room, Carrots. You really wanted to be a cop that whole time huh?" He looked at all the posters. Turning to face her again he was greeted by the sight of a very beautiful bunny in some very tasteful lingerie laying on the bed.

"Hey big, bad predator," she purred as she slid the panties down her legs. "Why not come devour your 'meek prey'."

The fox's clothes were on the floor before she could even blink. Feeling his weight on her, she looked up into his eyes. She smiled as he slid himself down further and further until her hands were grasping the back of head as he mercilessly attacked her. Oh god that tongue.

Stu walked out to the barn, his head and his heart fighting with each other. What he had done was unforgivable and he didn't feel he deserved any forgiveness for it. There's so much more to it than they know. But I can't tell them. I can't.

Seeing the pillow and blankets his wife had laid out, he noticed his sleeping bag was also put next to them. A grim smile formed on his lips. Even when he was a complete ass she still loved him, but why he never could understand.

Coming out of the barn, he turned to look at the house seeing his children running everywhere, wishing he could go join them and play for a while. Instead he let out a small sigh and turned in the direction of the fields and started walking. He meandered through them for about 5 miles before making a sharp left along a worn-down dirt road. The path went through thick woods, not allowing any moonlight in for him to see, but it didn't matter. He knew this road. Every pothole, every frost heave, every dip and turn. He took his time, not really caring how long it took to get to his destination especially seeing as he didn't want to go there in the first place.

Coming up to a particular grove of trees, he ducked right, leaving the path as he headed deeper into the woods. Stepping over the fallen trees, the rotted logs, keeping himself out of the swamp holes, he made his way to what appeared to be an overgrown hill. On the other side however was a door concealed by some hanging brush. Pushing it open, Stu once again found himself in the abandoned burrow he called home more than 30 years ago. Not bothering with a light, he walked down the empty halls, imagining the sounds of his siblings laughing as they ran by him. His mother and father sitting on the couch reading the newspaper, talking about their day. It was all so vivid in his mind, especially tonight, when old memories, memories he never wished to be reminded of, were surfacing.

Stopping at a door worn with age, he traced the faint outline of an 'S' scratched into the wood. Pushing it open, he slowly stepped into the room, heading for the rusted bed in the corner. Curling himself into a ball, he wept. I want to tell them but I can't. I can't.

You're going to lose your daughter if you don't.

I'll lose her if I do! I couldn't stand to see the shame in their eyes like it was in my parents'.

You don't know it will be like that. The world is different now. Bunnyburrow is different. You are different. You owe it to yourself and them. And you definitely owe Nick. Nick isn't him. You need to stop blaming all foxes for the actions of one.

Stu sighed deeply, his cheeks still stained from his tears. I will. Tomorrow. It's time I ended this personal hell.