Hello everyone,

last chapter for about three weeks for now.

Thanks for the reviews.

To Ryuakilover: Tiedoll is going to appear later on. I am not explaining how or why yet, but eventually they are going to meet him. As for your second question, I didn't really understand what you meant. If you mean where he was when Kanda landed in hospital, Linali explained that he was more or less depressed because of Daisya and didn't support Kanda at the time. He mostly stayed away from him.

Disclaimer: Nothing changed during the weekend.

My only thought is that I simply had to lean a tad bit closer and then I could kiss him. Or maybe that he seems to be leaning closer to me. It can't be, can it? He could never have this same intent. My heart is beating fast in my chest and I am taking deep breaths. Just one centimetre closer…

Suddenly a loud crash resounds through the park and both our heads shoot around. Kanda immediately jumps up in front of me, instinctively grabbing one of the practice swords. I can't help but smile at this familiar and most likely unconscious move. But there is nothing he has to protect me from, because we soon spot the reason for the sound. A boy flew his remote-controlled airplane straight into a tree. Kanda relaxes and puts the sword down.

Nonetheless the moment we just had is gone. And I can't help but be disappointed by it. He was about to kiss me! Okay, maybe not, but a bit of wishful thinking is allowed, not? Anyway I am pretty red right now and am thankful for the light of the setting sun. Kanda is standing in front of me, he sighs and then stretches. I have to look away when I see his muscled back under his shirt to keep my body from reacting. Then he turns around and bends down to get what we brought with us today.

"We should go home now," he grumbles, "It is getting late. You need rest and I a fucking shower."

I can only nod, while he gathers everything in the basket and straightens up again. It seems he is considering something for a moment then holds out a hand to me. I thankfully grab it and he pulls me to my feet, being careful not to move me too fast and induce another dizzy spell. I can't help but give him a shy smile and a 'thank you'. He only nods and heads towards his car.

The drive home passes silently, both of us caught up in our own thoughts. I can't forget that moment at the park when he was so close. If that crash would have not interrupted us, would he have kissed me? Does that mean he likes me too? What were all those conflicting emotions in his eyes?

So many questions are flying around my head that as soon as we arrive at the apartment I retreat to my room, fall onto my bed and into a deep sleep.

The next day I urge him to go to the park again. I push a training sword in his hands as soon as we arrive and ignore his complaints. It takes me some minutes to convince him into sword-fighting again, his resistance way smaller than last time. And soon he is moving over the grass in a cat-like grace again. And I am laying under a tree, watching him, as content as he. Of course the crowd is gathering as well.

I doze off after about two hours, my body claiming the energy needed for the baby. I don't know how long I sleep but when I come slowly back to consciousness, I feel my head laying on something comfortable and surrounded by a calming scent. I breathe in deeply and immediately recognise the foresty note. Could it be? Kanda? Very slowly I let my eyes slide open and look around without moving my head.

To my surprise I notice that my head is laying on Kanda's leg, which he has crossed over the other. His eyes are closed and he is breathing calmly. Those who don't know him might think he is sleeping, but I know he is just meditating, something I haven't seen him do lately either. I smile slightly and snuggle my head into the material of his trouser. What I don't notice is the hint of a smile that creeps on Kanda's face as well.

I doze off half-way again, pretending to be fully asleep. Only to feel something surprising after about half an hour. A hand, very softly and nearly shyly, running across my abdomen, caressing the small bump that has formed there. My heart begins to beat faster and I unconsciously hold my breath, because the only person who is close enough right now is Kanda. I don't notice for the first time that he shows a surprising interest, care and softness when it comes to my pregnancy, my child. But I am happy to let him do, if he gets better with that and meanwhile comes closer to me, I am more than glad. Plus he always looks out that I lack nothing in my pregnancy.

So I just simply lay there still and enjoy his little caresses. After a (for me way too) short while the hand leaves and we fall in silence for about ten minutes. Then I start to feel cold and apparently noticing that, the raven lays a hand on my shoulder and shakes me.

"Moyashi, wake up! We have to go home!"

I groan but lift my head up, looking at him with tired eyes. He only rolls his eyes and stands up, grabbing our stuff. Then he pulls me to my feet again. Yawning I follow him back to the car. I notice how he throws me a nearly concerned look. I only shake my head, telling him that I am fine. He raises an eyebrow but stares ahead.

Back home, he immediately orders me to sleep and I comply without arguing for once. For some reason I am really tired.

The next morning I awake my head is pretty fuzzy and I barely manage to open my eyes. What is wrong? Did I catch something? I hope not, it could affect the baby. Very, very slowly I heave myself out of bed. I have to use everything I can as support to not land on the floor. When I open the door of my room, I can hear small noises from the kitchen. Kanda must be there. Kanda, I need his help. I really do and now. I don't feel good. Breathing hard I stumble along the wall. The kitchen door is slightly ajar and I push it open easily.

"K-Kanda?" I voice out.

At the pretty off sound of my voice he spins around frowning. I am leaning against the door frame and trying not to black out. When his eyes fall on me, they widen. He drops the pan in his hands and hurries towards me. His hands grab my shoulders to steady me.

"Moyashi! What the fuck is wrong with you?" His voice sounds urgent.

"I-I don't know. I w-woke up like t-that. But I don't f-feel so g-good," I murmur, my legs giving way underneath me.

He curses and catches me, "You're fucking burning up, moyashi. You have to get back to bed!"

I only mumble something incomprehensible. Normally I would be happy to be carried by Kanda, but right now my sickness is more important. I press my face into the crook of his neck, nearly moaning at his cool skin. I feel him stiffen at the contact, whether from my heat or the general touch too close to his scars, I don't know. Carefully he puts me down on my bed, but I don't want to let go of him.

"No," I murmur into his skin, "Stay with me."

"Moyashi, you need medicine and sleep. Let me go. I have to prepare a tea for you. We have to get you cooled down as fast as bloody possible so it will not harm your child," he grumbles in my ear, sending shivers down my back.

"No, no…" I try to argue, but my grip is far too weak and I have to let go.

I see him look at me with concern, bordering on fright, in his eyes. Funny how in this fevery state I can suddenly read his emotions clearly again. As I can't even sit up, I simply curl up in the sheets and wait for his return.

It takes about ten minutes until the door creaks open again. I am still facing towards the door, so I see when Kanda enters, a tray with two steaming mugs and a bowl with what I assume is food in his hands. He sits down on the bed next to me.

"Moyashi? Can you drink?"

I murmur an affirmative, but he has to help me sit up and drink. The tea tastes better than the normal one, but is still bitter. As soon as I am finished I let myself fall against his body, trying to get more cool from him. I feel one of his hands brush some hair out of eyes and lay on my forehead. I feel him stiffen next to me, but am too tired to do something.

"I know you hate hospitals, moyashi, but you really look like shit. And it's not only your life we have to worry about. So – " he starts but I cut him off, sounding like a drunk.

"No! You promised to not take me to a hospital! You have to keep your promises! Please not!"

I see him sigh and fear that he will simply drag me there, but instead he just pulls my body close to his. I sigh in contentment. He doesn't say anything after that and I drift into unconscious again fast.

When I awake next it is late afternoon and a terrible nausea is filling me. I barely manage to lean over the edge of the bed before my stomach twists and I empty all the contents onto the floor. My body is shaking and tears are springing to my eyes. This is worse than any morning sickness. What is happening to me? I can't even call for Kanda, because my body keeps on dry heaving. What I luckily don't notice are the red streaks in the vomit, my sight is too blurred to see them.

Luckily though Kanda has heard my vomiting and comes running into room soon afterwards. His nose crinkles at the smell, then his eyes widen and he rushes to me. He grabs my shoulder and more or less straightens me up.

"Moyashi! Can you hear me? What is happening? Allen?!" he shouts.

My watery eyes find his hard cobalt, "D-Don't know. I-I – "

"We have to call a fucking doctor, moyashi. No stupid protest this time! This is fucking serious!" he growls and the increased use of curse words shows me that he is starting to panic as well.

I want to protest but when I open my mouth, a searing pain shoots through my abdomen and I scream out loudly. One of my hands shoots there, the other tightening around Kanda's.

"What is it? Moyashi, the fuck?" he yells.

"I-It h-hurts," I whisper, clutching my abdomen, tears running down my cheeks.

"Hurts? Your stomach? Fuck, is it the baby? Moyashi, talk to me!"

The baby! No! Am I losing it? Even if it was forced on me, I don't want that! Please no! I can barely hear Kanda shouting while panic and hellish pain seize me.

"P-Please l-let n-nothing h-happen t-to i-it," I whisper clutching onto Kanda, "Pl-Please! M-My ba-b-baby!"

"This is fucking enough! I'm calling a fucking ambulance!" I hear Kanda roar.

Even so I still want to say no and stop him from taking his phone, but the last I see is him hurriedly punching numbers into the device and yelling into the receiver. Then with a last 'Please' on my lips, my world goes completely black. And all I have left is hope that my child will be fine.

That's it for today. Thanks for reading.

Sorry, no kissing just yet ;P

And another cliffhanger...

Next chapter in three weeks.

Hope to see you then and please review ^^