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They had been searching all day for the parts they needed and Bonnie was exhausted.
She closed her eyes tightly as she enjoyed the feeling of Kai running his hands through her hair. He had just finished telling her how they met again and about herself. Apparently Kai and her had been in love for a long time and had come together because she had no one in her life to teach her how to be a witch. He helped her. He also told her about Mystic Falls and how she had friends there that always tried to come in-between them before she finally chose him over them. Those same 'friends' from Mystic Falls were how she had came to be trapped in the prison world and that horrible Damon who had hurt her was apparently in a relationship with one of her childhood friends, who had chosen Damon over her. He told her how Damon had hurt her and belittled her, but how she had kept trying to help him because of that friend back in the real Mystic Falls and her waning trust in Kai.
Kai told her she was having regrets about separating herself from her friends and their relationship suffered because of it. He told her that he had always been there for for her while her friends just used her powers to help them out of every bad situation they found themselves in.
She felt sick at herself for allowing those toxic friendships to come between her and someone who obviously loved her. She just wished she could remember to understand her actions more.
"How is it coming, Bonnie?" Kai's voice cut through her thoughts. She was laying on top of him on some bed they had decided to spend the night in that night. "Do you feel any of your magic?"
Bonnie stiffened, she hated that question, it always was answered in disappointment. "No," she whispered softly. She felt his hand leave her hair and her heart sunk, she could feel his designation and it was like a blow to the gut. She quickly lifted her head and looked him in the eye. "But I will," she promised.
He stared down at her, face blank. "I wonder if you're trying hard enough."
Bonnie shook her head. "I can try harder."
"Good," he lightly nudged her off him, leaving her alone in the bed and cold. "I'm going for a walk." He studied her face for a moment. "Alone." He said as if reading her mind.
He knew she hated being alone, why did he keep doing that to her? She knew better than to say something, not wanting to hear the speech about him needing alone time and another reminder of what she did.
Instead, she sat up and leaned against the headboard and watched him leave. She felt tears building up in her eyes but quickly rubbed them away with the back of her hand.
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She could feel his agitation.
She watched him from the coach inside the house she had first woken up in as he tinkered with a bunch of pieces as he tried to put the thing he said could take them home back together. He was obviously having trouble with it.
He cursed again. "Kai," she said softly, "maybe I can help?"
He threw another piece down and kicked the table and yelled in frustration. Bonnie flinched and watched him with wide eyes.
"What do you know?" He spat at her. "Its your fault its broken in the first place."
She flinched again but forced herself to be strong. "Getting mad at it isn't going to fix it," she told him, "you should just take a break and try again later."
Suddenly he was in front of her, his fest clenched around her white T-shirt as he glared at her with crazed eyes. "take a break? Do you have any idea how long I've been in this fucking place?" He shook her.
"Kai," she whispered, afraid, her hand grabbed at his.
"I was almost out of here," he raged, "I was almost out of here before you had to go and mess it up." He pulled her off the couch and she hit the floor with a loud thud, his hand still clenched around her shirt. "And you're useless, what am I suppose to do with you? Huh? You can't even use your own magic. I can't even suck it out of you because its like its not even there." He raged.
"Please," she begged as she stared up into his angry eyes. She had landed wrong on her ankle and it was hurt her badly. "Kai, stop, I'm sorry." He pushed her against the side of the chair hard, but it didn't hurt because of the cushions, but his nails were digging into her flesh now. The look in his eyes frightened her so bad that she just wanted to look away. She couldn't remember being so afraid before in her whole life. She had to get away from him.
Something shattered, and they both whirled their heads around to look at the broken, light bulbs in the lamps that had burst. Bonnie shook confusion joining her fear.
"You did that," Kai whispered, pulling her attention to him once again. He was staring at her with wide, bright eye. He was smiling. Bonnie's blood ran cold. "You did that." He repeated. He let her go and whooped loudly, fist pumping in the air. Suddenly he was hugging her, touch soft, gentle, unlike the way it was just a minute before. Bonnie tensed until she wasn't anymore and she melted into his embrace still frightened and confused, but pleased that she had done something to make him happy.
(RY)
Her skin had buzzed and tingled with power both foreign and exciting after she had exploded the bulbs, but before she could really enjoy it, Kai was taking it away from her, leaving her empty and exhausted.
She watched him as he used his new founded magic with half-lidded eyes. She studied the way his lips twisted so far upwards it was almost sharp and how his eyes glinted with something she was too cautious to name.
"I need more," he said, gaze flickering from his hands to where she leaned like a sack of potatoes against the coach.
She frowned, though that was now oddly difficult. "I don't have anymore," she whispered, "you took it."
"Oh dear," he bent down in front of her, a gentle look in his eyes, "you're really like a lost puppy, huh? You don't know anything." His words dripped with a little too much condescension, but Bonnie refused to think about it much. He reached out and petted the side of her head with a gentle hand. Bonnie forced herself to relax. She loved this man. She thought about his actions just a minute before, she could still feel her chest burning from the imprint of his nails and her stomach throbbed because of her 'fall' from the couch. She loved this man, there had to be a reason for it. "I'll help you, teach you everything you need to know to be a competent witch, Bonnie, but trusting me is key, right? I trusted you even though you spat on that and betrayed me, now I just need for you to trust me. We're all each other has." Bonnie chewed on her lip as Kai continued to pet her hair. "Right?" He asked a little more forcefully, his hand stilling on her face.
He stared into her eyes. "Yes, Kai," Bonnie nodded and agreed in a small voice.
Kai had said it had been the pain and the fear that had awakened her powers the time she blew the bulbs, that was why he had to hurt her. He told her he didn't enjoy it, only sometimes she didn't quite believe that.
Bonnie's lungs burned and her still healing stomach ached as she darted between the trees, putting as much distance as she could between herself and her pursuer. He had given her a thirty minute head start but he still always found her somehow.
Bonnie stumbled, pushing herself up a tiny incline and pressed her back into a tree as she tried to catch her breath. She pressed her fingers into the rough bark behind her as she tried to center herself and get the world to stop spinning. She listened desperately over her own breathing for any signs of Kai, she tried to do as he had taught her about sensing presences, but could feel nothing.
The raw ache of feeling like a failure joined the other pains in her body. She wondered for a the hundredth time if she was really a witch, but trashed the thought. To doubt that meant she was doubting Kai, and she had promised him and herself that she would trust him.
Bonnie scratched at the bandaged wrapped around her forearm, the wound underneath deciding it wanted to remind her it was there as well. Kai had burned her there, burned her flesh with the magic he had taken from her. He had said it was to awaken the magic inside of her again. She had to believe that.
"Bonnie, come out, come out where ever you are," Kai's gleeful voice rang out through the eerily quiet forest. Her blood ran cold. He sounded close. "I don't think your playing the game the right way, Bons." He chided.
Bonnie winced and pushed herself off the tree and stumbled forward before regaining her balance and taking off in the opposite direction of Kai's voice. She just wanted this to stop, she didn't want to do this anymore. Kai said it was important that she train to become a competent witch for when they returned home, he claimed to have found away but was holding back in order to make sure she could handle herself. He told her that she wasn't a competent witch before which got her in all sorts of trouble. He told her that she never listened to him before about the importance of training and said this time, to protect her, he wasn't going to take no for an answer. He claimed all of this was for her.
Bonnie let out a loud yelp, one minute she was running the next she was being yanked from the ground and flipped upside down. Her world blackened for a moment before rushing back to her in a swirl of colors. The leg caught in the trap was tugged painfully, sending a pain-filled tingle through her toes.
"Daddy, look what I caught," Kai shouted happily as he appeared below her. He grinned up at her widely. "Isn't she pretty?" He continued to talk to someone who wasn't there, having a grand time apparently. He laughed a belly shaking laugh.
Bonnie's eyes burned with tears, but she blinked them away. "Kai, this isn't fair."
He stopped laughing, face turning to stone in a mere seconds. Bonnie swallowed. "You don't think a vampire worries about being fair do you?"
"No, Kai but,"
"No butts, Bonnie." He waved his hand dismissively. He smiled suddenly. "Set me on fire, Bons." He spread his arms out wide. "Come on baby, burn me."
She stared at him, her short hair reaching for the ground. "What?" She squeaked.
He rolled his eyes. "You know I can't bite the dust here? Come on, hit me with your best shot." He gave a little shimmy.
Bonnie quickly shook her head. "No, Kai," she said, "you're being ridiculous."
His smile faded and his arms dropped, he raised an eyebrow. "You won't do it?"
Bonnie met his eyes. "I don't want to harm you, Kai, I love you."
He smiled, which she thought was a good sign until he reached into his pocket and removed a small, blue pocket knife. "I love you too, Bons, you know that." He shrugged. "But sometimes to help someone you love, you gotta hurt them sometimes."
Bonnie cried out as the blade that was once in Kai's hand stuck itself into her thigh. "Kai, stop," she whimpered, her hands reaching for blade as she bent her body awkwardly up in attempt to reach the object, it popped from her leg before she could even graze it with her fingers before stabbing itself a little higher on her thigh, closer to her knee. Bonnie sobbed. "Why are you doing this? Stop." She was in so much pain.
"Make me, Bonnie," he said, his voice dark, "if you want me to stop, you're going to do as I say. What did I say about trusting me, Bonnie?"
Bonnie shook her head. "What does any of this have to do with trusting you, Kai?" She whimpered.
"Everything," he told her simply. She screamed when the blade hit her hand, piercing it.
"Stop"
"Make me"
"I don't remember much about my life, that's true, Kai, but I know, I just know no one is suppose to love like this." She yelled at him. Her eyes were closed but she could sense the dark look he gave her.
"We love like this, Bonnie." He snapped. "Who cares what everyone else does? They're all weak. Pathetic Shams." He breathed harshly. "You're betraying me again. I knew I shouldn't have trusted you."
"No," she cried out, although she didn't know what she was saying 'no' too. "Just stop, and lets talk, Kai."
Pain exploded inside of her and her vision became a mix of colors, then white before coming into focus again. She couldn't breathe. The pocket knife dug into her stomach, right next to, mere centimeters away from her still healing wound.
She was in so much pain that the only coherent thought she could recognize was that she needed to make him stop. She needed to stop him from hurting her.
She did what he had taught her and a second later a grinning Kai burst into flames as he screamed.
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Bonnie abused body had hit the ground after she set Kai on fire, him somehow finding it in him to release the rope even as he burned to death. When she had first hit the ground she had lost consciousness but she didn't think it was for very long.
She woke to the coolness of night and the smell of Kai's burning flesh in the air. She had gagged at first and attempted to sit up, but her body was just to tired. Her pain made it impossible for her to lose consciousness again through the night, so she didn't try. She simply stayed on her back, gaze on the starry sky beyond the trees above her.
She shivered a lot, but couldn't honestly say she thought a whole bunch. She found that fact odd when the sun of the new day, which was actually just the same day as before, rouse and warmed her body. She was just happy her bleeding seemed to had stopped.
She just couldn't understand Kai. She couldn't understand anything really.
"Fuck" She didn't bother to exert the energy needed to look up as Kai came back to life. She merely sighed in relief and dread. He appeared before her a few seconds later anyone, smile in place and as naked as a peeled apple. "That hurt, Bons." He didn't wait for her response before he bent down and scooped her hurt body into his arms. "I'm gonna fix you right up, Bons." Bonnie kept her gaze firmly on her hands which were firmly in her lap. Once they returned to the house they usually stayed at, Kai got to work on her wounds as promised. He nursed her wounds with gentle hands and seemingly caring eyes. She didn't respond to his words or look at him, her thoughts whirling. "Bons," he said gently, hand on her cheek, thumb skimming over the top of her lip. "Please look at me," he sounded desperate, "don't do this to me."
Her heart clenched. She still wouldn't raise her eyes to meet his though. "I don't understand you, Kai." She finally said. "You keep hurting me," she said quietly.
He frowned at her as if he were truly confused. "I told you why, Bonnie." He stood from his crouched position and sat himself onto the couch beside her, she fought off the overwhelming urge to move away and allowed him to hold her hand. "Its to help you. I don't ever harm you because I like it." She looked up at him than, hoping to see the truth in his eyes and it was there. He smiled at her and leaned forward, kissing the corner of her mouth. It was soft and gentle, like he really cared about her. She cherished it for the moment it was there. "We do things differently, Bons. You and me, but never allow yourself or anyone else to tell you what we have isn't care and love." He played with the ends of her messy hair. "We will be leaving here soon and returning to the real and much more dangerous world. There Bonnie, people will lie to you and try hurting you in ways that are not meant to help you. Truthfully, most of them already have." He kissed her chin. "Do you trust me to have your best interest at heart, Bonnie?"
Bonnie didn't know what to say. She was truly conflicted, Kai was all she knew but all he did was hurt her it seemed like. "I don't know, Kai." She said honestly, her body going rigid as she waited for his blow up. It didn't come. Instead his eyes became glossy before a tear slipped from his eye and down his cheek. Bonnie's stomach dropped.
He blinked quickly and looked down, removing his hand from hers and putting space between them. He took in a shuttering breath. "I understand," he whispered.
Bonnie felt tears spring up in her own eyes. She had done it again. She had hurt him. That hadn't been her intention, she just wanted him to understand that she hated his 'training'. Guilt attacked her gut and she became disgusted with herself. He had asked her to trust him. It was such a simply request and she couldn't even do that for someone who had helped her when he had every reason not to.
That vampire had left her here to rot, obviously he didn't care about her as much as Kai. Kai told her that the other people in her life didn't care about her. Kai was all she had.