Bonnie couldn't remember if it was clove or another herb that was needed for the potion. That wasn't good.
She looked up at Kai quickly where he leaned against the wall near the door playing a game boy animatedly. She bit her lip and quickly looked back down at the large pot in front of her and the rows of herbs she had neatly lined up on the table beside her.
Steam curled from the pot and the unique smell coming from it itched at her nose. Her fingers ran over the wooden spoon in next to the pot and glanced at Kai again. He would be angry if she had to ask him, but angrier if she just put in anything and messed up the whole process.
She swallowed. "Kai," she called out softly.
"Yes, my sweet?" Kai said brightly, looking up at her.
Bonnie's fingers wrapped around the spoon and brought it closer to her body as if it would protect her from the man in front of her. "I can't remember, is the next ingredient clove?" She asked so quietly she wondered if he even heard her.
Kai cocked his head to the side and stared at her for a moment face blank. Her stomach fluttered nervously. Kai took one step forward, pocketing his game boy before moving over to her. He peered into the pot, face still blank.
"Let me see the notes you've taken," he waved his hands expectantly.
Bonnie quickly picked up her notebook and handed it to Kai. He skimmed over it, his lips pressed and poked out. She watched with wide eyes as he tossed her notebook into the pot carelessly.
"Kai," she called out in alarm and anger. Weeks of notes gone in seconds.
"You're obviously not smart enough to follow directions, Bons. Why would you need a notebook on how to be a witch when you're such a sucky one?" He huffed.
She glared at him with as much confidence as she could muster. "That's just uncalled for, Kai. Don't insult me."
He was suddenly grabbing her by her neck, large fingers wrapped around the back as he pulled her towards him until his body was flush against hers. She could feel him sucking in her magic, feeding off of the little she still had left. Her hand reached out and grabbed the counter to keep her balance. "It wasn't an insult, Bonnie, it was the truth. You have to do better." Her neck was released as his hand moved down to her shoulder before making the journey down her arm, stopping at her fingers, were he held the tinier digits between his larger ones. His hold was loose but pain spiked across her fingers as if he was a giant squeezing her hand. "I've found that pain is always a good motivator." He shrugged. Bonnie felt as if she was going to throw up. She sobbed. "Now, which herb is next, Bonnie?"
"Clove," she whimpered out.
Kai smiled. "See," the pain left her hand. "I told you." He sang and took a step back from her. She could feel his eyes on her, studying her. She kept her gaze on the large pot next to them, not wanting to look at Kai. "Come on, Bonnie, don't be like that." He grabbed a piece of her hair off her shoulder and curled it around his finger. "This is how we love."
Bonnie's stinging fingers balled into fists. "I don't think I like the way we love." She mumbled, feeling sick. Was this really how it was suppose to be? All of the pain and fear of setting him off.
"What?" He asked, his hand left her hair and he bent a little forcing her to meet his gaze. "What?" He asked again.
Bonnie chewed on her lip, forcing herself to meet his dark eyes. "Its different in the books and in those movies and it just doesn't feel right, the way you say love is suppose to be."
Kai laughed, he really laughed. He threw his head back and barked out a laugh loudly. Bonnie stared at him with an uncertain frown. "My sweet, sweet, Bon-Cake, don't be so stupid." He said so bluntly Bonnie flinched. All laughter was gone from his face almost so quickly she thought she had imagined the whole thing. "This is the real world, not some fluffy cake movie. Our love is based on loyalty and the realness that comes with pain." He explained. "But," he shrugged and took a step back, "if you don't want this, fine. I can leave you on your own, you'll never have to see me again." He spun around and headed for the door.
Anxiety hit Bonnie hard as she watched his retreating back and the fear of isolation fell on her, she found herself stumbling after Kai.
"Don't go," she called out, but he kept on going. "Kai, stop," he was almost to the front door now, "please" she begged.
He stopped just at the door, his back to her. "What?" The coldness in his voice made her swallow.
She didn't want to be alone. "Don't go," she came to a stop behind him. She bit her lip. "I just, I hate when you hurt me, Kai." She wanted him to understand that, not go.
Kai spun around and Bonnie gasped, he had tears in his eyes. "Why are you not getting it, Bonnie? Why?" He shook his head and sniffed loudly. "We show love through pain. We show love through loyalty." He took a step towards her. "My family betrayed me, Bonnie, then you did. Why do you keep doing this to me?"
She didn't know what to say. "Kai," she said quietly.
"No, you tricked me again, you don't care about me."
"I do, Kai, but that isn't the point."
"Isn't it?" He questioned and shook his head. "You don't trust me, which means you don't care about me the way I care for you. You think I cause you pain for fun."
"I didn't say you did it for fun," she defended, "I just wanted to explain, to try explaining how it makes me feel." She felt as if she was no longer making any sense. "I just don't want to be afraid of you because it makes it hard for me to love you."
She had obviously said the wrong thing if the odd expression that came over Kai's face was any indication.
He shook his head at her as if she had just said the worse thing imaginable to him. "You obviously don't understand me at all, Bonnie." He said coldly before turning around again.
"Stop," She said quickly before he could leave, "I'm sorry." She didn't want him to leave, she didn't want to be alone. She could be wrong, what did she know anyway? She didn't remember anything and even when she did she had apparently been tricked by vampire which caused her and Kai to be trapped here. "I'm sorry for bringing it up." He wasn't moving to leave so she kept talking. "Just don't go. I don't want that."
"No, its over, Bonnie, its clear you don't want to be with me. Its always has been clear."
"No," Bonnie felt the tears that had been building up in her eyes spill over, "what can I do to show you I do love you and that I do want to be with you?"
Kai spun around quickly, so quickly it startled her. His dark eyes darted all over her face as if to see if she was lying. "Don't question my love for you ever again," he said. "Don't question me at all ever again. Bonnie, I want to have your complete trust and devotion. Believe only me, love only me, and see that our love is as real as pain. That's all I want from you, Bonnie, that's all." After he finished he started at her intently, waiting.
Bonnie's stomach churned and her mouth felt dry, but she found herself nodding anyway. "I promise to do that, Kai. I love you."