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Chapter 4

Lexa has been in the hospital for over a week now, she has been stuck in her hospital bed for all this time as well and it's slowly driving her crazy. After Abby caught Clarke sneaking Lexa out of her room the blonde hasn't dared to take Lexa on any more little adventures, but still Clarke has come to visit Lexa as often as she can. Their conversations usually being about everything and nothing at all, it easily became the highlight of Lexa's day.

Raven has also become a regular visitor, entertaining Lexa with gossip from around the hospital. Some of her more elaborate tales Lexa finds rather hard to believe but they are entertaining none the less. Raven also showed Lexa how to use the little screen box like machine against the wall in Lexa's room. Apparently it is a big source of entertainment for people here, but Lexa's can't imagine why. Raven had made it show the story of a small yellow block and pink star talking in annoying little voices, she had watched a whole 5 minutes of it before she had to turn it off for the sake of her own sanity.

After another day of doing nothing Lexa just can't get the sleep she knows her body needs. Struggling a little to get her body up and out of bed, Lexa is able to shuffle her way onto her feet. Despite her irritation her body has been using this time confined to the bed to heal and Lexa is slowly starting to feel her strength returning. Her headache has gone from consistent pain to occasional, but the pain in her side was still very prominent making it hard to move around and has to try and keep bending or twisting to a minimum.

Lexa makes her way out of her room and into the dimly lit hallway. The nurses talk quietly amongst themselves to not disturb the sleeping patients. Luckily no one pays her any attention as she stumbles her way from one floor to the next. The hospital looks a lot different at night, the usual buzzing hallways are quiet, the only sound being the occasional opening and closing of a door. The maze of floors and never ending hallways are difficult enough to navigate during the day but at night it's even worse. Lexa not being in any hurry to get back to her room just continues to wonder around.

She comes to a large room with rows of beds along the walls. She walks around the room until she comes to a large glass door. Pushing it open she is hit by the autumn night air, her eyes close automatically as she inhales the fresh air her body has been craving for days. She stays completely still for a few moments just enjoying the feel of the slight breeze against her face.

When she opens her eyes she looks at her surroundings for the first time. She appears to be in a small garden like space that the tall hospital building wraps around. There are a few benches scattered around for people to use, and a path winding through the short grass and rounding a large bowl shaped structure in the middle that has water flowing out of it.

Lexa lifts her gaze to the sky where she can see the stars shining in the night sky. At least that didn't change. There are a lot less then what she is use to and they seem slightly dimmed but they are still there. She watches as a little red flickering star moves quickly across the night sky. The last time she spent time looking up at the stars feels like a life time ago, then again it just might be.

Lexa's footsteps echo through the empty halls of the Polis tower. The sun has set long ago and everyone has turned in for the night to wake early to ready for the big day tomorrow. But tonight Lexa can't seem fall asleep, her body is buzzing with energy over her impending fight with Prince Roan. After hours of rolling around in her bed she decided to trade her faded ceiling for a more appealing view.

That's how she finds herself making her way to the roof of Polis tower. She first discovered her special place a few years after she started her training here in the capital, after that she and Luna would sneak out at night after having a hard day and just watch the stars until they felt ready to return to the life of a Nitblida.

Arriving at the roof she finds the door slightly open. Lexa is immediately on alert, no one comes up here except her. Carefully not to make a sound she pushes the door open as her other hand makes its way to the handle of her dagger. Slowly she makes her way out onto the roof, her eyes darting around the empty space until they land on a small figure sitting alone near the edge. Her hand releases the dagger as she studies the person under the glow of the flickering flame crowning the tower.

"Aden,"

The boy jumps up when he hears the voice behind him, turning around he's eyes go wide when he sees who called him and he quickly bows.

"Heda, I am sorry I did not know anyone would be out here." He apologizes.

"It is alright Aden." She reassures him as she walks closer taking a seat next to him. "This is a good place to come a think."

He hesitates for a moment before retaking his seat.

"I find it very peaceful here." Lexa only nods.

She looks up at the stars shining brightly high above them. Not for the first time she envies the Sky people who were able to live among the stars. She has spent so much time looking up at them over the years that she was sad to notice that the brightest among the stars had disappeared. It wasn't until much later that Clarke told her that the star she has been looking up at for all this time was in fact the Ark orbiting Earth.

"Heda," Aden breaks her out of her thoughts, she nods slightly telling him to continue. "Please do not die tomorrow."

She finally looks away from the night sky to look at Aden who looks more like a little boy he truly is then she has seen before.

"If it is my time to go I have no control over that, but the Commander's spirit will live on."

"Heda we are not ready to be Commander, I am not ready."

"Aden, I have trained you all I have faith that any of you will make a worthy Heda. Yu don kom au gon dison."

"But not as good as you." He says in a small voice.

"Aden-" The boy jumps up starting to pace in front of the Commander.

"It is true. You have done what no other Heda could do by uniting the 12 clans. You have shown mercy to the Skikru when they did not deserve it. You have led our people to victory time after time. No one can take your place Heda."

He stops his shoulders dropping and head tilted down. Lexa lets out a breath before looking back up at the stars.

"My legacy is not there to be replaced. You or who ever will succeed me will build their own legacy. Aden if I should die tomorrow you are not to be scared." She stands up walking past Aden to look out over Polis. "Our people will be depending on you, they need a leader that will be strong when they are weak. A leader who will strive for peace when they are presented with war." She looks back at him. "I believe in you, all of you. I am not scared to die tomorrow and neither should be you." She gives him a reassuring smile and he gives a small nod. "And remember – oso laik sontaim kom eno."

"Sha Heda."

Lexa walks closer to him placing her hand on his shoulder.

"You should sleep, we have a busy day tomorrow." He gives her a small smile.

"Reshop Heda."

If only she knew then the twist fate had in store for her after her death. Lexa runs her fingers over the back of her neck where the flame use to reside. The conclave must be long over by now and Titus has passed on the flame to the new Commander who will now lead their people.

Lexa jumps when she feels something placed around her shoulders, turning around quickly she finds Marcus standing behind her with his hands in his coat pockets.

"The nights are starting to get colder, I don't want to risk you getting a cold."

Lexa looks at the jacket draped over her shoulder.

"Thank you Dr Kane."

"Patients aren't allowed outside at night."

"I apologise I did not know, I was just looking around."

"Shouldn't you be resting?"

"That is all I have been doing for days." Lexa says failing to hide her annoyance from her voice.

"I take it you are feeling better if you are up and about." Lexa just shrugs making Marcus chuckle, clearly she doesn't let a little pain keeping her down. "We better get you back inside before anyone else catches us out here."

Lexa nods reluctantly before following Marcus who holds open the door for her to walk back in first. Lexa walks next to him as they walk back past the room with all of the beds.

A scream catches her attention looking over to the occupied bed she sees a large man sitting on the bed, his face is in pain as he holds his hand in front of him for the doctors to look at. Two of his fingers are bend at an odd angle away from his body. Lexa watches as a doctor takes a hold of the finger and with a loud snap the finger is back to a normal angle.

"Looks like you're not the squeamish kind." Marcus says when he follows Lexa line of sight having seen her not even pull a face as the doctor snapped the finger back in place. "Come on."

Lexa's body collapses back in her bed exhausted and aching everywhere. Marcus hasn't even left her room before she was fast asleep only to wake up when Maya brings her breakfast and medication. Lexa mostly just pushes her food around on the plate with her head pounding from the little sleep. Finally giving up on eating altogether Lexa relaxes back against her pillows, closing her eyes to block out the harsh light. Her ears pick up a squeaking sound coming toward her room. Her lips pull into a smile having coming to recognise the sound of Clarke's colourful shoes walking along the polished hospital floors. Slowly opening her eyes just in time to see Clarke walking into the room with her arms full, clinging onto a white cup and a brown bag hanging from her teeth.

"You are here early today." Lexa usually don't see the blonde until much later in the day.

Clarke places the things in her arms onto the table along with the brown bag before sitting down and propping her feet up onto the edge of Lexa's bed. If by some magical force the chair has inched its way closer to Lexa's bed everyday up to the point where it is almost right up against it.

"Well good morning to you too Lexa, it is nice to see you too Lexa." Clarke gives her a raised eyebrow as she sips from her white cup.

"Hello Clarke." Lexa says with a small sheepish smile.

"I only have a morning class today and it got cancelled, so that means you get to pleasure of my company for the whole day." Clarke says with a cheeky smile.

"You are not working on your painting today?"

"Nope, there is a chickenpox outbreak on the Peds floor so I'm not allowed to go up there. But I do have a Drawing brief I need to work on today and if it's okay with you I thought I could work on it here? I even bought us donuts." Clarke points to the brown bag on the table.

"I would be honoured." Lexa doesn't know what these donuts are that Clarke is trying to bribe her with, but she has no intentions on sending Clarke away.

"As you should. I did think about going to visit Glenda, but the prison has just changed Sloppy Joe Fridays to Mystery Meat Fridays, and boy is she in a mood." Clarke pulls a face that has Lexa fighting a smile.

"Who is in a mood?" They look up to see Raven walking in to the room and flopping down onto the foot of Lexa's bed.

"Glenda."

"Who?" Raven asks confused.

"It's not important, I am a lot more interested in how your date went last night?" Clarke wiggles her eyebrows at her friend.

"Good, really good." Raven has a smirk plastered on her face that even Lexa has no trouble understanding the meaning behind it.

"Are you going to see her again?" Raven just shrugs. "Raven." Clarke whines, she knows her friend well enough to know what that means.

"What, we out for drinks and we had a good time?"

"You don't want to see her again?" Raven rolls her eyes at the idea of seeing the cute nurse again.

"What can I say I'm a good-time girl. Besides you already know that my one true love is Benedict Cumberbatch."

"Of course how silly of me."

"Is he your partner?" Lexa asks that makes Clarke let out a snort.

"If only my memory challenged friend, if only. But anyway I am here on official doctor business. I need to see what's going on in that messed up noggin of yours."

While Raven does her exam Clarke starts to pull out the things she will need so she can get to work.

"How are you feeling today, any pain or discomfort?" Raven asks while moving a small light in front of Lexa.

"My head hurts rather bad."

"How about your abdomen and side do they hurt?"

"Only when I move."

Raven takes the screen moving her fingers over it quickly while she asks her a few more questions. When Raven is finished she leaves to go check on the other patients of Dr Griffin.

Once they are alone in the room again, Lexa asks Clarke about the drawing she has to do. Clarke happily tells her all about it and what she is hoping to create. Lexa turns on her side facing Clarke as she starts to draw. Shortly after that Maya comes by and gives her some painkillers and no matter how hard Lexa tries she is soon falls fast asleep listening to Clarke's voice.

When she wakes up much later Clarke is still in the chair next to her bed busy drawing on a book placed against her legs. It almost seems like she only closed her eyes for a few minutes but the rumbling in her stomach suggests otherwise.

"Clarke."

But Clarke doesn't hear her, she just continues to run the piece of charcoal across the page and using her finger she rubs over the piece she just drew.

"Clarke."

She calls a little louder but still receives no answer. Looking closer she sees that Clarke has two wires running up and into her ears, while she is humming to herself as she works. Lexa is surprised when Clarke starts to sing softly still complete oblivious to the green eyes watching her.

I keep denying, begging for attention
Dropping hints, hoping for some tension
Getting tired of making all this racket
Waiting on you to get your ass in gear
I didn't wanna be so invested
I played it cool and then I overdressed it
You were there, I was tired of this
Nonsense when you pretend you don't

Get me, feel me, want me
Like me, love me, need me

Tonight, you're fuel for my fire
You can't stop desire, oh oh oh oh
Stop desire, oh oh oh
I tried, but you're fuel to my fire
You can't stop desire, oh oh oh, oh
Stop desire, oh oh –

Lexa places her hand on Clarke's shoulder making her jump as she lets out a yelp, Clarke rips the wires out of her ears looking wide eyed at Lexa.

"Lexa, you scared the crap out of me!" She flicks her shoulder while placing her other hand over her racing heart.

"I called your name but you did not hear me."

"Sorry, I like to listen to music while I work and I sort of get into my own little world." Clarke motions to the wires still hanging from her hand.

"How is your drawing coming along?"

"Slowly but surely getting there, I think it's going to be long couple of nights before it's done."

Clarke's blue eyes start looking over Lexa's face, studying her. After a while Clarke reaches her hand out to her, Lexa shivers when Clarke's finger gently runs just underneath the cut on her forehead.

"Is your head feeling better?" Lexa nods not trusting her voice.

"What?" Lexa asks when Clarke just keeps looking at her.

"Your eyes are kind of intense." Lexa feels her face heat up and turns her head trying to hide her red cheeks in her pillow.

"Are you blushing? That's adorable!" Clarke giggles as Lexa glares at her but it just makes her look even cuter. Clarke decides to take mercy on her blushing. "It's actually a good thing you woke up because I was ready to eat the last donut."

Clarke grabs the brown bag from the table and pulls out a round piece of bread with a hole in the middle. Clarke sees her frowning at it.

"Trust me your going to love it."

Lexa hesitantly takes a bite and looks at Clarke wide eyed.

"It's good right?" Lexa nods still chewing the sweet bread.

They both look to the open door when they hear Raven talking to someone outside.

"Come on Dr Griffin you can't just kick her out on the streets."

"Raven we have been over this, I hate this as much as you but I have done all I can. I will try a few more places but beyond that my hands are tied."

Raven pokes her head into the room giving Clarke a look before she disappears again.

"I-I'll be right back."

Clarke places her drawing down on the bed before quickly following Raven out of the room. After Lexa finishes her bread she cleans her hands before she carefully picks up the drawing like it might shatter at any moment. The lines still look rough but she can clearly make out the image of woman wrapped in the skin of a pakstoka.

Lexa has almost fallen back to sleep when she hears Clarke's voice outside making her way closer to her room.

"Honestly, mom I think this is the most obvious solution."

"Clarke I really appreciate that you guys want to do this, but I am not really sure you understand the responsibility that will come with it."

"I agree with Clarke Dr G, what she needs right now is to be with people she knows and trusts. She is comfortable with me and Clarke and we have the space."

"Alright if you are sure."

Clarke walks back into the room followed closely by Abby and Raven.

"Is something wrong?" Lexa asks suddenly feeling nervous.

Abby gives a reassuring smile as she stands at the end of the bed.

"We actually have some good news for you. Dr Kane and I have both agreed that we are happy with your recovery so far and we can discharge you tomorrow."

"Discharge?"

"You're getting out of this dump." Raven says with a big smile.

Lexa looks at all of their happy faces but can't help the sinking feeling in her stomach. The hospital is all she knows about this place. She doesn't know where she is suppose to go outside the hospital.

"Lexa this is a good thing." Clarke says when she sees nervous look on Lexa's face she tries to mask.

"And that brings us to the next thing. Clarke, Raven would you like to tell her?" Abby asks and Clarke nods.

"Well, we know that you don't really have somewhere to go not being able to remember and everything, and even if it's okay for you to leave the hospital you still need to take it easy. So me and Raven were wondering if you would like to come and stay with us. You don't have to if you don't want to, or you're not comfortable with living with us but it will only be temporary." Lexa's eyes move between Clarke and Raven who is looking at her expectantly.

"Thank you both, but I appreciate it but I can not possible ask that of you."

"You're not asking we are offering." Raven says with a shrug like its noting big.

Lexa looks at Clarke who is smiling warmly at her encouraging her to accept.

"Thank you." She says just above a whisper, feeling an overwhelming sense of gratitude.

Clarke claps her hands excitedly before turning to her best friend.

"Skywalker, looks like you are cleaning the apartment tonight."

"Hold up I already did my good dead for the day."

"Yeah, but you didn't clean it this weekend when you were suppose to. You don't want her to get sick or an infection do you?"

"Wouldn't it be easier to just put her on a Lysol drip." Clarke gives her a look. "Ugh fine."

Raven huffs before leaving the room with Clarke chasing after her. Abby watch the girls leave before walking closer Lexa.

"Now that that is sorted, you are going to have to come for scheduled checkups with both me and Dr Kane. Like Clarke said you are still going to have take it easy, your body went through a great trauma and you need to avoid injuring it any further especially with the concussion. That means no driving or operating heavy machinery until Dr Kane gives you the all clear. You need to continue to take your medication as prescribed that also means no alcohol."

Lexa is looking at her with wide eyes making Abby smile at her.

"I know it must be scary but you're going to be just fine and if you are unsure of anything just ask Raven or Clarke they will know. I'll even come and visit to make sure those two hooligans aren't driving you crazy."

Lexa shares a smile with the doctor before looking around the room she has called home for over a week.

"I think I might actually miss this place when I leave."

"I have to say it going to be strange not seeing my favourite patient every day."

The next morning Lexa was filled with nervous energy, today she will get released into the outside world and she has no idea what to expect. Lexa spends most of the morning going through a large stack of papers Abby brought that they needed to go through so she can be discharged.

"Hey ready to go for one last ride?" Raven walks into the room with a wheelchair.

Lexa is sitting on the edge of the bed as her right hand plays nervously with the necklace around her neck. Raven drops a bag onto the bed next to Lexa.

"Brought you some clothes, fought you might be a little tired of the hospital gowns."

"Thank you." Lexa says gratefully.

"Let's get you dressed, Dr G is waiting for you in the lobby." Raven moves the wheelchair out of the way so she can help Lexa.

Once she is dressed in clothes that turns out to be a lot more comfortable then she expected, Raven takes her to where Abby is waiting for them.

"Unfortunately my shift doesn't end for a few more hours but Clarke is waiting for you at the apartment." Raven says as she hands bag with Lexa's things to Abby. "Don't start the house party without me." Raven pats Lexa's shoulder before she turns and leaves.

"Are you ready to go?" Abby asks and Lexa swallows nervously but nods.

Abby helps her out of the wheelchair and they make their way over to the large glass door.

Translation:

Yu don kom au gon dison. – You were born for this.

Oso laik sontaim kom eno. – We're all stories in the end.

Pakstoka - Wolf

Song:

Tegan and Sara – Stop Desire