Chapter 5-Girl Meets Cory And Topanga
The next day Riley, all our friends and I are in Riley's bedroom, after Josh left last night I cried my eyes out for hours and hours on end before going to Riley's and crying more whilst she tried to calm me down. I knew when I told him he'd hate me, I can't believe he left I just thought he cared about me more than this.
"I can't believe he left" Riley sighs "I've known Josh forever and I never thought he was like that...I'm so sorry Maya...but I know he'll come back" Riley says.
"No he won't Riley, no one wants a pregnant girlfriend and a baby at his age, he hates me" I say and she wraps her arms around me "What am I going to do?" I ask.
"Whatever you do, we'll be here for you M, and we'll all help you" Zay says and I smile "Don't worry we're not going anywhere" He says and then Mr Matthews and Topanga walk into the room.
"Does no one knock?" Riley asks annoying at the fact they just barged in.
"Riley...sweetie, mind telling us why we found three positive pregnancy tests in your bin?" Topanga asks showing them to us...oh no!
"Howdy!" Mr Matthews shouts glaring at Lucas.
"You know we should..." Lucas says before all of them run out...some friends they are! Mr Matthews chases them all out probably going after Lucas and Topanga comes and sits in between us.
"Hehe!" Mr Matthews walks back inside carrying both of Lucas's shoes "He escaped but I got the shoe" He lets out a maniacal laugh "I'll get him whilst he sleeps" He smirks.
"Daddy!" Riley shouts "Can you both just sit down?" Riley asks and Mr Matthews sits next to Topanga with me sat next to Topanga on her other side and Riley sat next to her dad.
"I'm giving you once chance to explain yourself Riley before I get mad so start talking!" Topanga says glaring at Riley.
"They're not hers" I say looking down "They're mine" I say looking at them and they look at me as their faces soften "I'm pregnant" I say.
"Maya took those tests two days ago, and I didn't tell you guys because it wasn't my secret to tell" Riley says and Mr Matthews rubs her back "Are you going to give Lucas his shoes back?" She asks and he sighs.
"Maya...sweetie what happened?" Topanga asks hugging me as I let some tears fall.
"It was the night of the party, truth is I didn't come home all night I was with Josh all night and Riley covered for me all morning...but don't be mad at her I asked her to" I tell them.
"Wait...Josh is the father...my little brother?" Mr Matthews asks and I nod "He's dead" Mr Matthews says "And so are you Maya how could you both be so irresponsible?" He asks as I let some tears fall.
"I'm sorry, it was an accident" I cry as Topanga hugs me and I cry into her shoulder, great they hate me.
"Maya sweetie calm down, we're not mad just a little surprised that's all why didn't you tell us sooner?" Topanga asks.
"Because I didn't want you guys to be disappointed in me, or be mad at me" I tell them and she rubs my back.
"Does Josh know?" Mr Matthews asks.
"I told Josh last night, um he said he needed time to think but I don't know where he is and he's not answering my calls...he left" I tell them.
"I'm gonna kill him" Mr Matthews stands up "I'm going to his place and knocking some sense into him" He says.
"Wait..." I say and he stops "It's his choice what he does I can't tell him what to do, none of us can" I tell them and he sits next to me "My mom and Shawn get back tomorrow, I don't know how I'm going to tell them" I sigh.
"Don't worry Maya, we can tell them for you if you want" Topanga says and I nod "Let's get you some ginger tea it will help with the morning sickness" Topanga says and we walk to the kitchen.
How could I be so irresponsible? I'm 19 and I'm still in college, I can't take care of a baby! I care about Maya a lot and I feel horrible for walking out like that when I know how insecure she is when her dad left but I just needed to get some things sorted, I know it's not her fault and I don't hate her I could never hate her I just what am I going to do?
"Your an ass you know that right?" Andrew says walking inside, he got back from his holiday yesterday and stayed at Charlotte's, I texted him about what happened because I needed to tell someone.
"I know I wasn't careful, we should have been careful" I sigh running my hand through my hair.
"I'm not talking about that, I'm talking about the fact you're here whilst Maya is probably crying her eyes out because you walked out on her" Andrew says.
"I know I shouldn't have done that but she's pregnant man, with my baby, I'm 19 and still in college I can't raise a child" I tell him, he sighs and sits next to me.
"Charlotte and I we've never told anyone about this, last year Charlotte got pregnant with my kid" Andrew says and my eyes widen "Yeah, I know, she got an abortion though" He says.
"No way...what happened?" I ask.
"She told me she was pregnant and I fucked off for two weeks needing space, but her parents hated her and didn't want anything to do with her she didn't have anyone not even me because I was a wimp and ran off, two weeks later I realised she was important to me and sure it wasn't the best timing but a baby is a blessing dude and I love Charlotte and that's who I wanted to have a baby with and I was willing to give up everything to take care of her and the baby, but I got back and she told me she aborted the baby, Charlotte was upset because she killed the baby and she was upset for months on end and so was I, I was excited to have a baby and settle down but it never happened" Andrew says "What I'm saying is, don't do what I did and wimp out, you need to be there for Maya and I can't tell you what to do it's your choice but I know you just don't care about her I know you love her man, remember that party she crashed when she was fourteen I'd never seen your eyes light up like that, and even when you were talking to me on the phone about Maya you were happy and no other girl has made you this happy, just don't make the mistakes I made ok?" Andrew says and I nod before he walks off...the truth is I do love her more than anything and sure we're young but I love her so much and I know I'll love this baby too.
That night I am sat on the couch in my apartment watching movies and eating ice cream in my pyjamas, which consist on a white Calvin Klein sports bra and a pair of grey joggers with my hair tied up in a high ponytail and a blanket wrapped around me. Telling Mr Matthews and Topanga was easier than I thought, Topanga was really nice and she's always been like a second mom to me so she was helping me through it and Mr Matthews was assuring me that they'd be there for me. Riley wanted to come over and stay over but I just needed some time to myself right now it had been an emotional day and I just need to unwind.
Knock Knock!
Putting down the ice cream and pausing the movie I make my way to the door opening it...
"Josh?" I say when I see him standing there with a bouquet of roses in his hand.
"Hey beautiful" Josh gives a small smile "Can I come in?" Josh asks, I nod before making my way back to the couch sitting down wrapping the blanket tighter around me, Josh closes the door before walking over to me sitting on the couch "I got you these" Josh says referring to the roses and he hands them to me "I know they're your favourite" He says and I place them on the table before wrapping myself in my blanket.
"You left Josh" I say "I needed you and you left" I say some tears falling down my cheeks.
"I know" Josh whispers "I'm so sorry Maya, I know you needed me and I wasn't here for you, I shouldn't have left I know how insecure you are about people leaving you" Josh says wiping some tears away as he moves closer to me "It was a lot to take in and I was wimp I shouldn't have left when you needed me the most" Josh says "But I'm not going anywhere now, Maya you mean the world to me and there is no way I'm leaving you, you're my girlfriend and this is our baby I'm gonna be here for both of you and I'm going to take care of you" Josh says some tears falling from his eyes.
"I get if you don't want to be with me anymore Josh, or if you leave I'll understand I mean no 19 year old wants a pregnant girlfriend and a baby" I tell him, he takes my hand and pulls me onto his lap so I'm sat sideways on his lap with my cuddled into his chest and one arm around my waist with the other on my legs as I cry a little more.
"Maya of course I want to be with you I always have, I'm not leaving you or the baby and I care about you more than anyone else...and I love you Maya" Josh says he what? I lift my head off his chest to look at him he loves me?
"You love me?" I ask him.
"More than anything" He says stroking my cheek.
"I love you too Josh" I smile and he smiles as a flash of relief crosses his eyes, I place my hand on his chest and lean in to kiss him softly "I missed you" I say.
"I missed you too, I'm sorry baby" Josh says as we kiss and I wrap my arms around him hugging him burying my head in his neck and sigh I missed him so much "How are you feeling?" Josh asks as I pull away and I rest my head on his chest as he places his hand on my stomach and I place my hand on top of his before looking down at my stomach knowing there is a baby in there and he kisses my head.
"Tired, I've been throwing up a lot and not to mention crying my eyes out" I sigh.
"I'm sorry for making you cry" Josh kisses my cheek "I'm here now" He whispers in my ear and I nod.
"I'm scared Josh" I whisper looking at him "I'm seventeen, we can't raise a baby" I tell him and he nods "I know there's abortion and adoption, but adoption I can't do that to anyone and abortion it's dangerous and it's killing a baby" I say.
"I know, Andrew he told me how he got Charlotte pregnant last year and she had an abortion but regrets it" Josh says.
"I wish there was another way" I say.
"Do you regret that night?" Josh asks and I look at him.
"I regret not being more careful but I don't regret that night it was amazing" I say and he kisses my cheek "Do you?" I ask and he shakes his head.
"Look Maya, no matter what you decide I'll always love you and I'll always be here for you" Josh says.
"What do you want to? It's not just my choice" I say.
"I don't know, I mean we're young we can't raise a baby but me knowing right now my baby is in there I can't kill it" Josh says and I nod.
"You want to keep it?" I ask Josh and he nods making me smile "Me too" I say and he kisses my temple.
"It's gonna be hard" Josh says and I nod "We'll make it work though I promise, I've been saving money for ages so I've got quite a bit saved up and we both have jobs" Josh says and I nod "But as long as I have you it will all be ok" Josh says and I smile.
"You know I promised myself I wouldn't turn out like my mom, but she got pregnant at seventeen and my dad left her" I say.
"I'm not leaving Maya...not ever" Josh says.
"How can I be sure Josh?" I ask him and he takes something out of his pocket.
"I got this a few days before you told me you were pregnant, I was going to tell you I loved you and give you this" He says handing me a ring box, I open it revealing silver tiara pandora ring "It's a promise ring" He says "And" He says showing me the inside of the ring 25/12/2007 14/08/2017 28/08/2017.
"Dates? What are they?" I ask Josh.
"The first one is when I first met you, when you came down to Philly for Christmas when you were seven, I knew you were special" Josh says "The second one, our first time" Josh smiles "And the last one is the day you told me you were pregnant, it was the start of something amazing" Josh says.
"That's so sweet Josh" I smile and he takes the ring placing it on my finger and he kisses my hand "I love you" I say before kissing him.
"I love you too little ferret" Josh says making me laugh and I cuddle into his chest "And I love you too baby ferret" Josh says stroking my belly making me giggle.
"Your brother and Topanga found the pregnancy tests in Riley's bin and I told them I was pregnant" I tell Josh.
"Were they mad?" Josh asks.
"No...well not at me they were mad at you for leaving me so your brother kind of wants you dead" I tell him "And I'm pretty sure Shawn will want you dead when he finds out you got me pregnant" I say.
"Great" Josh sarcastically says and I chuckle "Well my parents will kill me as well" Josh says.
"It was nice knowing you" I pat his chest "I'll say nice words at your funeral" I say and he chuckles "Josh, stay here tonight" I say.
"Of course I wasn't planning on leaving anyway" Josh say making me chuckle "Let's get you to bed, you need your sleep" Josh says and I nod, we make our way to my room and Josh strips to his boxers before climbing in bed with me wrapping me in his arms as we fall asleep together. You know this might be ok.