Chapter Nineteen: Life and Death
A\n: Ahh! The ideas you get at nearly two in the morning! This fight originally felt too clean cut. Nothing really felt lost. I felt that wasn't good, and thus, at two in the morning,I got this idea! Anyways! Enjoy! Happy readings!
"We can't just jump in there without a plan. We need some sort of idea of what we're going to do. Otherwise, we'll just do more harm than good." As usual, Yun was left to be the voice of reason.
While Yona, Min-Soo, and especially Jae-Ha, seemed all ready to join the fight, though the others seemed just as eager, Yun had to take a step back, and think out the situation at hand.
"I know, but we're so close now! We can't just leave them!" Min-Soo stated, scowling.
After Shin-Ah had told them about the location, and what was going on, the group was quick to move closer. She was anxious. While she didn't think she was ready for a fight, she certainly didn't want to leave them to their own devices.
"We won't. Yun is right. We need to think this out." Yona was the next to speak.
Yona understood how dangerous this could get. Once they got involved,any one of them could get seriously injured or die. She understood the chances of those two possibilities happening were much higher of they went in without a plan. She wanted to take all measures to make sure that the risks were as low as possible.
"Right. We should start our planning then." Jae-Ha stated, trying to keep his usual calm, but more serious, composure.
Jae-Ha's eyes kept cutting to Shin-Ah, wanting to ask the Blue Dragon what was happening, but thought it was best not to worry either himself or Shin-Ah. Or anyone else in the group. Shin-Ah was busy between looking at the action, and paying attention to what was happening. More than anything, Jae-Ha wanted to jump straight into the fight. He wanted to fight his way through, and take Tian back to safety,but he couldn't let himself do that. Not just yet. Because as much as he wanted to get Tian to safety, he didn't want the others to become injured or worse because of his decisions.
"Right. So, here's how we'll go about this. We'll use what Shin-Ah has given us as information as a idea of what to do." Yun started, glancing over at the golden eyed teen, who just simply nodded. With that action, the planning started.
Tian was in the middle of a fight, protecting a fallen person that was trying to escape. The guard she was fighting yelled out, and a fist came dangerously close to her face. Tian quickly dodged the fist, causing it to collide with a tree.
Her green eyes looked into the frightened eyes of the fallen slave. Tian quickly dodged a kick aimed at her legs, and shoved the man attacking her back, causing him to stumble just long enough for Tian to quickly look back, and shout one word to the frightened, scraggly person:
"RUN!" She yelled.
The person didn't need anything more said to her as she scrambled to her feet, and ran as fast as her stumbling legs could carry her. Tian nodded, and was preparing to run herself but was caught off guard by the sudden punch to her jaw, sending her flying into a tree, and rendering her unable to react for a few moments.
The man that attacked her took her moment of disorientation to jump on her, pinning her to ground as he raised another fist, and punched her in the face again. Tian's whole face radiated pain.
Both of the two bodies were struggling, breathing shallow. However, Tian quickly regained herself, and just as his fist was about to collide with her face, she quickly moved her head, causing his fist to collide with the ground in an painful manner. He called out, his face twisting in more rage.
Tian used her strength, and quickly got out of his grasp, and once that was achieved, she shoved him off of her waist, and kicked him off her legs. He fell to the ground in a half roll before standing up.
Tian was quickly to get on her feet, albeit a bit more unsteadily than the man, who was quick to run at her again, and pin her against the tree, his arm digging painfully into her neck, cutting off her oxygen.
Tian struggled, clawing at the man's arm to no avail. She closed her eyes tightly as they began to tear up, and she could feel herself become light headed as the moments continued on. She gasped, kicking at him, but it didn't seem to work. She could feel herself slowly losing consciousness, but she fought through it.
With one last desperate attempt, she did the only thing her mind could come up with: use all her strength, and bite him.
Which is exactly what she did.
Tian gasped, falling to her knees as the man suddenly let go of her.
She took short, fast breaths, holding her throat as her lungs made a desperate attempt to get all the oxygen she had missed, but it burned her throat. She looked up, as the man came about her again, and she swiftly missed his leg, sending out her own leg to trip him up.
Tian stood up shakily, rubbing her sore throat one last time, her eyes becoming as hard as steel as her eyes locked on the man.
He smirked at her.
He rushed towards her, fist raised.
Tian smirked, a sudden surge of cockiness came through her. Though she wasn't entirely sure where it came from, and she didn't particularly care either.
However, just before the two could collide again, a familiar figure jumped down from the skies, getting in between the two, and knocking down the man.
"Beautiful. Even when beaten to a pulp. That's why I like you so much." Jae-Ha glanced back at her, smirking at her. Tian felt her heart swell up, but she didn't allow her emotions to get in the way as she stood up, and shook her head.
''I could handle this on my own. Watch and see." She said, rushing off to another person, protecting another victim from a guard. Jae-Ha watched her for a second longer, and then shook his head as he looked away.
She's lively and beautiful as always. Great.
And with that thought, a fire was lit under him as he fought even harder.
The fight didn't last long since Yona, Hak, and the four dragon's joined the fight.
Tian held her own greatly. She fought off the few men coming after while trying to help those other slaves escape. She tried to look for Ha-Seon, to see how he was, but couldn't because of the action.
Min-Soo hung back with Yun, who were both a bit away, but within eyesight of the fight. They helped those that had fallen, giving them some nourishment and help before quickly sending them on their way.
Once the fight was over with, the guards successfully knocked out, there was a brief moment of silence.
Everyone seemed to be catching their breaths, or taking in what had just happened. Nobody moved from their positions for a few moments.
Tian looked around for Ha-Seon, and saw him laying on the ground,a medium sized distance from where she was kneeling on the ground.
She felt her breathing shallow when she notice just how much red was around him. From this distance, she couldn't tell if he was breathing or not.
Was the red his blood? Or somebody else's blood? She found herself not caring as she stood up on her feet shakily.
"Tian, what's wrong?" She heard Jae-Ha's voice talking. She felt his hand touch her shoulders, but Tian merely shook her head.
"Ha-Seon… He…." Tian didn't want to finish the thought, tears pricking at her eyes at the mere thought. She shook her head, brushing Jae-Ha's hand from her shoulders, and rushing towards her fallen friend.
Once she got to him, she stopped, staring for a moment. His eyes were closed, but he was breathing, if somewhat shakily. Tian felt her eyes prick, and she had to squeeze her eyes shut to keep the tears back.
After a moment,she knelt on the ground, putting two of her fingers against his clammy neck. There was a pulse. It was faint, but it was there.
Some rush of hope surged through her. If there was pulse, if there was breathing, no matter how faint, it meant he was alive. If he was alive, there was time to save him.
"Tian!"
She could hear someone call after her, but she shook her head, scowling as she grabbed a bloody blade that was on the ground, and cut at the edge of her long robe. It was ankle length before, but after cutting pieces for bandages, it was just above her knees.
Tian attempted to put the cloth over the most dangerous wound first. The one in his gut. She pressed, trying to stop the bleeding, but the once white cloth was forever stained red as the blood flowed. She simply grabbed another piece, putting it over his bleeding wound.
I wasn't able to save my parents. Those officers thoroughly killed them before even the doctors could save them. Please, Ha-Seon, please! Don't die on me! I… I can't lose you too!
Tian held in her breath, trying to stop her tears from overflowing. The last thing she needed to do was cry like a child.
"T...T.. An." She gasped, looking at Ha-Seon's face as he spoke. His face contorted with pain. It was obvious he was laboring just to keep his eyes open.
"Don't talk, idiot. Let me help you." She stated with a shaking voice, looking back at his wound.
Blood. So much blood!
Tian had never before had a fear of blood, but seeing this amount was frightening to her. Her tears flowed down her cheeks without her knowing. The only reason she knew was that Ha-Seon had reached up, and whipped a tear from rolling down her face. She looked at him.
"You dummy! Don't move! You… You'll bleed out faster, and-"
"I….. It's al…. Alright. I… You… can't save me…" He groaned in pain as Tian deliberately put more pressure on his wound to shut him up.
"J-just shut up, you idiot! I'm not losing you too! You're gonna be OK!" She called out, grabbing another piece of cloth.
"I… it's my fault.. They… they were trying to get to you… I protected… protected you…"
"That's so dumb. You shouldn't have. I would have been fine." She replied,smiling slightly. Smiling, at that moment, felt so odd. Why was she smiling.
"I… I never… never regret my.. My decisions. I… Chose to protect… protect you. Because… Because i-"
"Don't. Don't say it. You're making it sound like… like a good bye. And it's not, OK? You're gonna be OK! You're gonna be OK!" Tian practically begged, squeezing her eyes shut as tears threatens to overflow from her eyes.
"P-please.. Just lemme say… Say this." He stated softly, touching her face softly,but with a shaky hand. She looked at him, one hand gripping his hand as the other applied pressure to the wound.
"But… but you're gonna be OK. OK? We're… we're gonna go home, and have Manju*! You.. You like Manju! And-"
"I… I love… love… you." He whispered, interrupting her erratic talking.
Tian gasped. Shock went through her as she looked back at him. The tears overflowing once again as she tightly gripped his hand on her face.
Even if she knew how he felt long before this moment, she didn't want his last words to be some sort of confession.
"H-Ha-Seon… please… Don't-"
"I… I know you don't feel… feel the same… that's.. That's OK… I… just wanted you to.. To be happy… Even if it wasn't me...wasn't me you.. You chose…. I… I told myself… whoever.. However you chose, I… I would s-smile… " he suddenly coughed, blood spilling from his mouth. Tian sucked in her breath, using her sleeve to wipe the blood.
"Stop.. Please…." She begged, crying freely, but closed her eyes.
''I… I told myself… i… Would smile, and wish you… all the happiness…. I…. See… See how… how you are around…. Around him…. And...and you're happy… annoyed but… but happy."
"S-stop it. Save your breath." She told him, her breathing shaking as she once again applied pressure to his wound.
She didn't want to hear this.
She didn't want to hear this.
Not from him.
Not now.
Not ever did she want to hear him talk this way.
Not ever.
''I…. Just want for you…. To be happy….. OK?" Tian didn't answer. She bit her lips, closing her eyes shut to keep the tears from overflowing.
It was when she felt his hand slacken on her face, and fall to the ground with an audible thump, that she opened her eyes, and looked at him wildly.
''H.. Hey…. Wake… Ha-Seon?" She hiccuped slightly, shaking him, but he didn't move.
He didn't move.
He didn't move.
He didn't move.
It was at that moment that everyone else came up to her.
Yona. She was the first.
When she looked at what was happening, the normally collected Tian, freely crying over the dead body of her friend that was so obviously dead, she stopped right in her tracks.
Tian was her friend. Yona hoped that Tian had considered her a friend as well in the very least. Yona was delighted to have another female to talk to. She was happy to have another girl around to tell the things she couldn't say to any of the guys. Not even Hak. But seeing this scene set something achingly familiar in her mind.
Her purple eyes remained transfixed on the scene, her hands shooting up to her mouth as she was briefly reminded of her own father's death. The scene was too achingly familiar, but she couldn't look away.
Hak. Was the second to arrive.
The dark haired man stopped right beside the princess. He laid a hand on the red haired girl's shoulders to calm her down. He had never had any particular feelings neither negative nor exactly positive towards Tian.
They never spent enough time nor speaking enough to really form a deep bond, but she was a comrade. Not just to the princess, who enjoyed her company as one female to another, or the others who had varying degrees of thoughts about her, but to him as well. Tian was normally so collected and calm, that seeing her like this was….. Rather depressing.
Hak had to look away. He thought that was giving her respect enough. Because he knew, when the emotions were died down, Tian would feel embarrassed at everyone seeing her this way. Looking away, while feeling sad for Tian, was his way of giving the dark haired woman the respect he felt she would want in the end. The only thing he offered her was his overcoat to cover her body up. Even so, she didn't move to acknowledge what Hak had placed on her shoulders.
Kija was the second to arrive.
The White Dragon stopped just behind Yona. His lips set into a hard line as he took in the situation. Hak was looking away. Transfixed on something Kija couldn't quite see. Or maybe it was nothing at all. Yona had her eyes transfixed on the scene before her, her hands trembling slightly. Kija then looked at Tian.
Kija was all for accepting her as part of the group the first night she stayed with them. He saw how his Dragon brother was around the woman, and how she was around him, and accepted her immediately. From that point on, even if they never spent much time talking or bonding, she was a close a comrade as anyone else in the group. It was an added bonus that Yona had befriended Tian. If not only Jae-Ha, but his master had accepted, and befriended the girl, then Kija had no problem accepting Tian as well.
That's why, seeing Tian this way, was hard to see. At this point, she had closed her eyes, shaking her head as she sat back on her heels. Her cut robe was stained with the dead man's blood. Her shoulders shook as she attempted to hide her tears. Kija wanted to comfort her, but he found himself unable to move. Or say anything. In shame, he looked at the ground, frowning at his own inability to make a friend feel better.
Jae-Ha arrived just moments after Kija.
Once he had met up with the group, he paused for a moment, taking in what was before his very eyes. Kija was looking at the ground, scowling in a way the Green Dragon had come to recognize as the scowl the white haired man often had when disappointed in himself. His fists were clenched at his sides, and his jaw taunt. Then there was Hak, holding the princess, who was looking the scene with her hands over her mouth, close to his body, but his eyes were averted. He noticed that Hak's overcoat was gone. A bit reluctantly, Jae-Ha then looked at Tian.
Tian's eyes were closed at this point, tightly squeezing them as if to stop the tears that were freely falling despite her efforts to stop them. Her shoulders shook, but surprisingly no sound came from her. He noticed Hak's overcoat hanging precariously off her shoulders. Without another thought, Jae-Ha walked straight to Tian, but paused a second longer as he knelt beside her. It was when she laid her head against his chest, burying her face in his chest, that he reacted by putting his arm around her, and gently patting her head, trying to comfort her.
It was strange seeing the normally so composed, and cool tempered Tian so distraught. Obviously this boy was something to her. His green eyes looked at the still body of Ha-Seon, frowning slightly. Even if he didn't particularly like the boy for more superficial reasons, Jae-Ha couldn't deny that Tian and this boy shared a strong bond. A strong friendship. Even so…
I won't forgive you for putting her through this.
Jae-Ha thought to himself,frowning as he looked away from the dead body, but continued to stroke Tian's hair in comfort.
Zeno showed up next.
He stopped on the other side of Yona, laying a hand on her shoulder. She glanced at him in turn, nodding slightly as she dropped her hands, and looked at the ground.
There was no trace of his usual smile, and instead wore his rather serious expression. No matter how many times he witnessed death during his long life, it was never any easier seeing the after effects of the people left behind. The anger. The fear. The sadness. The grief. The everything that was left behind, would never be any easier to deal with. He had a million things he could have said, but he also found that there were times that silence spoke much louder and clearer than words ever could. So that's what he chose. To remain silent. Even so, that didn't make seeing the young woman in such a distraught manner was not easy to see.
Shin-Ah had come next, just moments after Zeno, and stopped next to Kija.
The Blue Dragon wasn't sure what to do. Sure, he had felt sadness before. He had lost someone close to him before, so he understood how it felt, but he had never had to comfort someone who had just lost someone before. Thus, he wasn't sure what to do.
Tian was a friend. Someone he considered a friend as well. Seeing her like this, grieving, was uncomfortable. Mostly because it was so diffrent to how she normally was, and he didn't know what to do. Ao had taken it upon herself to jump from Shin-Ah's shoulders, and scurry off to Tian. The little squirrel had climbed up to Tian's shoulders, and nudged her with a nut. Tian glanced at the furry creature, and patted her head for a moment, before turning around. Shin-Ah nodded, leaving it up to Ao to help her.
Min-Soo was the next.
She was the furthest away, hiding away with Yun, and thus took her a little longer to arrive. Once she came upon the scene, she quickly slowed down, taking in everyone's faces before moving to Tian. With a steely expression, she sat next to Tian, staring at Ha-Seon's body.
It was so strange to see the normally lively, and bubbly Ha-Seon just laying there in a pool of his own blood. It was strange to see his normally tanned skin look so pale. It was strange, almost alien, to think that she wouldn't hear him talk anymore. He wouldn't laugh. Or move. Or do anything. She then glanced at Tian.
It was even stranger to see this normally so collected girl… Well, not so collected. Tian may not have been crying anymore, but her face was still buried in Jae-Ha's chest, her eyes squeezed tightly shut. Min-Soo sighed heavily, looking away. She had come to take them home, and she had failed in that area. Now, she had lost one of her best friends, and that set a very painful feeling in her chest.
Yun was the last to arrive on the scene.
He had come across the group at the same time as Min-Soo, but took much longer in reacting. It wasn't that he wasn't sure what to do, because he did, but it was more of Yun feeling uncomfortable.
Yun had dealt with death a few times before. It wasn't anything new to him. It was more of the fact he was arranging what needed to be done, but allowing a certain amount of time to pass before doing anything. He considered Tian, and Min-Soo, as friends just like everyone else. He didn't want to offend them by going in too soon.
Even so, he came as close to the body as possible, pausing as he looked at both girls. Tian glanced at him through her thick, dark lashes,and then looked away, closing her eyes. He figured that was as close to a yes as he was going to get. Yun then looked at Min-Soo, who looked at him, lips pursed, and nodded.
"It needs to be done." Min-Soo said softly, touching Ha-Seon's face gently. Yun nodded, kneeling down as he began to clean the wounds.
"Excuse me." Tian said suddenly, pushing herself gently off Jae-Ha's chest, and walking off. She didn't need to see this. She didn't want to see this. That's what she repeated in her mind as she walked away.
There was a moment of silence between the group as Tian stumbled away. Yun looked at her, scowling slightly. She was hurt. More than just emotionally, and he knew she shouldn't be moving, but he wasn't going to say anything to her. Instead, Yun looked at the task at hand, frowning in concentration as he continued preparing the body for removal and eventual burial.
Jae-Ha also looked at Tian as she walked away. He wanted to go after her, and say something. In fact, he was pretty sure that was exactly what he needed to do, but he found himself not able to move. Maybe it was just the other part that knew, or at least thought, that Tian needed space.
"I'm going to talk to her." Yona finally said, breaking the silence as she shook Hak's hand off of her shoulders, and began going after the dark haired woman
"But, Princess-"
"Don't worry, OK?" She interrupted Hak, smiling back at him, and then hurrying after the dark haired woman.
Tian had stopped some distance from the group. Now that the "excitement" of the day had passed, she could feel the results of the day in her body. Her ribs hurt, and she was pretty sure she had either broke a few, or bruised them some. Her face, and head,where the guard had punched her when she bit him, was throbbing. Her lips, jaw, eyes, nose, ears, and just all over hurt. With heaved breathing, she sat down on the ground, lookin at the group, who were now small in the distance as they picked up Ha-Seon, and carried him off. Tian looked away, biting her lips. Tian then rested her head against the tree, closing her eyes.
"Can I sit here with you?" Tian glanced over at Yona, nodding slightly, and then looked away.
Yona sighed slightly, but kept a small smile as she sat shoulder to shoulder next to the older woman. There was silence for a few moments,and then Tian spoke. She spoke so softly, Yona had to really pay attention or she would have missed what the woman said.
"His mother knew my mother simply because when Ae-Cha visited her family in Fuuga, she always stopped by my parents place to buy a gift for the family she visited. We didn't live in Fuuga. We lived in a small village a little further away in Sky Tribe territory. I first met him the second time his mother visited. I was nine years old. My mother told me to go play with him while the adults talked business. So that's what I did, although I didn't really like him at the time. He was annoying to me, but it seemed he didn't much like me, and we bickered quite a bit." Tian paused, chuckling slightly as she shook her head. Yona remained silent. After a moment, Tian continued. "Anyways, Ae-Cha brought him whenever she visited us. We were forced to play together, and we always wound up bickering over something small. As much as we fought, we were pretty close. I mean, we spoke about alot of things we didn't tell others. Anyways, Ae-Cha continued to visit me after my parents had left to travel-"
"You're parents left you all alone?" Yona questioned softly, reaching out, and touching Tian's shoulder. Tian shook her head,smiling ruefully.
"I didn't mind. My parents thought I was old enough to take care of myself without them. I was fourteen years old. Besides, they wanted to travel, and I didn't want to leave where we had settled down at. So, they left, but they visited a few times, and when I began to travel myself, I visited them. It was like we were apart, but not really. Anyways, Ha-Seon and I remained fairly close. Even if we did argue every now and again. When I first went to Dae-Seng, Ha-Seon had introduced me to Min-Soo. I was around sixteen then. Min-Soo was new then. She had lost her parents to disease, and she moved in with BaaBaa. He thought because we were both girls, and newcomers that we were get along." Tian paused, laughing a bit ruefully as she shook her head." I used to be so annoyed that he was right, but the three of us were pretty close. It was those two that helped me when my parents…." Tian sighed, shaking her head. She closed her eyes once again, and laid her head against the tree. Yona dropped her arms from the older girl's shoulder, and looked away. The red-haired teen drew her legs to her chest, and rested her chin on her knees as she spoke.
"I lost my mother when I was very young. I don't remember much about her, but I do remember feeling very sad. I didn't sleep for a long time because she wasn't beside me anymore. She used to sleep next to me every night, so when she died, it was hard to sleep. I didn't eat much either. But, after awhile, I began to get over it little by little. I tried to remain happy for my father, who was very grief stricken by losing her. I thought if I smiled, and appeared happy, then my father wouldn't be so sad anymore." There was a pause between the two girls. Tian had opened her eyes, glancing over at Yona, who was speaking very softly. Tian felt sorry for the girl, but didn't say anything herself." When I was sixteen, I lost my father too." Yona spoke softly. Tian pursed her lips, and reached out to touch the teenager's shoulders. Yona glanced at her, smiling slightly before dropping the smile, and looking away wot a much more somber expression." I felt so lost. So scared. So sad. So angry. So confused. Sometimes, I didn't feel anything at all. I didn't want to feel anything. Or do anything. For awhile, I wasn't living. I was just existing. I kept wondering if I was going to die next. Or if Hak, or somebody else close to me was going to die. What was going to happen to me? But, little by little, I began to feel better. It was thanks to the strength of everyone around me that I was able to have the courage to continue on myself. Whenever I was lost, or felt alone, or anything, there was always someone there to lend a helping hand, and pick me back up again. I admired their strength, even if I was still grieving over my father's death, and I wanted to be strong like them so that I could eventually protect, and help them the way they had helped me. It was thanks to the strength of those around me, that I was able to pick up the pieces, and continue living. I think without them, I wouldn't be where I am today." There was silence for a few minutes as the two collected their thoughts.
This was the first time the two of them had a real conversation with one another. It was the first time they had talked about something deep together. Tian wasn't sure what to say. It was obvious to Tian that Yona was still hurting over the death. She was curious, but wasn't sure what to ask without further hurting the girl.
"How… How did they die?"She questioned, clearing her throat, as she glanced over at the teen. Yona had gone silent, her eyes glazing over for a moment, but it was a sad type of expression. Tian immediately felt bad, and was about to take back the words when Yona suddenly spoke.
"They were both murdered." Yona spoke very softly. Tian bit her lips, reaching out to touch the young lady.
"I-"
"But it's OK." Yona looked at Tian, smiling brightly." The whole point of me saying this is that there were people who were always willing to help me when I felt down,or needed strength. I understand perfectly well how it feels to lose somebody important to you, and I don't want you to think you have to go through this alone. Everyone is here for you. Let us be your strength that you need, OK?" Yona touched Tian's shoulders softly, smiling just as gently. Tian was taken aback, but smiled, touching Yona's hand.
"Thanks." She said softly. Yona nodded, smiling softly as they both looked away.
A\n: Important Information:
*Manju are a type of Chinese style steamed bun that come in hundreds of varieties. Most are a bread-like bun with a sticky texture filled with a sweet paste such as anko.
OK, I'll admit I got that bit above from a site where it teaches you about Japanese culture. A simply look for traditional Japanese sweets, and you'll find this exact explanation. Honestly though, I chose this because I actually have had Manju. My friend that I visited in Japan for her wedding a couple of months ago, actually brought me some Manju. It was delicious, and I thought I would add it in the story. Anyways! That's it!
Boy it seems like I kill off a character in a highly emotional way in .story. .ever. oh boy!
But when it came to this one, it felt too clean originally. Originally everyone survived with little or no injuries. And then I was like 'wait. No. No. No! Too anti-climatic! That's too far fetched! No!" So I thought I would make it a bit more gritty.
I had several things to think about. How to go about this death scene. Should she see him being attacked, and try to stop it from happening? Only to get there too late, and he dies in her arms? Or when she's battling and he takes a blow meant for her, and dies?
But then I read a emotional death scene in an actual novel where the character didn't know the person had died until it was too late. They had to hear it from someone else. I cried so hard!
So I decided to mix all three into the pot! And mix and mix! And mix once more and see what we get! And we all know where that lead, no?
I wanted his confession to be the last thing he said to her. I felt I needed that emotional impact. He never confessed to her, and with his dying breath, he told her. Also, will have emotional impacts later. You'll see what I mean ;)
Anyways! Enough with this overly long authors note! I'll see you all next time!