Day 17 and 19 days til Christmas.
I am so sorry for this one. I have no idea where this idea came from but I had the idea and I wrote it.
Please stay strong guys.
Title: So Strong for So Long
Characters: Merlin, Morgana, Arthur
Paring: Mergana
Word Count: 422
Summary: The years hadn't been kind to Merlin and with the guilt of everything that he had done haunting him, is it any wonder why he would want to rejoin his king? WARNING: Theme of self-harm, alcohol and drug abuse and attempted suicide.
The first time she came back, she had hated him. She remembered everything that happened in her past life. She had remembered how he had left her feeling so alone and lost. She had shouted at him and told him everything that she had felt about him. She had trusted him so much.
But every time she came back, the less she hated him. She always came back with a new name, a new upbringing, only remembering her past life when she reached adulthood. She came to realise that he was always the same man. He had walked the earth for so many years. She could tell that the weight of his destiny was crushing him. He had waited for Arthur for so long and he hadn't come back and Merlin still had faith that he would.
It was in the 21st century that she worried about him most. He had waited for so long. He had started to try find ways to join his king in Avalon. Morgana had tired to get him to see otherwise. Self harming didn't work and soon he had moved on to alcohol and drugs. It was hard to see a man that she though was so strong resort to those ways. This was a man that hid so many secrets and had done so much in Arthur's name.
She was the one to pick him up from the hospital when one night it could have gone so right for him until someone had found him slumped against the wall in some alleyway. She was the one that they allowed him to go home with. She was the one to take him to the counselling session they made him go to. She was the one to hold him at night when he felt like he was going to relapse. She was the one that had to make sure that everything in the flat was safe in case he became inventive with his ways.
And then he had to come back. Morgana watched Merlin as he ran into the lake and hugged the man he had waited all those years for. She knew that he would never tell him of the hurt he went through. She knew that he would never tell him that he had tried to join him. She would know and she would always watch over him. Merlin wasn't strong. Merlin was vulnerable. She just hoped that she would live long enough to comfort him when he left him again.