How to suicide - chapter 2
So I was waiting to get alone..even if it was only for 40 minutes. That was long enough to do what I felt I needed to do...my friend I stayed with is a Muslim and his family would go pray every week...so. I waited until they was all out and I took the rope. There were large hook things coming off the ceiling and they would be perfect for making sure the rope stayed up on the ceiling...so I set everything up and I was ready to die...
I stood on this chair I brought upstairs and I put my head through the noose so that it was around my neck...and I told myself.. "I'm ready"... I kicked the chair and I hear it hit the floor...I felt my body get heavy and I couldn't breath. I was shaking...gasping for air and I could feel my life leaving me and I was across from this large mirror and I saw myself as it was happening and in was turning purple... I knew in was going to die...
I felt my body drop lower and I looked in the mirror and then the hooks on then ceiling were coming out and they broke off and that meant that I fell to the floor and I laid there struggling to breath and I was cold...I couldn't move...it was then I heard the front door to the house open and it was my friend and his family...he came upstairs to go to his room and I was laid on the floor with a noose around my neck...so he pulled me up and called his parents so they came to see what had happened and he asked me..." Why would you do something like this to yourself Tony?"...and I just said.."you told me to be happy"...
Then they took the rope off of me and took the chair back to the kitchen and my friend. Parash. Took me into the room I was staying in and I was laid on my bed and I couldn't remember saying anything else that day...I just stayed in my room thinking. "Why did that go wrong?"...