How to suicide - chapter 3
So after I tried hanging myself I didn't try that again for 2 years...so I'll talk about other things in my life for a bit...
So I mentioned that I got kicked out at 16..I was going to collage then and I did plumbing mainly because in was to dumb for anything else but yeah. I stayed in collage for a year then I had learned a lot and I dropped out of collage and didn't go back so I just started working. Not for a company or anything. I worked for myself. I set my own pay and work hours and I made a lot of money...while I was doing this I was still with my friend and he was cool with it...his family told me I should have stayed in college but I didn't wanna so I didn't... And I was making money and when I had enough I bought a little house just big enough for me... And when I left my friends house to live alone I brought my dog too..they let me keep my dog at their house...
Unfortunately my little dog died earlier this year...so that hurt really bad...if it wasn't for my girlfriend I wouldn't be alive now to be honest with you all...
So I only dropped out of collage and made a life for myself because I was tired of being no one...so I still live alone now...my girlfriend lives 3000 miles away but I'll be with her soon...nothing is gonna stop me. She needs me just as much as I need her..
My friend Parash. He joined the British forces and I never heard from him again. Sometime in wonder if he's alive and been looking for me...maybe he's dead. I'll never know. And honestly I'd rather not know...he may be !y friend but we both have our own lives now. So I'll let him get along with his so I can get on with mine...
So I was around the age of 19 when I tried to hang myself for the second time...I just got tired of life and of being alone...at that time I only had my dog...and don't get me wrong. I love my dog even though she is dead now. And I think about her all the time. But if I died shed have been OK without me...so I decided to try take my life for a second time to escape my crap life...