How to suicides story

by How to suicide

...yeah. You reading this to find out what my story is about...well. It ain't no gay ass fan fiction... That's for sure. Also. If you wanna know what my story is about...I got a solution for you...shut the fuck up and read it...and if you don't like it I got another solution for you...fuck off and don't read it...either way I don't give a fuck...you fucker

5. Chapter 5

How to suicide - chapter 5
So back to my main story...I was gonna kill myself again. And it took me a long time to figure out how...I decided that sleeping pills would be the best choice as they'd make me go to sleep and if I took enough I wouldn't wake up...

So I didn't take them with alcohol but maybe a glass of Scotch would have been good to take with them...instead I took them with water like a moron...but oh well. I don't give a fuck now...and I bough a box of cheap ones with like 30 in it...or maybe 15..I can't remember to well...but anyway I took like half of the box and decoded that would be enough to kill me...

It wasn't enough... I went to sleep on the floor...I just kinda.. Passed out and hit the floor while waiting for them to work...and the last thing I remember that day was the news on the TV...it was the weather woman..talking about how it was gonna rain..I love the rain...anyway...I didn't die...I woke up...I'll be real...sometimes I think that was the closest I've came to killing myself and sometimes I wish I'd never woke up...

And when I woke up I was in a hospital bed...I have no idea how I got there but i did...and the nurse came over to me and I said..."why the fuck didn't you let me die woman"...she said back to me..."I didn't keep you alive...technically you should have died but its a miracle you're even alive.."...I had all these tubes in my arms and I was hooked up to a heart rate monitor... I remember it saying my heart rate was 93 beats per minute...and I needed those IV things out of my hand...so I got them taken out...so yeah...for the third time I didn't fucking die...

I knew I should have taken more...and I should have drank at least a beer with them but I didn't...so I didn't die...it wasn't a miracle that kept me alive...it was me being a stupid cunt and not killing myself properly that kept me alive...but yeah...that happened..

I'll tell you about the fourth time in another chapter... This chapter has been the hardest to write about...but fuck that shit...I wrote it so yeah...I'll put up another chapter soon fuckers...