Hello Loves! Thank you for being so patient with me, I has been so busy, but here is chapter 6. I hope you enjoy and remember to tell me what you think because I love to read what you have to say!

It wasn't my first time on a plane, the first time was the Trip to Mauritius just a couple of months ago, but stepping on that plane scared the crap out of me. As I stepped on all I could think about was the way I felt coming home for that amazing trip to the beach. Will sitting across from me and Nathan to the right. I wanted nothing to do with the both of them, but at the same time I didn't want that flight to ever end. I knew that as soon as we got off the plane I would most likely never see Will again. The thoughts and feeling of never seeing him again took my breath away, I didn't want to have even the slightest thought of losing him again.

We had a private jet that Will had arranged for us to fly in. Treen who had been absolutely nowhere other than University and our parents house acted like she had been doing it her whole life like Georgina. I on the other hand was freaking out. I didn't think that I would feel the way I did but seeing the plane and having the memories rush back did not sit well with me. Georgina and Treen must have noticed the way I was feeling because both of them stopped and called me out of the daze I as in.

¨Lou come on we want to get Paris in a decent time!¨ Treen said patting my back.

¨I can't.¨ I said trying to hide the tears forming at my eyes.

¨What!¨ Both of them said simultaneously.

¨I just can't leave Will¨

¨Lou, Will will be fine Nathan is with him and will not let anything happen to him.¨

¨But I need to Treen and Georgie¨

¨Lou I will call Will and he will tell you that he will be fine.¨

Minutes later Treen handed me the phone and Will on on the other side.

¨Lou what is your problem?¨

¨I can´t¨

¨You can't what?¨

¨I can't step onto the plane.¨

¨Why?¨

¨Because the last time I was on a plane all I could think about was the fact that you were going to kill yourself and I would never see you again.¨

There was silence on the phone for longer than Lou was comfortable with

¨Will¨

¨Lou I will never leave you.¨ He said unable to hide the tears from coming.

¨I know, but I have flashbacks and dreams that i'm not good enough, that you will change your mind and go back to Switzerland. I can't do this Will. I can't always have that constant fear of losing you.¨ I told him letting the tears flow.

¨Louisa, Listen to me. Yes this life is hard, yes there are days that I don't want to go on anymore, but I will never leave you. You have showed me that there is so much to life for, you have showed me that me and you were meant to be together forever. I Love You Louisa Clark.¨

All I could manage to get out was a small, muffled ¨I love you too¨

¨Lou, get on that plane and change those memories, make them, make them amazing. Have in your mind that after you get home from this trip to Paris you have always wanted to take, I will be waiting for you at the airpot to hear all about it.¨

¨You promise¨

¨I promise, now go have fun with your sister and mine.¨

¨I love you Will.¨

¨I love you too.¨

There was then a click of the phone and silence. I picked up my carry on bag and walked on to the plane. I still wasn't 100% okay with being on the plane, but I definitely felt better. The flight was not long and taking the whole way took my mind off of all the fears I had.

When we landed the weather was absolutely incredible. It was as if I stepped right into my favorite movie. It was lunchtime and we all knew it, our stomachs were all growling and needing something to fill them. Georgina new exactly the place to go, a little cafe right by the hotel.

We ate and then we all passed out from exhaustion from the morning we had had.

The next day after we all had rested and were ready to hit the city both Georgina and Treen had told me that Will had planned for me to go to a little cafe by the Eiffel Tower. I was to read a letter he had sent with Georgie and sit in one of the chairs that never sat quite right on the sidewalk.

I walked to the cafe and sat down, I ordered a coffee and croissant with unsalted butter just like the letter had told me to do. I then opened the letter.

Clark.

A few weeks should have passed by the time you read this. If you follow the instructions, you'll be in Paris on one of those chairs that never sit quite level on a pavement. I hope it's still sunny. Across the bridge to your right, you'll see L'artisan Parfumeur. You should try the scent called Papillon extrem. I always did think it would smell great on you. There are few things I wanted to say and couldn't because you would've gotten emotional and you wouldn't have let me finish. So, here it is. When you get back home, Michael Lawler will give you access to a bank account that contains enough to give you a new beginning. Don't start panicking. It's not enough for you to sit around for the rest of your life but it should buy you your freedom, at least from that little town we both call home. Live boldly, Clark. Push yourself. Don't settle. Wear those stripy legs with pride. Knowing you still have possibilities is a luxury, knowing I might have given them to you. This eased something for me. So, this is it. You are scored on my heart, Clark. You have been the first day you walked in with your sweet smile and your ridiculous clothes and your bad jokes and your complete inability to ever hide a single thing you felt. Don't think of me too often. I don't want you getting sad. Just live well. Just live. I'll be walking beside you every step of the way.

Love, Will.

I felt a single tear fall on my lap small but it was there. There were so many different emotions running through my head, some I couldn't even explain, But the one emotion I felt that surprised me the most was joy. I knew that letter was supposed to be read after his death and that letter was supposed to be the last thing he gave me, but it wasn't. That letter was the start of our life together, alive and happy.

Our days in Paris came to an end and just as Will had said before we left I didn't want to leave. Everything in that city was magical and full possibilities. I knew exactly why Paris was Will favorite place because it slowly became mine.

Just as Will had promised he and Nathan were waiting for us at the airport. Will had more color and looked a lot stronger than before I had left him. ¨Why hello Clark.¨ he said with a little smile as I jumped on his lap to kiss him.

We made it home to the annex about an hour later with me talking the whole way home of all of the incredible things we had tasted and seen. ¨So I take it you had fun?¨ he asked already knowing the answer.

It was getting late and Nathan had put Will in bed while I was getting ready in the bathroom. I came out in one of Will´s shirts, which after moving in with him had found that guys shirts were ten times more comfortable, and underwear. I crawled in bed next to Will and placed my head on his shoulder and intertwined my finger with his.

It had only been a couple of weeks without the touch of Will, but it felt like a lifetime and I savored every moment I had with him. His breathing had steadied which told me he had fallen asleep. My eyes felt heavy and before drifting of I head a very quiet ¨I love Clark.¨