So sorry for the delay in updating this story, I've been a little MIA lately, and when I returned I started working on a Law and Order SVU Rolivia story, feel free to read it if you're into SVU. It's pretty dark but I love the idea of the ship ;) anyway, on with this story...
Arizona's POV
I hold Amelia tightly. I hold her whilst she cries her heart out. As if I was going to let my girlfriend just break up with me when she's so obviously not dealing with her brothers death. If she was breaking up with me for the right reasons, I'd have let her go, but not for this reason. Not because she is struggling like she is. Not when she's tearing herself open just to feel.
My hand rubs up and down Amelia's back, gently soothing her to stop crying whilst I hold her. Crouching down in this position hurts my leg, but for her, I'd do it forever.
"Shhhhh." I soothe. Amelia clinging to my jacket, only moving to adjust her grip and get closer to me.
Eventually Amelia's sobs subside and the pain in my leg, becoming far too much, I ease us both to stand. Never once loosening my grip on the brunette in my arms.
"Let's get you home." I tell her as I try to manoeuvre us towards my car. Amelia stops abruptly as if she's suddenly realising something.
"I don't have a home Arizona, we broke up." She tells me, a fresh wave of tears beginning to well up in her eyes.
"Amelia Shepherd, if you think I'm going to let you leave me when you're in this state, you are stupid!" I tell her, trying to keep my voice light and a little playful. It seems to work, because Amelia resigns herself to continuing towards my car.
"Sorry I tried to break up with you." She says quietly as I help her into the passenger seat.
"It's ok. I know how you are feeling right now, try to remember that." I tell her, closing the door then moving around the car to the drivers side. Before climbing in, I pull out my phone and send a quick message to Alex.
AR: Is it ok for you to keep Sof at yours for tonight please? X
I know Alex will understand, and he loves Sofia like a sister. Plus with Meredith being completely missing in action lately, he is missing the kids so will enjoy the time with my little terror.
Climbing into the car, I turn the heat straight up. Whilst it's not extremely cold at the moment, Amelia is shaking and it's a little on the fresh side.
My phone vibrates in my jacket pocket, so I quickly check it before heading home, I case for any reason Alex can't have Sofia tonight.
AK: Of course I can. I love this little girl. I'll drop her home in the morning
"Alex is taking Sofia for tonight, so we can just relax." I tell Amelia who has been staring out of the window absent mindedly since I settled her in the car.
"Mmmm Ok." She finally responds.
The drive home is quiet. Nothing being said between either of us. I find myself wondering if I'm doing the right thing here. Is this what's actually best for Amelia or am I just prolonging the inevitable. I hope I can help her through this, but I don't know if it will ever be enough. I doubt myself, I shouldn't, I've been where she is. The overwhelming grief, the feeling of being lost, I've felt it all, but never with an addiction or two to handle at the same time. I need to hold it together for her, she needs me to be strong right now, and that's what I will do.
We arrive home and I climb out of the car, moving around to help Amelia out as well. The last few weeks finally beginning to take its toll on her body as her legs shake. I wrap my arm tightly around her waist, keeping her in a standing position as we make our way up the few steps to the front door.
Once we are inside I help the brunette to the couch and take my jacket off, throwing it over the back of the cushions. I quickly go to grab some water before coming back to the living room.
"You need to get rid of these." Amelia tells me, holding up the bag of oxy that I had forgotten that I'd put in my jacket pocket. I swallow roughly, annoyed at myself for not remembering the toll addiction takes on a person.
"I'll do it now." I tell her, moving around the couch and placing the two bottles of water on the table. I outstretch my hand, silently begging Amelia to place the tablets in my palm.
She begins to move her hand towards mine, before pulling back. Her grip tightening around the little baggie. I crouch down in front of her, moving her eyes to meet mine. Anything to take her mind off of those little white pills right now.
"Amelia, give me the pills, please?" I beg her.
"I can't." She tells me. Hurt instantly washing over me. Hurt and stupidity. I should never have forgotten about them. I should never have left them within her reach.
"Please." I beg again, my own eyes starting to well with unshed tears. I can't be the reason she falls back down this rabbit hole. And if she takes them now, it will be my fault. I'd gotten them off of her, I just hadn't been smart enough in keeping them away.
"Please." One more time I try before, suddenly I find the pills in my hand and Amelia's hands in my hair, pulling me towards her.
Our lips crash together in a frantic kiss. It takes me a couple of seconds to catch up before I realise Amelia is kissing me. I kiss her back, pouring everything I have into it. Our lips moving together, Amelia's hands holding me in place. Her tongue traces along my bottom lip hungrily, begging for entrance which I automatically, without hesitation, give her. Amelia's tongue finding its way around my mouth urgently. Eventually we need to break apart, air is a requirement. My forehead resting against the brunette's sitting in front of me as my chest heaves.
When I can finally speak again, I stand to get rid of the pills in my hand. Amelia suddenly stops me, handing me two that she had removed from the baggie and was holding in her hand. I nod at her, half smiling at her before leaving the room to flush the oxy.
Upon my return to the living room, Amelia has led herself down on the couch, her body shaking uncontrollably again. I slip myself behind her and pull her into me closely. My arms tightly around her body as I soothe her much like I had at the dream house, whispering sweet nothings into her ear as I ghost my hand up and down the side of her ribs.
It's going to be a long few days, but she's worth it, and I'll help her anyway I can.
Again, I'm sorry for the delay in the update. It's a little shorter than I intended, but I feel like that's a good place to stop for now. Hit review please. Thanks x