Again, sorry for the neglect of this story. I've seriously switched sides in shipville lately and am just loving SVU far too much. I'll try to do better though.
Amelia's POV
Arizona climbs awkwardly behind me on the couch, wrapping her arms around me tightly and holding me like her life depends on it. I can't believe I almost lost this, almost gave this love, this support up. For what? So I could get out of my mind high and forget all the pain I was feeling. Yeah genius idea right there Shepherd. I relax into my girlfriends embrace, my body eventually stopping it's involuntary shaking, if I didn't know any better, I would think I'm detoxing with the uncontrollable shaking. But I'm not, I'm not because when I needed her most, Arizona showed up. Even after everything I put her through today and the last few weeks, she showed up, she saved me from myself, again.
Turning in Arizona's arms, I position myself facing her. My head nestled into her chest, her strong arms holding me like her life depends on it, like my life depends on it. In this moment, it probably does. I'd do anything to stop the pain I'm feeling right now, the pain of losing my brother, but what can you do to stop that pain? Nothing. But Arizona, she gets it, she's lost her brother, she knows the pain I'm feeling.
"Amelia." Arizona says softly, her voice full of concern as I like my head to meet her gaze.
"Yeah?" I ask her.
"You will get through this. I'll be here, every step of the way with you. No matter how many times you try to leave." She tells me, her eyes conveying nothing but love.
I lie in silence just looking deeply into the blue orbs in front of me. Arizona looking right back at me. Wondering to myself just why or how I had even come to contemplate giving this love up, I never look away, needing to feel the love in her eyes, the warmth. I guess it was the self destruction in me, not wanting to bring the woman I love down with me. Maybe that was it. Maybe it was just pure stupidity.
"Arizona. Marry me?" I ask her softly, my voice barely audible as the words leave my throat before I have even had time to contemplate the enormity of what I was about to say. But now, they're out there and it's too late, I can't take them back, I don't even want to take them back.
"Come again?" Arizona asks, either needing clarification of what I just said or having not heard me. I take a deep breath, thinking for a second or two.
"Marry me?" I say more firmly than before, knowing this time that it is one hundred percent what I want.
Arizona regards me for a few seconds, minutes even. Her expression completely illegible, but I can see she is thinking about what I have just asked, weighing up the pros and cons. It's one of the things I love about her, she nearly always thinks things through, whatever the situation.
"Is it what you want?" Arizona asks me, her teeth worrying her bottom lip.
"Yes." I tell her without hesitation.
"Ok." Arizona says after a few moments of quiet, a smile spreading across her face. Her dimples popping like I've never seen.
"Ok?" I question, needing her to say the words.
"Yes, Amy, I'll marry you." She finally says, a smile beaming from my own face.
"Really?" I ask.
"Yes really. Why wouldn't I?" She asks, her brows furrowed.
"Well I'm a little fucked up." I tell her with a sarcastic chuckle.
"You, Amelia Shepherd, are one of the strongest people I know. There is not one part of you that's 'fucked up' as you put it." She tells me sincerely.
Leaning up to Arizona, I kiss her slowly. My lips barely meeting with hers before I pull back, admiring my fiancée with more affection and love than I ever have.
"I've missed you." I tell her, earning a hum of agreement from Arizona as her nose brushes against mine.
We lie in silence once more, happy to just be in each other's arms. It's been too long since I've been here, safely surrounded by her embrace. I know that's no ones fault but my own, but I've missed it. My fingertips trailing along her side, appreciating her curves as I enjoy her warmth, her love.
Without saying a word, I extricate myself from Arizona's arms and stand beside the sofa, holding out my hand to her. I can see the confusion gracing her features, but she takes my hand, trusting me anyway, as I help her stand beside me.
Noiselessly I guide her from the living room, up the stairs and to the bathroom. I still don't say a word as I drop Arizona's hand and move to start the shower, checking the temperature of the water. Once I'm happy, I turn to face the blonde, watching her intently as the light bulb seems to turn on inside her head and her expression changes from one of concern, to love, to desire in a short second.
Sliding my leather jacket from my shoulders, I seductively wiggle my hips as I cross the room towards her, my jacket dangling from a single finger, smirking as I move. Just before I reach Arizona, I launch my jacket onto the counter to the side of her, bringing my now free hands to the hem of my top. I whip it over my head on a single, swift movement, dropping it to the floor as I take the last step to the blonde. My hands instinctively landing on her hips.
Face to face, I notice the extremely dark blue hue of Arizona's eyes, boring into my own orbs. Slowly I lean in and kiss her. I kiss her with more ferocity than I did on the couch, but still keep it slow. Firm but slow. The kiss earns me a whimper from my fiancée which causes me to smile into her lips.
Moving my hands slightly, I take hold of the bottom of Arizona's top and break our kiss just long enough to disagree of the annoying garment. The skin of my abdomen coming into contact with hers. The contact itself causing a wetness to begin gathering at the apex of my thighs. Moving my mouth from her lips, I kiss my way across her jawline, taking her earlobe into my mouth with a soft suck. Arizona whimpering at the illicit actions.
Continuing the movements of my mouth along the perfect skin in front of me, I suck and nibble my way down Arizona's neck, meeting the crease between her neck and shoulder. I like the soft milky skin over her neck, up to her jaw. Suddenly Arizona's hands are in my hair, pulling my head back and guiding my mouth back to hers. My antics clearly making her crazy with want.
The force of Arizona's kiss causes me to gasp with surprise, my mouth instantly parting to allow the noise to escape. Arizona taking the opportunity to insert her tongue into my mouth, an intrusion I freely welcome. The muscles battling playfully for control, but I already know Arizona has it. She always does and that suits me just fine. Most of the time.
Lowering my hands, I pop the buttons of my fiancée's jeans, sliding my hands inside the clingy material and around to her backside to ease them down. Our lips still locked in the most intense kiss I have ever experienced. Arizona steps out of her jeans, my hands on her hips supporting her, her hands still holding my mouth to hers.
Eventually I have to break our kiss. Air becoming a necessity. Both of our chest heaving. I unbutton my own jeans, and remove them, my eyes never leaving Arizona's perfect body as I do.
"Seriously do you ever wear panties Amelia?" Arizona asks through heavy breaths and a chuckle.
"Are you complaining?" I ask her with a smirk, knowing the number of times Arizona has been pleased to find the lack of underwear.
"Not at all." Arizona fires back with a smirk of her own.
Quickly, we rid each other of the last couple of items of clothing and I help Arizona sit down to help her remove her prosthetic. She used to be so hung up on it, but now it's normal, and she trusts me to hold her, support her if, for any reason we happen to find ourselves naked and having sex stood up.
With the limb removed, I help Arizona stand up, her arms going to my neck as my hands travel down to her sides to her thighs. I lock eyes with her momentarily, and she nods at me, signalling she knows my plan and it's ok. Firmly I hold her legs and lift her, her thighs wrapping tightly around my hips. Moaning as her core comes into contact with my stomach.
"Mmmm, you're soaking." I say in her ear feeling her wetness coating my abdomen, as she moans again.
Bracing myself against the wall, I carefully step over the edge of the tub and guide us both under the hot spray of the shower. Arizona's back pressed firmly to the tiles, her body trapped between me and the wall. With new renewed intensity, our mouths meet, my right hand palming Arizona's left breast as my left hand supports us both against the cool tiles.
Arizona breaks our kiss this time, her head leaning back against the tiles, our eyes locked onto each other's.
"Amy, I need." Arizona gasps, her hips grinding into my stomach.
"What? You need what Arizona?" I ask, needing her to say the words. Arizona whimpers at my question, a slightly evil grin forming on my lips.
"Inside." She simply says.
Of course I comply, my right hand trailing down the tiny gap between us, my fingers sliding between the slick folds. The wetness causing me to match an equally loud moan from Arizona. Without hesitation I slide, one, two then three fingers into Arizona's seeping core. Her mouth forming the most beautiful little oh as she gets just what she needs, just want she wants. Accepting everything I'm giving her.
My eyes never leaving hers, I slowly pump my fingers into the heat of her entrance. Watching her every reaction to my ministrations. Arizona's eyes becoming heavy and hooded at the feelings I am awakening from deep within her. It's not long before I begging to feel the familiar fluttering of her walls around my fingers.
"Arizona, open your eyes." I tell her. Continuing my steady thrusts. Moans spilling freely from her throat. Arizona complies, her gaze meeting mine as my hand shifts slightly. Allowing me access to her engorged bundle of nerves.
"Don't, please, don't stop." Arizona gasps, and I have no intention of stopping.
With every thrust my thumb supplies the slightest amount of pressure to her throbbing clit. Her walls clamping around my finger. A tiny whimper escapes her lips, followed by the sexiest sound I have ever heard, the most guttural moan leaving her mouth as her legs begin to shake uncontrollably around me. Her chest heaving, her breathing almost nonexistent, as her orgasm fully takes over her body. With one final thrust and swipe Arizona finally lets go.
"Ammmmmmy." Arizona almost says somewhere between a moan and a scream.
Instinctively I step forward, trapping my now unmoving hand between us and supporting Arizona more firmly against the tiles as her body completely loses control.
I place soft kisses along her shoulders, carefully easing my hand free of the vice grip between Arizona's legs to brush her hair from her face. Her body still shaking against mine.
"You Ok?" I eventually ask, after long minutes of watching Arizona begin to return to earth, feeling pretty pleased with myself.
"Mmmm." Arizona responds her eyes on mine, kissing me softly.
"Come on, let's get you clean and then we can cuddle up in bed." I say softly, giving her another kiss before finally helping her get washed.
Ok, I hope you enjoyed that... I'm going for a cigarette in the snow! Hit review ;) x