My hands are not my hands

My voice is not my own

My lip never was my lip

But this blood is all mine.

The spoon sedated my fears and insecurities

It's tender metallic surface gleaning

And involuntarily shaking

As I lapped up alllll the yogurt.

I could use a cartwheel.

I don't want to sleep

I'm afraid of dying

as my back and forehead sweat in agony

My eyes don't open anymore

A steady beeping

A flickering fills the air around me

I told my brother I'll be back soon

If I stop

I'm writing with my eyes closed now.

My heart rumbles like a cannon shot

My only regret is how I never knew you better

Mr. Cobain.

We had such fun nights with Mr. Yorke

and Mr. Coyne

Just laughing

And taking turns rolling Thom's glass eye across the floor.

Spring training.

I'm laughing on my bed outside

Catching glances of the summer

Coiled and contemptuous

They go on their lives not caring

Who lives.

Who dies.

Three girls climbed into my window

They smelled of grass and

polyurethane

The children died 6 years ago

The Johnny Carsons of this life

And

GET OFF MY HAND ASSHOLE

PASS ME THE FOOTBALL

Percodin.

Codin.

Coding.

I just turned the page

And I'll be damned if I do it again

"oh Fuck!"

If Dan went white-face ghetto

And wore beatnick clothes

It'd be

AMAZING

The incisor broke my fall

Sorry.

No pork and beans today.

Craiggg

Help my head

Chalk these mint leaves up to fate.

Because GOD DAMN are they good.

I'm reading your expression

On an empty pizza box.

You don't seem too pleased.

I fear

This ice in my tray made me soak my bed

Honest!

Flounder had a mohawk

I don't give a shit what you say.

His sexy mohawk was badass.

His stubble made Sebastian jealous

A bed of ice is better than a bed of coals

Or a bed of cars

Or a bed of rice

But that would feel really, really good.

Take a guitar solo

Now a bass solo

Now a keyboard solo

Now a harmonica solo

Now beatbox, no go?

Maybe the former

The TRANSFORMER of course. I hope I live to see that one day.

Yes.