FLASHBACK

"I'm sorry Amy, it's just not the same. Honestly, I haven't loved you for a long time. I've been sleeping with AJ for like 5 months now, that's the real reason I haven't come and visited. We've been going to Chicago on our days off." Phil Brooks, my boyfriend of 5 years sighed on the other side of the phone, my heart shattering as a sob left my lips. "I just don't want you anymore. I need to go. Goodbye Amy." He stated before the end tone sounded, I threw my phone and watched as it crashed into the TV screen, both things breaking with the force of my throw.

END FLASHBACK

That was a little over four days ago, I had immediately gone out and bought as many bottles of liquor as I could, as well as quite a few packs of cigarettes, lying to the cashier and telling him it was for a wedding. Just so they would let me buy as many as I did. As soon as I finished one bottle I would throw it away and watch it crash to the ground usually breaking other things in the process. I still had yet to see if my phone worked, it was still lying where it fell after it hit the TV, the screen shattered, sometimes I can still hear it go off with notifications but I ignore them in favor of continuing to drink and smoke my sorrows away.

I was kneeling in front of the toilet purging the alcohol in my stomach when I heard the front door open, the familiar voice of my best friend John Cena calling my name, and the crunching of glass and other debris from my rampage that had now made way for the tears and the screaming and vomiting. "Amy, honey where are you?" he called, he was getting closer just as another wave of nausea hit me and I had to hang my head over the toilet and let it go, feeling his hand rub my back as I dry heaved through it. "Amy, honey what happened?" he asked sweetly wetting a rag and using it to wipe away the vomit, sweat, tears and makeup covering my face. "Phil broke up with me." I whimpered hanging my head back as a new wave of tears streamed down my cheeks "Why?! You guys were so happy?" he was just as shocked as I had been if not more "Ever since I've been out on injury he hasn't been busy like he told me, he's been going back to Chicago with AJ instead of coming here" I whispered looking at him, seeing the heartache and sadness I felt written all over his face. "Let's get you cleaned up and in bed, you look like you haven't ate or slept in days" he sighed, cringing as an empty sounding laugh left my lips "four days." I shrugged letting him pick up my weak, dehydrated and malnutrition body and carry me into the kitchen where he sat me next to the sink in case I had to throw up again. "I'm going to make you some food baby, and then we'll get you showered and in bed." He whispered brushing hair from my face before he set about making some noodles with butter. "Eat up baby girl." He smiled slightly passing me a bowl and waiting for me to start eating before he started.

"Come on honey, shower time" he smiled a little brighter now that I had eaten and kept it down for over a half hour. "Carry me" I asked softly holding my arms out to him "Anything for you babe" he nodded picking me up and carrying me upstairs to my bedroom and straight into the bathroom. He sat me down long enough to grab me clean undergarments, start the shower and strip both of us before he picked me up and walked into the large shower. I felt him slide to the floor before I opened my eyes to see his bright blue ones staring back at me with so much love and adoration it made tears streak down my face. "I'm sorry Johnny" I cried maneuvering so I could wrap myself around him, my sobs shaking my body as he rubbed my back and whispered soothing words. "You have nothing to be sorry about baby. I promise" he whispered pressing his lips to my head as the water rained down around us. "You're hurting because of me" I pointed out quietly looking up at him sadly "No, baby I'm hurting because you're hurting. I love you Amy, I always have and it kills me to see the condition you've been in for four days because of Phil." He explained "I want to kill Phil, slowly for what he put you through after 5 years. I swear to you Amy I will get him in a match and I will destroy him" he vowed his hands coming up to cage my face as he stared me right in the eyes, his member twitching between us breaking our stare as he blushed "I'm so sorry, Amy I" he apologized but I cut him off by scooting closer and pressing a finger to his lips. "Don't. At least I know someone still wants me, even if it is just because I'm naked" I shrugged pressing my lips to the corner of his mouth before I buried my head in his neck. "It's not just because you're naked Amy. You're a great girl, I just wish Phil would have realized that." He sighed before standing up and shutting the water off with one hand.

"I gotta set you down babe, just long enough to dry off and get dressed." He whispered sitting me on the counter as he dried off and slipped his boxers up his legs. "Johnny, will you make love to me?" I asked softly not ready for him to look up at me the way he did "You don't have to. Never mind that was stupid to ask" I shook my head quickly dropping my head back so I was looking at the ceiling and not the blonde in front of me. "Is it really what you want?" he asked quietly making me jump when his hands came to rest on my thighs. Biting my lip I looked back at him and nodded, not only had it been a long time since I've had sex being this close to John was causing feelings to stir that I thought had been long gone from my relationship with Phil. "Please" I whispered scooting closer and wrapping my arms around his neck as he pushed his boxers back down his legs. "Anything for you baby girl" he nodded pulling me flush against him and pressing our lips together as his fingers danced between my legs finding me already wet and waiting. "Did I do this to you baby?" he whispered against my lips a smirk on his own lips as I slightly nodded whimpering when he slid a single finger inside of me, pumping it a few times before he added two more. "You're so tight Shorty" he whispered lacing his free hand through my hair and pulling my head back so he could watch as he pleasured me with his fingers, my mouth falling open as I panted, my climax getting closer and closer until he removed his fingers and with a dark grin stuck them in his mouth. His eyes closed as he groaned low in his throat, the image he made sending a spike of heat to my thighs making me more turned on than I had already been.

"You taste so good baby" he complimented pulling his fingers from his mouth and picking me up, carrying me from the bathroom to the bed. "I want to do this the right way, the way I should have done it with you the first time" he explained referencing when I gave him my virginity, we were both drunk at a collage party but it was still good so I could only imagine how it would feel now. "I love you Amy." He whispered bracing himself over me as I looped my arms around his neck and gave him a bright, glittering smile "I love you too John" I returned just as quietly my breath breaking off into a loud mewl of pleasure as he slid home, a groan leaving his own mouth as his head dropped into my neck, both of us needing a moment before we continued to get our feelings and bodies under control. I don't think I'll be wasting any more tears over Phil anymore, not as long as I have John by my side and supporting me.