YOU AND ME - Chapter 4
Lunch was a blast. I hadn't felt that happy in weeks. It was nice to finally be able to properly catch up with Alex. He told me everything that went down with him and Izzy and once again I couldn't help but feel guilty for not realising that he was in pain too and I knew Alex could sense it as well. "Mere, you have to stop guilt tripping yourself like this. It isn't your fault that you didn't know what was going on with me, your world just got tipped upside down for awhile. So please, stop acting if what happened with me and Izzy was your fault, because it wasn't." His last line was almost like a plea and I knew I couldn't keep on going how I was, so I promised him I wouldn't. "I know Alex, so I promise you that I won't anymore." His face lit up with a small smile at what I had said. "Now come on, let's finish with all the serious talks and head back to the hotel we have 30 minutes before we have to head to work." He said holding up his phone to show me that it was already one-thirty p.m, before he started the small walk back to the hotel.
Looking up to the sign hanging above the doors, was a terrifying experience. I've only ever really been to one hospital in my life. Seattle Grace. Even though my uncle works here I never really came here. I was to caught up in being a rebellious teenager, rather than visiting my uncles work whenever I came for a visit. Turning, so I was facing Alex, I could tell he was a tiny bit nervous as well, although he was better at hiding it than I was. "We've got this." And like a mantra, he told me, "we've got this."
When I was a little girl and would go to the hospital with my mum or my dad, I would sit in the waiting area and soak up the atmosphere of the hospital. It was my heaven. The bustling people, the smell of the freshly sterilized rooms, the sound of someone speaking over an intercom. It all felt like a second home to me and standing on the side of the waiting room at this hospital I felt exactly how I did when I was a child. Safe.