Yay! chapter 2! so, i know people are reading it, and it would be really great to give me feedback!

Enjoy another emotional venture into Bella's mind!

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or New Moon -- Steph. Meyere does!

Chapter 2:

The next morning I awoke to a muted light coming from my window. There was a frost that coated the glass making it difficult for the light to pass through. It was late in the day, nearly 11:00 already. Sleep was a great way to pass time; void of consciousness where my mind did not have to analyze the horrors of my past.

Rolling out of bed, I grabbed a towel and my bag of toiletries and got into the shower. Even though it was the weekend, Charlie worked everyday; a ritual that had begun after my life was turned upside down. My lack of emotional and verbal capabilities was hard for anyone to be around me. After a long steamy shower I dried off and put on a pair of baggy grey sweat pants and a black hoodie.

So many times I remembered staying the night at his house, and waking up cold. He would have gone to his closet and grabbed one of his old hoodies and slipped it on me. How I longed for his scent to still linger on my clothes, for him to wake up next to me and tell me he loved me. After changing I looked again out the window. Winter held such a piece I felt I had to take a bite out of. I had never been athletic, but this morning I felt a craving to just run all my fears, frustrations, and regrets away. I dug threw my closet and pulled out a pair of running shoes I had been forced to purchase for that godforsaken class called gym.

I grabbed a pair of gloves from the front door and went to check the note on the kitchen table Charlie had undoubtedly left.

Bella,

I'm at work. I'll be home late tonight. I'm sure you can make something for yourself for dinner. Don't worry about staying up or anything.

Love you,

Dad

I left the note on the table and then returned to the front door. When the door opened, my eyes were shocked at the complete transformation the green rainy town of Forks had taken. No longer were the roads wet with fresh dew, but a light frost. Snow covered the trees that framed the road and houses. It was magical. Forks had become my own winter wonderland. The sidewalks had been cleared since the snow had fallen the pervious night.

I locked the front door before taking off. Breath fogged out of my mouth as my heart started to hammer against my chest. I decided to keep it close to home in case I royally hurt myself on ice or some other tripping mechanism. I went a few blocks east of the house, a couple more south, then the same amount west and north till I reappeared at my home. The whole way, my mind felt clear and at ease. The winter peace brought by the newly fallen snow and empty streets made it seem as though time had stopped. No problems plagued my existence. Everything just was. It just existed…

All my jitters and tension was gone. My heart and lungs were begging to stop after not being used so intensely in the longest time. I unlocked the door and hung up my mittens and took off my shoes. I made my way to the kitchen rubbing my nearly frozen nose. As I made myself some hot chocolate I looked at the clock above the oven. I had run for nearly an hour! I reheated some Chinese food from the night before and took it with me to watch the news. It comforted me to know that everyone wasn't happy; that some people were just as broken and suffering as I was.

Charlie still wasn't home by seven so I made a frozen pizza, and went to bed soon after. Again, what had been my hopes and dreams of Christmas resurfaced in my mind; I let a few tears pass my closed eyelids before I fought hard enough to push them away. All these hopes wouldn't change anything, so there was no reason in which to dwell on them. It would never happen. I fell asleep troubled, unable to find a comfortable position.

It's so much harder to fall asleep without him, my mind taunted. Finally sleep came to me which I gladly welcomed.

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