Chapter: 5 References

Hermione did not see the boys the whole day, so when dinner came by she couldn't wait to see them. She rushed to the great hall not paying much attention to where she was going and ran head first into a solid object which was weird because she didn't remember any objects this way.

She looked up at what she ran into and saw steely grey eyes looking at her with an annoyed look.

''You need to stop running into me and be more aware of your surroundings granger ''his words sounded hush as he just said them and walked away.

She wondered where he was going. Had he already had dinner? Because he was walking the opposite direction from the great hall. But decided she wasn't going to let her mind be overrun with thoughts of him. She opened the doors to the great hall and immediately spotted Ron and Harry, she made her way and sat down opposite them, it looked like they were in a heated discussion.

''what are you two talking about? 'She didn't like being left out, even though she knew that she didn't need to know everything they talked about.

'' While we spied on Malfoy on his little date and man that ferret is heartless '' answered Ron as Harry nodded his head in agreement

''okay so what did he do this time? 'Asked Hermione a little too curiously.

''While ….'' Ron started but Harry beat him to it as he started to recount the events.

'' while we followed Malfoy and the black haired Greengrass girl out to the quidditch pitch…and ''

''her name is Astoria Harry not the black haired Greengrass girl , Hermione clarified she felt like Astoria was a good girl and needed to be treated as such.''

''yes her 'Harry continued'' they were just walking not talking it was a bit awkward if you ask me but Malfoy seemed not to notice.''

''more like not care''

''Let me finish '' harry looked at Ron like his interrupting a very important briefing.

'' so like I was saying they were a bit awkward ,then she brought about the issue about is wand and after a few awkward replies he shot her down , then she kisses him and then he tells her ..''

Hermione felt a pull tighten in her chest at the mention that Malfoy and Astoria kissed.

'' That she's only good for sex. ''

Hermione looks at Harry as if he just told her that they was no more classes she felt empty like what was she going to do.

'' no, Harry he didn't say it like that. He said ''I would only use you for sex Astoria and I know that's not what you want so just let it end here okay.'' And those where his exact words, talk about ruthless.

Hermione just let the words sink in as she didn't know what to do she stood up and made her way out of the great hall

''hey where are you going?'' asked harry

'' I need to use the bathroom '' she replied in a flat voice while still making her way to out of the great hall , her feet carried her to the girls bathroom where moaning martyr was, she ran into a stall and tears started falling .

Why was she even crying it's not like he ever told her he liked her, he probably just used her. Astoria was lucky, he had spared her the feeling of being used. But isn't that what she did to him too. So why does it hurt so much. she doesn't even like him , but it hurts so much .she scolded herself for even crying over Malfoy , his probably having sex with another girl right now and here I'm wasting my tears . The guilt of sleeping with him was eating her up again and she felt like another panic attack was coming on if she didn't find a reason to hold on to, a reason for her actions.

Dinner passed and Hermione had not made it back Harry and Ron ran up to the heads dorm to see if she was there.

Hermione was hiding in her dorm room , how had she ended up here, brightest witch of her age or of the generation ,first sixth year to be named head girl and she had crumbled to peer pressure ,to a handsome face just like any other girl .sleep slowly took her and her dreams tried to console her mind .

Morning couldn't have come any earlier, surprising enough Hermione felt great something was different, but what? She made her way to the bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror.'

'' You are going to be okay, you will do your best at everything '' the words were directed to her refection. Events of the previous day played in her mind but she looked at them as if she were studying a case, something about what they boys said kept on nagging at her something about Malfoy. She looked at her reflection and smiled while shaking her head.'' how did I miss it?''

The great hall was buzzing with student having their breakfast and gossip as Hermione walked in and made her way to are usual sit.

'' Morning Hermione we came by your dorm but we couldn't get in, did you change your password?'' asked Ron before Hermione could take her sit.'

'' oh yes but never mind about that, I just realised something, Harry you said Malfoy still doesn't have his wand right. 'Harry looked at her with a confused look he knew she was on to something he just didn't know what.

''yes''

'' and he hasn't gotten it back, I don't know how I could have missed it but the other day I bumped into Malfoy and he performed magic without a wand. which is possible for skilled and older witches and wizards but really anyone can do it with enough practice and guidance , at some point we could all do it as children , cause our magic is powerful and uncontrolled at a young age that we….''

''Hermione what are you getting at'' harry asked while Ron just looked confused.

''don't you see? it was right in front of us, when we were in the Slytherin dorms Blaise said Malfoy didn't need a wand he could do just fine without it, then you also told me Astoria said the same thing, I think that Malfoy can perform wand less magic'' she looked at them with exited eyes and a pose for them to take in the news.

'' so… Malfoy … I don't get it why is that important''

''don't you get it Harry, do you know how impressive that is at his age , it takes a long time and a lot to perform wand lass magic I have only recited a little about it.

''I don't know how you can find anything Malfoy does impressive his a slimy snake nothing he does is impressive''

'' I don't think you understand Ron'' Hermione picked a piece of toast and placed it on her plate, she ate with her mind elsewhere, she needed to read up more on wand less magic and how it works. She wondered who helped Malfoy because she knew it was hard to study it by yourself without a little guidance .her head turned towards the door; she could only make out the back of Malfoy's head as he left the great hall. She decided to head to the library and borrow a book on wand less magic before first period.

Astoria looked at the far end of the Slytherin table where Draco was sitting with his friends; he had a faraway look on his face, like his mind was far away. She didn't know how to feel about what happened, he told her to let it go, but she didn't know what to do. she cried, she insulted him, she blamed herself for not being good enough then she finally just let it go, but she still couldn't stop herself from liking him, he finally stood up and made his way out of the great hall, and she found herself drawn to him she also stood up and made her way out of the great hall towards where he was heading.

Astoria knew that she shouldn't be following him but she was curious as to what he was up to. he made a few turns then up the stairs to the seventh floor , not a lot was on the seventh floor he turned a corner and she waited a few second before turning , but he wasn't there .'' where did he go ?'

I don't understand, he turned here but where is he. I looked around the dead end but nothing was there. Maybe they is a secret entrance somewhere here. But I can't see anything to indicate so. Wait I know, I will go and check in that book about Hogwarts.

Astoria made her way to the library, they weren't a lot of people since we were still at the beginning of the year most student didn't see the need to study .she made her way to the alit that housed books under F to I, H was between there.

''ouch''…

The voiced seemed like it came from one of the ales. She peeled the ale were the voice came from and was met with a site. There was the brightest witch of their age rubbing her head with books all around her.

''hey, are you okay?''

Hermione looked up at the voice, green eyes were looking at her in concern. ''huh, ohm yeah am fine just got attacked by some books, 'replied Hermione at a poor attempt to make a joke.

The green eyed girl looked at the book Hermione was holding with a bit of curiosity. 'You working on wand less magic?'' asked Astoria indicating at the book in Hermione's hand.

'' ohm am just, mm doing some light reading.'' she didn't know why she felt nerves around the black haired beauty ever since she saw her asking Malfoy out she felt nerves around the girl .maybe it's because she slept with the guy or she just felt a bit envious of the girl, but for whatever reason she just didn't feel comfortable being near her, something the girl said clicked into her head as she looked at the green eyes which were still staring at her.

''hey mmm Hermione, do you mind me asking you a few questions?''

''not at all' replied Hermione a little nerves.

The girls made their way to a desk at the back where they could have a bit of privacy, not a lot of people like that sits at the back.

''do you know if they is a secret entrance on the seventh floor?''

Hermione looked at the girl for a bit longer than was normal. 'Why do you ask? 'Replied Hermione.

Astoria didn't know if she should tell her or not, she might think am pathetic stocking the guy who refused to go out with me, or maybe she didn't know about the Draco thing only her friends knew about it and they would tell anyone.

''I...I… I was following Draco earlier and he just disappeared once he turned on the seventh floor, am not stocking him or anything I was just …cu…I just want…..I...I just want to know why he refused me.''The words fallout of her mouth even when she didn't mean to tell the older girl, her cheeks where pink with embarrassment. 'I know I should just move on but I ….never mind'' Astoria cut herself off before she said too much.

Hermione didn't know what to make of the whole situation. the fact that Malfoy had spared Astoria from heart ache or that she was now following him and here she was confining it in Hermione of all people.'' I didn't think they is anything on the seventh floor maybe he figured out that you were following him and just used a spell to conceal himself'' .replied Hermione she knew what was on the seventh floor but she needed to get information about Malfoy being able to perform wandless magic and her only source is Astoria at that moment.

'That is possible I mean he can perform wand less magic but I don't know how strong it is for him to pull of that kind of spell.'' Said Astoria upset mindly to Hermione.'' Ooh I… I wasn't supposed to say that, please don't mention it to anyone.'' Pleaded the dark brunette.

Hermione knew that she was not going to do what the girl asked but she still went along with it and now she is confirmed that what she saw and heard was all leading to Malfoy being able to perform wandless magic. ''don't worry I won't tell anyone'' but that still lived the question how was e able to perform wandless magic at his age and who was his teacher , maybe he taught himself that is also possible , thought Hermione's competitive side didn't want to believe that Malfoy knew something that she didn't , it did not sit well with her . While she was mussing with herself in her head the brunette went on talking.

You know what Hermione u pretty nice .I know I shouldn't judge based off on all the times I saw you ,you were fighting with Draco so that must not be a good first impression ,plus I kind of like him so I guess I just stayed away from. Look at me rumbling on. I should probably go. Thanks Hermione

Hermione never got a word in on her reply to the girl as she ran out of the library, probably to go look for Malfoy, at least she got her confirmation now she knows that, it was not her imagination or off thinking and that Draco could indeed perform wand less magic.

One thing that still kept on bugging her was the fact that she had sex with Malfoy, she did sleep on it acknowledged it but it still felt unreal at times but at other times she wanted to rip her heart or head out whichever caused her to make that decision and the ferret acted like nothing happen at first she was grateful but now she just felt pissed off that he ignored her. somewhere along her mind rant she decided that she was going to confront him about it, she knew it was a bad idea but for the love of merlin she could not forget about him and what they did it kept on plugging her mind she needed to find a logical reason and her mind somehow convinced her that Malfoy will have an answer for her.

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