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So this will be my last chapter for a while cause I go to Benidorm for a week on Sunday, I may be able to post one before then but I aint too sure. So… Enjoy &&Review please :)! x
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She took in a deep breath and closed her eyes. Upon re-opening them the tears began to fall, she slumped onto the bathroom floor and pulled her knees up to her chest, wrapping her arms around them. The tears were constantly running down her face, she thumped her head back against the wall and sighed. Kate sat against the wall for a long time, just staring in front of her… when she rechecked her calendar she realised that she was about five days late, so that morning she had ran to the store and bought a pregnancy test. She thought she was over reacting, but she didn't want to take any chances. She wiped away the tears with the back of her hand and picked up the test one more time looking at its answer. Negative. Holding back the tears that were ready to fall, she smiled and laughed, she was relieved that it was negative but that still didn't compare to the fact that she was scared out of her mind.
She picked up the cardboard box it came in, along with the test its self and took it downstairs so that she could put it in the outside trash can. Locking the back door, she went back up to her room and lay on her bed… she wasn't in the mood for going to school. Nowonder she thought, how could she function properly after having a scare like that? She didn't mind babies but she was only sixteen and the thought of having to raise a child alone, being ridiculed and all the responsibilities that came along with it was crippling her thoughts. "You're not pregnant, be happy!" she repeated to herself. Kate draped her arm across her face and closed her eyes, she lay there thinking about everything… but one repeating thought was that she may eventually have to tell Sawyer about it but she hated the idea that he would get freaked out and not want to be near her again. Eventually her thoughts became too much and she fell asleep.
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Sawyer scrunched his eyebrows; Kate wasn't with Shannon as she arrived at school. He waited for a few minutes before saying anything, maybe she would appear soon, and hopefully she would he thought. Flicking his eyes to his watch to recheck the time, he sighed and eventually asked "Sticks… you seen Kate?" Shannon shook her head "No… she might be here later though, she said she was coming in" Sawyer nodded and looked away. He decided to leave it until lunch to see if she would show. He didn't know why he cared so much if she was here or not… she could have a perfectly good reason for showing up but it still didn't calm down the feeling that something was up.
When lunchtime came by, he became ratty. Juliet walked over to Sawyer and wrapped her arms around him. "James, what's up?" she asked smiling at him, Sawyer sighed "Kates not showed up today Jules" Juliet rolled her eyes "You know she can have days off too" Sawyer smirked "Yeah, but she said she was coming in…" Juliet stood back so that only one of his arms were wrapped around her side "I think she'll be fine… call her if your that worried" Juliet smiled and Jack walked up beside them "If I didn't know you two were cousins, I'd start to suspect something" he raised his eyebrow and laughed. Sawyer shot him a sarcastic glance "Yeah well Jules aint my type" Juliet looked at him in fake shock "James!" then she laughed "I take it your type is brown hair, green eyes and freckles sprinkled across the face?"
Jack laughed and looked amused whilst Sawyer shut up and looked away occasionally. Jack went over to Juliet and pulled her into a tight hug, brushing his nose against hers and smiling sweetly, leaning into kiss her. Sawyer rolled his eyes "Well, I'll see y'all later" they nodded and he walked away. Once he was by himself in a quiet corridor he took his cell out of his pocket and dialled Kate's number. He leaned against the locker, his foot propped up against the front. The phone rang and rang and rang; eventually it went onto the answer machine. Sawyer groaned and hung up; he waited a few minutes before trying again. By the third time he tried a sleep filled voice answered the phone.
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A constant vibration and music being repeated slowly woke Kate up out of her sleep. Peeling her eyes open, she blinked away the sleep and looked around. Stretching her arms above her head she moaned sleepily, she reached over and grabbed her phone and clicked the answer button. "Uhhh… hello?" she said sleepily. Sawyer felt relief that she had picked up "Hey freckles… was wonderin where ya were today?" Kate smiled and replied "I wasn't really in the mood for school today" "You okay? Somethin wrong?" Sawyer asked concerned, Kate lay back on her bed and yawned "Nah, I'm good… just wasn't feeling up to going in today" Sawyer looked down "you want me ta come by?" Kate sighed "No, its okay… I'll see you tomorrow or something?" Sawyer's eyebrows knitted together "Kay… well, I'll see ya tomorra then" he heard a soft goodbye then a click as the line went dead.
He pocketed his phone and headed for his car, not caring that there were still a few more classes left, Sawyer got in his car and drove off in the direction of Kate's house. He parked his car just outside of her house and slowly walked up to the door and pressed the door bell. After a few minutes a sleepy looking Kate opened the door and looked shocked, a smiled slowly appeared on her face "Hey James" he smiled back at her "you gonna let me in?" Kate licked her bottom lip and stepped aside, swinging her arm in the direction of the hall. Sawyer walked in and as she shut the door he pulled her over to himself and gave her a light kiss. "You gonna tell me what's up with ya? Or do I have to force it out?" he said with a cheeky glint in his eye. Kate raised her eyebrow and folded her arms in front of her "Why are you not at school mister?" Sawyer laughed and replied "Can say the same thing ta you darlin"
Kate rolled her eyes and walked into the living room and plopped onto the sofa, Sawyer followed her and sat beside her, pulling her flush against his body "So… you gonna tell me what's up?" Kate played with the bottom of his t-shirt, stroking his stomach lightly and sighed "I suppose I should tell you…" he waited for her to continue not wanting to push her "Well… I had to do something this morning that would settle my mind… and I checked my calendar, I'm five days late…" she paused for a moment and he let it sink into his mind what she was saying, he cleared his throat and she could feel him tense up "…we used a rubber though" Kate nodded, avoiding his gaze "last night yeah… but last Friday we didn't… but before you overreact, it was negative" he sighed mentally and she felt him relax slightly but he didn't say anything.
Her insecurities kicked in and she pulled away from him and headed for her room. Sawyer watched her leave and he leaned his head back against the sofa as he sighed. Truth be told, even though she wasn't pregnant he was still scared shitless. He wasn't the ideal person to be a father; he wouldn't be able to take on the responsibilities. Sawyer rubbed his hands over his face, if this is how I'm taking it, how must Kate feel? He looked towards the stairs and pulled himself up from his sitting position and headed for the stairs. Kate was lying on her bed facing the wall; her eyes were glazed over with unshed tears, she was waiting for the front door to slam but it never. She heard the floorboards creaking as someone approached her room, Sawyer stood against the doorframe watching her but she didn't turn around. He walked over to her bed and got on beside her, pulling her close.
They lay in silence for almost half an hour, Sawyer had his arm over her stomach and his hand was covering hers, holding it tightly. Nerves were eating away at her, she really wanted to speak… she didn't know what to say, what would she say? But she was also scared that he would disappear and keep his distance. Sawyer was having a similar situation, he didn't know what to say, he was ready to speak when he felt Kate shudder very lightly. He heard her intakes of breath and her attempts to calm herself down, but he knew she was crying silently. He felt her wipe away the tears that had trailed down her cheeks and sniffle quietly. Sawyer sighed and whispered Kate, she shifted in her position to look at him teary eyed, he pulled her arm so she rolled over and faced him.
Once she got comfortable, he pulled her closer so that her head was parallel to his. He stroked her cheek lightly with his thumb "Y'okay freckles?" a smile twitched at her lips and she replied lightly "Yeah… I am" he smiled weakly back at her; Kate looked down and said "Why are you still here James?" Sawyer scrunched his eyebrows together in confusion "What?!" Kate refused to look at him "By now, most guys would have run for the door… and probably never speak to the girl again" He stifled a laugh and tipped her chin up "look at me… I'd never do that" Kate stared blankly at him "no offence, but you don't seem like that type of guy…" Sawyer smirked and replied "I'm a complex guy sweetheart" Kate laughed and looked down again, Sawyer tucked some of her hair behind her ear
"After what happened ta my parents, I've tried not ta be missing from the people I care bouts life… I'd hate for history to repeat itself." He smiled sadly, his dimples barely showing. Kate ran her thumb over where one of them would appear "I was just so scared… scared incase I was pregnant, scared incase you would never speak to me again… scared about everything…" her voice started to fail, and a tear slid its way down her cheek. Sawyer used his thumb to wipe it away and he replied with emotion thickly running through his voice "Don't cry… cause I'll cry… then I'll have ta spank ya… infact that sounds like a good idea" he raised his eyebrow and smirked. Kate laughed and pushed his shoulder "just shut up James"
He raised his hands in defeat and smiled "well… I can just spank ya anyways" he moved his hand around to her back and raised it with a smirk etched on his face. Kate's mouth flew open "don't you dare!" she suppressed a grin and rolled onto her back, batting his hand away. "Awe come one… you might enjoy it" he said grinning at her. Kate giggled and rolled her eyes "Yeah, I'm sure I would, being spanked by you would be the best time of my life!" she said sarcastically, Sawyer gave her a sultry smile and ran his gaze over her body, he leaned down just centimetres away from her face "Of course it will be… you just don't know it yet" he gave her a lop sided grin and kissed her lightly. Kate smiled up at him and whispered "You are amazing James" He tilted his head and replied back in a lust filled whisper "I know… but you're meant to say that when I'm in between yer legs baby"
Kate giggled and a slight blush swept across her face. She rolled her eyes and played with the hair on the back of his neck "You think you're a gift from god, don't you?" Sawyer smiled down at her "I believe we've had this conversation before… and as I've said before, it's the females that say it" he winked at her; Kate gave him a glare "Well I think otherwise Mister Ford…" She pushed his chest so that he fell onto his back beside her; she moved on top of him and kissed him passionately. As he was getting into the kiss she pulled away and smirked at him "Well, if you'll excuse me, I'm quite tired so I'm going to sleep okay?" She rolled off of him and quickly got under the covers, Sawyer sat for a few moments in silence then mutely laughed and faked a yawn "well, looks like I'm tired too…" he kicked off his boots and slipped under the covers with her and pulled her back against his chest. A while later he could hear her breathing even out, letting him know that she was asleep, he closed his eyes and not long after he fell asleep as well.
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Sawyer got jolted out of his sleep when he felt someone push his shoulder hard "Oh good, you're awake!" Kate said smirking. He groaned and opened his eyes "I was havin a good dream there" Kate laughed and kissed his cheek "well you have to get up… my dad'll be home soon" Sawyer grinned "why? What's he gonna do?" Kate rolled her eyes and pushed him lightly "for one: he'll kick your ass and two: he'll freak out that we ditched school" Sawyer gave her a strange look "What? He will… he has army training" Sawyer smirked "Okay then… lets go out somewhere?" Kate smiled and nodded "Okay… but I'll have to shower and get changed first" Sawyer crossed his arms behind his head and raised his eyebrow "how about I join ya?" Kate glared at him "No I don't think so… just stay here… I won't be long" She picked up clean clothes and headed for the bathroom.
Twenty minutes Kate came back into the room in clean clothes and her hair tied back into a messy bun "So… where we going?" Sawyer finished lacing up his boots and replied "Aint to bothered… you wanna go anywhere?" Kate shook her head and pulled him up from the bed "Well, let's just go out and see where we end up" he took her hand in his and walked out of the room. "Is there any plans for this weekend?" Sawyer asked as Kate locked the front door; she turned around and scrunched her nose up "Nope, no one has come up with anything solid yet… but I think Juliet said something along the lines of going to the movies" Kate slipped her hand in his and he replied "Cool… might be good, nice an dark" Sawyer winked at her and smirked at her expression "You're such a pervert! I'm not having sex with you in the movies!"
Sawyer gasped in faux shock "Katherine Austen! I said it was dark… never mentioned anything about sex… and you call me the pervert" Kate blushed and avoided his eyes "well, you know what…" he tipped her chin up "What?" Kate glared at him "just… shut up James" Sawyer grinned and kissed her lips "You seem to say 'shut up' a lot to me" Kate stared blankly at him "Now, let's go my little pervert" Kate stood back and rolled her eyes. Sawyer gave her a deep dimpled smile and pulled at her hand as he walked her down to his car. They got in and drove off to Sawyers house so he could put his school stuff back in before they headed out to Juliet's.
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