Author's note: In this chapter, we will dig in deeper about Hotaru's feelings. And please welcome Ruka Nogi! He...he...he... So, do you have any characters you want to see? You can tell me. I'm a little confused now because I have rolls but I don't know which character I should put in. I need it for the next chapter. Before you read, it's good if you open the song I put in this chapter, and hear it while you're reading!! Thanks...!
Bold songs
Italic flashback
Disclaimer: I never and will never own any songs. That included YUI's song I put in my fanfiction. He...he...he... Maybe someday I tell you if I own any song
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Chapter 3: I Can't Deny It
Hotaru's POV
I sat on the singers' couch, drinking my pineapple juice. Luna, my colleague was singing at the moment.
YUI - Can't Buy My Love CHE.R.RY
Te no hira de furueta
Sore gachiisanayuukininatteitanda
Emojiwanigatedatta
Dakedokimikaradattara
Wakuwakushichau
Henjiwasugunishicha dame datte
Darekanikiitakotoarukedo
Kakehikinantedekinai no
Sukina no yo ah ahahah…
Koishichattanda
Tabunkiduitenaideshou
Hoshi no yorunegaikomete CHE.R.RY
Yubisaki de okurukimi he no MESSEEJI
This song... I smirked. No wonder it sounded familiar. This is the song I heard after I first met Natsume.
-Flashback-
It was 6 p.m. I just awoke from my sleep. I sat on my bed, when someone suddenly opened the door.
"Hotaru I want you to meet someone! Come on!" Mikan said, or rather shouted.
She was still wearing her black sailor uniform. And she dragged me instantly.
"What is it now, Mikan?" I said lazily "I already told you that I don't interested to any of your friends"
Mikan didn't reply. She still smiled widely, though.
And we arrived at the guest room. There was a tall boy in black uniform that was looking at the ornaments in the cupboard made of glass.
"Natsume I want you to meet my sister, HotaruHotaru Sakura."
Oh... so the 'someone' Mikan wanted me to meet is that NatsumeMikan has been talking about him lately. First, she told me that she hates that boy 'till death, because he was a pervert and etc. Then she started to talk about him nicely. And soon, I could feel that she love him. No wonder...
He turned back. I amazed a bit. He's quite... handsome I have to say. But I'm sure that his heart is the worst among Mikan's other friends. I can tell that he's one damn filthy rich boy.
And that look again... It's like he was... disgusted with me... Hah! No wonder. Being Mikan's boyfriend, he must have known about my disease.
-End of flashback-
"Hey, Hotaru, after Luna sings this song, you're up"
Ruka Nogi, the manager of the café suddenly spoke. He took the seat on the singers' couch besides me. He disturbed my flashback. I became pissed off
"I know that already, okay?" I answered shortly. I purposely showed annoyance in my voice.
"So, what songs are you planning to sing?" Ruka said with a smile plastered on his face.
I glared at him. Right now, I just needed a baka gun or something (talk about the alice). But, what do you expect from an uneducated girl like me?
"Okay, okay! I will back off. Just stop the glare, okay?"He began to walk back to the manager room.
-Flashback-
"So, Hotaru, I want to get change. Please accompany Natsume, okay? Thanks!"
She already dashed off before I could answer.
I sighed "So what's with your disgusted look, huh, Natsume
I watched him intently. I want to see his reaction.
"If it's about your hair, then duh..." still stick with his coolness
I knew perfectly what he meant.
"Well, blaim your girlfriend for dragging me when I just woke up."
"My girlfriend, huh? Why don't you admit her as your sister? She loves you so much you know."
"What do you know? You know nothing." I became piss off. It's not that I don't know about that fact. It's just the way he said it made me piss off...
"You're right, I know nothing. You're the one that know it."
"What is it with you? Aren't you disgusted of me because my illness? If you want to insult me, go ahead! I'm use to it"
Heh Disgusted? Why should I? You're not kind of virus or anything. Besides, if you want someone to be disgusted at your life, than that person should be yourself"
He said that with his coolness, but serious could be heard, and hands in the pockets. He turned back, and his back was facing me that time. That was it. I was dumbstruck
-End of flashback-
"Hey Hotaru, it's your turn." Serina spoke nicely and smiled, made me come back to reality.
"Hai"
I took a deep breath as I began to sing.
YUI - Can't Buy My Love Highway Chance
demokono mama jaowarenaiowaritakunaidesho
CHANSU womatsu no yo
jitto CHANSUwomatsu no yo
Heh Disgusted?
kuukoudatte Harbor dattenigekiresou mo nai
jinseinantesousoutayasukuminogashichakurenai
ouchiniokaeritotto to okaeriyoru mo onajidayo
nigemichinadonaikara
Why should I?
kuufukudattehaibokudattenigekiresou mo nai
jinseinantesousoutayasukuminogashichakurenai
yarinaosukoto mo yurushitewakurenai
maedakemitenayo
TEREBI GE-MU janai no
You're not kind of virus or anything...
kanjousenkarakousokuninorikomusonna Image de
tsukisusumudakedogenjitsuwa
yatsu no tenohira de korogatterudakenanda
Besides
kuyashikutattekanashikutattenigedashichaikenai
jinseinantesousoutayasukuminogashichakurenai
dakedoakiramenaide ne kusaccha dame dayo
CHANSU wakuruhazu
sono hi wachikadzuiteru
...if you want someone...
kanjousenkarakousokuninorikomusonna Image de
tsukisusumudakedoimawamada
yatsu no tenohira de korogatterudakenanda
...to be disgusted at your life
demokono mama jaowarenaiowaritakunaidesho
ima tae tokiyochikarawotakuwaenagara
CHANSU womatsu no yo
jitto CHANSUwomatsu no yo
...than that person...
kanjousenkarakousokuninorikomusonna Image wo
genjitsunikaeteyuku tame nisusundeyuku no yo
...should be yourself.
HAIWEI CHANSU wonogasanai tame ni
yosomiwadekinai Bye ByeByesuguoitsukukara ne
I sang as I retrace my memory... I sighed. I can't deny it. You're really are... something, Natsume.
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Normal POV
"Hotaru, want me to take you home?" Ruka asked.
"No need. I can walk by myself." Hotaru answered with her usual monotous voice
"What? You're going to walk? Shouldn't you at least take taxi?"
She began to lose her patience "Believe it. Yes. No. Ja..."
"Wait Hotaru..." Ruka grab her wrist
Hotaru sighed angrily "Car can't get throught Ruka! My house located at a small street. At this time of night, there won't be any one damn person to clean the snow on the street, okay?" She said it so fast and anger could be trace in her voice.
"Oh..."
"Happy now?"
Hotaru forcefully free her wrist and held her shoulder bag with the same hand. She turned back and walked in hurry towards the door. And with her free hand, she opened the door.
Ruka could only watch Hotaru left the cafe. He forced a smile.
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It was 1 a.m. Hotaru walked down the street of her house. It's the 17th house in the block. She walked calmly though. She already forgot about her anger towards Ruka. In fact, Hotaru feel guilty a little to that poor guy.
She was in front of a house next to the house where she and Mikan stay. They didn't turn on any light in their house. So it was very dark. That was when she saw Mikan and Natsume in front of the house.
"So?" Natsume asked Mikan
His hands were on Mikan's waist, with Mikan's hands on his shoulder. Practically, they were embracing, but they stared at each other now.
Mikan sighed, "About the christmas party next week, huh?"
Natsume raised his eyebrows, and smiled a little.
"I don't know, Natsume. I promised Hotaru I will accompany her every Saturday night... If I go, she will be alone."
"Come on Mikan, just this one night."
Mikan looked confused.
"Remember Mikan, we never broken up formally. So you are still my girlfriend."
Mikan shocked a little, but then she sighed and smiled,
"I think about it" she finnaly answered.
"That's my girl"
Natsume kissed Mikan, on the lips. And Hotaru who saw everything just turn her head. The next thing she heard was the sound of car engine and Mikan's word, wishing Natsume a save journey.
Mikan turned back. That was when she noticed Hotaru.
Mikan chuckled, "Hotaru, what are you doing, standing all alone in the dark? Don't tell me you were there all along..."
"Not really. I heard about the party." Hotaru answered monotonely
Mikan smiled "Let's talk about it tomorrow. Come on"
She then clinged onto Hotaru's arm cheerfully. Hotaru didn't mind it tonight. She once again witnessed, how loyal Mikan is to her.
That's why, she can never hate Mikan. That's why, she can't let her feelings get better than herself. That's why... she can't consider her feelings for Natsume. Even if she can't deny it...
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Author's note: I want to tell you, for my fanfiction here, I will put a lot of YUI's songs, including for atmosphere effects. Because, I love YUI and her songs are the best to match the story atmosphere so far. And… I'M DISSAPOINTED! I haven't got any review! The viewers are many actually… So come on… I need your participation! So, see you in next chapter… Hiks… (Sad, no review at all…)
Next chapter: Even the party...