james apartment # 4. queen street.

Dear james, ~*~ Before Harry ~*~

Disclaimer: It's in the first chapter.

Summary: In the books it never says Lily has another child. One before Harry. Well this isn't the books, it's my world. Learn how a teen struggles through childbirth, school and work. Raising a kid is hard work and Lily is about to find that out the hard way.

A/n: I am so sorry that it took me so long to update. I wrote almost 10 pages(on paper) so it should be long at least. I know it takes me a long time to update so if you want me to email you when I update, just ask.

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The last thing I heard was "Oh, I most definitely will." What that means I'm still not sure.

~&~&~ Chapter 3 ~~*~*

Not many people think much of Lily Evans. I haven't heard any rumors about her. Truth be told I didn't even know that Lily Evans existed until last year when some stupid ex-boyfriend of hers hit her. I told him to fuck off and leave her alone. I was about to leave her when she started crying and I couldn't just leave her alone!

"He was just a jerk off. You don't need him anymore." I said, trying to comfort her.

"I know... It's just....." She broke off sobbing.

I sat down beside her on the floor where she had fallen.

"It's just what?" I asked her.

"I just thought..." She broke off again.

God that was annoying. I wish that she would just spit it out!

"You thought what?" I asked.

"I thought that he was a nice guy. I thought that he wasn't like the others. But they are all the same. Every guy I date turns out to be a scumbag. When I start to like a guy someone should tell me that he's a dirt bag because they all turn out to be." Then she broke off crying.

"Shhhhh... It'll be ok. Everything is going to be fine." I told her as I took her in my arms and slowly rocked her back and forth. Hey, it was something my mom use to do for me!

"All I want is one decent guy! Just one!" She broke off again, burying her face in my shirt, which, by the way, was soaked.

I had the feeling she wanted to say more but couldn't. I rubbed her back and whispered. "You'll find him someday."

She shook her head. "No, I won't! Because if that were the case I would have already found him! I have been with Death Eaters, guys who cheated on me, guys who beat me, gay guys, and just plain jerks! I will never find a decent guy!"

"You'll just have to wait!" I said.

"What?" She looked up at me with those sparkling green eyes, shimmering with tears.

"You'll have to wait, because even though you go out with jerks now someday you will find one special guy. He will be worth going out with all those other losers." I had said this speech to quite a few girl before. It always works. It gives them new hope and I'm glad.

"Really?" she asked as if that could never happen.

"Really, really." I said and then I smiled, She smiled back at me and hugged me tightly.

"Thank you." She whispered.

"No problem." I answered.

We sat there for a long time before she got up, dusted herself off and smiled. "I'm Lily Evans by the way." And then she left.

That was about a week before graduation and she was only a third year. So when I saw her in the club, looking as damn fine as she was, I just had to had to go over to her. She is 15 and I'm now 19. I don't know quite what possessed me to kiss her that night. Many people would blame it on the alcohol but it wasn't that.

Now don't get me wrong, I'm sure that had a lot to do with it. I can't deny that but there was something. Something in my mind that said that I could be that guy. The guy I told her about. Now I think it sounds really stupid but then, with a lot of alcohol, it was the best idea in the world.

I remember that night like it was yesterday. She was the sexiest girl I have ever seen, and trust me, I've seen some beauties. That long red hair, those green eyes filled with lust... And her boobs, I swear they were DD's. She was a little overweight but everything else made up for that. One of the best parts of a woman, I think, is legs, and boy she have incredible long sexy legs... It makes me tingle just thinking about it. I was just about to owl her about a month later but she owled me first.

Dear James:

How are you? This is Lily Evans by the way. (I smirked at that part) Schools going great and I am damn glad that we don't have OWLs this year. How is Quidditch going? Good, I hope. This letter is to ask you something very important. Do you regret what we did? After all I am 15 and your 19(I think). That's four years differences. I really need to know so owl me back soon.
Love,
Lily. Xoxo.

That owl took me by surprise. Did I regret it? That was a very tough question. She is right, I do have four years on her. But four year isn't that much is it? Hmmm.. Tough choices. It was a great night. Probably the best sex I have ever had. I needed advice. So, of course I had to ask Padfoot. Maybe not the best idea.

"Hey Padfoot. I have a bit of a predicament and need your advice." I said the next day after I had gotten that letter. I'm not sure if he knew what predicament meant but I knew he would help any way he could. That was Sirius for you.

"Hey Prongs buddy, what's up?" Asked Sirius.

I have not introduced Sirius yet, have I? Oh shit, I haven't even introduced myself yet. I have a bad memory. Sorry. I am James Potter. I have messy jet black hair and blue eyes that can melt a girls heart. I am well built, thanks to Quidditch and am about 6'4.

Sirius Black is my best mate. He has jet black hair too except his is actually tamed. He has chocolate brown eyes and is tanned 24/7. He is on the same Quidditch team as me and is 6'2.

Remus Lupin is also a very good friend of mine. He has light blonde hair and baby blue eyes. He's 6'1, I think. He's also a werewolf. Sirius, Peter( a friend who went to school with us, I haven't seen him in a long time) and I became animus to help him transform.

Anyway back to our convo:

"Well I met this girl at a club. The finest little thing I've seen in awhile. Anyway we went back to my place and you should know the rest." I grinned at him and he grinned back. "That's not the problem. The problem is that she's 15 and in Hogwarts. She owled me and asked me if I regretted it..." I trailed off.

"Well, did you?" Asked Sirius.

"That's the problem, I don't know."

"Did you enjoy it?" He asked and I nodded. "Then there you go! It's only four years and if what you say is true, it shouldn't matter."

"Wow, thanks mate. I never saw it like that." I smiled.

"No problem. That's what I'm here for." He joked.

So I owled her and told her that. She owled me back and said she needed to see me. Now I know I'm getting something, just what that something is I'm not sure.

A/n: This is at least 5 computer pages. Anyway. If anyone is intrested in being my beta reader for this fanfic, please let me know~! Thanks.