Disclaimer: Nope still not mine. Dickie won't even share over the summer!
Author's Note: I am so sorry it has been two months since I've shown my face, well my typing, on here. First I was sick with pneumonia then my dad had surgery so my mom had to take care of him and couldn't get me to the library then on June 12th I had surgery on my right hand, I still have the bandage on and the 15 stitches in now so it's extremely hard to type with one hand. Anyways, when I post this I should already have one-shots and other chaps up too! Love you all! Jess
"Daddy, why's Mommy so sad?" Three and a half years old and as curious as ever, Bryce and Breanna Stabler sat in front of their father, wide brown and blue eyes stared up in question. Elliot pulled them off the counter where they were eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and they followed him into the living room then sat beside him on the couch.
"Well, you remember how Mommy and I told you that you were going to have a brother or sister?" Elliot chose his words carefully so that his twins would understand and he wouldn't burst out crying.
"Yeah! And the baby was in Mommy's belly!" Bryce grinned widely at his dad and his sister nodded with him enthusiastically. The looks of pure joy and excitement on their faces almost brought Elliot to tears.
"Yeah. Well, you know how Mommy and I got hit by the big truck?"
"Yeah! And that's why you got the big cut on your forehead and the hard glove on your arm." Bryce said and knocked his little fist on the cast on his father's right arm.
"And Mommy has the big black mark on her arm and the hard thingy on her arm and the hard thingy on her leg and the big cut with black strings on her forehead and she hurt her belly." Breanna added, still staring up at her father with eyes identical to her mother's.
"Yeah, well when Mommy hurt her belly your brothers got hurt too. Really badly. You remember how we told you Mommy's mom, Gramaw Serena, and Daddy's dad Grandpa Richard went to heaven?" The twins nodded and Elliot choked back his tears. "Well, your brothers went to heaven too."
"Oh. So Mommy's sad 'cause she wanted different babies than me and Bre?" Bryce asked sadly and both twins' eyes welled up with tears.
"Oh no! Mommy still loves you and wants you! And so do I! We just wanted to have more babies to love just as much as we love you. Do you understand?" The twins glanced at each other and then back to their father nodding.
"Daddy do you think that it would be okay if me and Bryce went in your room and took a nap with Mommy?" Breanna smiled shyly at her father and he grinned.
"Sure Double Trouble. How 'bout we all go lay down with Mommy?" The twins grinned and scampered off towards their parents' bedroom with Elliot on their heels. When he reached the bedroom door he was surprised to see his wife standing, one crutch under her arm, against the wall. And smiling for the first time in weeks.
"Liv?" He swallowed nervously but smiled when she reached out her hand towards him.
"Come on El." She held his hand for the first time since they had lost the babies. He knew she felt guilty, though he didn't know why, but he kept trying to comfort her and be there for her anytime he thought she needed it. He helped her to her side of the king sized bed and pulled back the blankets. After she was settled he bent down and placed a loving, supporting kiss on her lips, the first since the accident that she hadn't turned away from.
The familiar sound of the twins 'ewwing' brought him back to reality and he crossed to his side of the bed. He laid down and placed an arm around Bryce, fingers brushing Liv's hand that was draped over Breanna. He laid awake lon after his wife and children had fallen asleep, just thinking.
He gently tugged on Olivia's hand to wake her. "Hmm?" She muttered, looking at him with with sleepy chocolate eyes.
"I love you."
And for the first time since the accident she laughed, softly though so it wouldn't wake the angels lying between them. "I love you too." Elliot slept peacefully with his children sleeping safely between him and his wife and her hand intangled with his.
And they were healing.