I sat on my bed. Reviewing over and over what had just happened. I had told Edward I loved Jacob. The only thing that bothered me was…I wasn't sure if it was true.
The hole seemed to grow bigger, but I couldn't bring myself to think of something else. Had I really been that cruel? Edward was here, trying to make things right, and I had shoved him aside like he meant nothing. Which was not true in the least. Why was I acting this way? Why did I feel like my heart was torn in two ways?
I couldn't hurt Jacob. That would kill me. But if I kept acting the way I did to Edward…I was going to lose him again. If I haven't already. Oh My God! What did I do!?
I knew that there was only one way to set everything right. Or at least, somewhere close. I had to go talk to Edward and sort everything out. Now. But I would have to hurry. Charlie was going to be home any minute, and if he caught me leaving he wouldn't let me go without a fight, and I wasn't in the mood to deal with that.
I ran quickly down the stairs, not stopping to grab a coat even in the pouring rain. I had no time to waste. I got into the cab of the truck and quickly started the engine, pulling out of the driveway and going down the road at a much faster speed than my truck could handle.
I was trying with all my power to drive careful and fast, and not have my truck break down on me. Not now.
It was hard to find the break in the woods on a normal day, let alone when it's raining cats and dogs. But somehow, I managed to find it. Could luck possibly be giving me a break? I'll have to wait a find out. I shut the truck off and jumped out, landing in a huge puddle and ran as fast as I could, along with tripping a few times here and there, up to the steps of the big white house.
I banged on the door as loud as I could, hoping with all my might that somehow they would be here and open the door. It took a few moments, and I heard no sound from within the house. I stared blankly at the door.
Was I already too late? Had he really thought my words were true and left again? I mentally kicked myself as I sat down on the top stair and began to cry softly to myself. I failed. They were gone. He was gone…
"…Bella?" My heart stopped. I turned around and saw him standing in the open door way leaning against it with an unplacable expression.
"Edward? I'm not too late!" I shouted before I had time to think. I jumped up from the stairs and ran into his arms before he could even blink. I held onto him tightly. Too afraid that if I were to let go, he'd vanish. It took him a minute before he reacted, slowly wrapping his arms around me and holding me closer to him. I never wanted to move again.
"Bella, you have me so confused." He finally spoke as a small smile played on his perfect lips. "You told me yesterday that you were in love with…Jacob." The way he said his name hurt a little.
"I didn't mean it. I was trying to force myself to move on. To let you know that I was over it so that you would leave and not hurt me anymore. But I realized that if you were to leave, that would hurt the most. So I had to set things right. I'm so sorry, Edward." I dug my head into his chest and he tightened his grip.
"I'm sorry too. I should have never left in the first place. I thought that it would be for the best. But I was wrong. I went crazy without you. And if you were to end up hurting yourself, I couldn't be able to live with myself. So I came back, hoping to make things better. Hoping that you would forgive me."
"I do. I forgive you, Edward. I'm so sorry." He didn't say anything more. Just held me there, stroking the back of my hair with his hand. I felt him press his lips on the top of my hair, and suddenly I knew that everything was going to be alright.
Me: Okay. Yeah, they've been a little short. Kinda been busy lately. I'm working on it. I have a few plans for this and it's going to get better. I promise. But this isn't the end of it! More to come. Most of these I write at like…2 in the morning when I can't sleep. Maybe that's why they're so good. Anyway, thanks for all the reviews! I love you guys!