booth said WHAT?? haha: ) bones isn't mine, fox took it before i could : (

Brennan entered her apartment, and sighed. She had the envelope grasped in her hand. She didn't want to open it in front of Booth, because he wouldn't let her read it in peace. She opened the manila envelope, and took out the letter and the essay attached.

"Dear Dr. Brennan,

I really enjoyed reading your essay. I'm glad that you were able to move past the rational thoughts that seem to dominate your life and write what you feel. I am returning your essay to you so that you can do with it what you wish.

Have a pleasant summer,

Dr. Gordon Gordon Wyatt."

Brennan smiled and put down the letter, and began to read her essay…

'My deepest secret has got to be…' She stopped immediately and put the paper down in shock. She picked up the phone, and called Angela.

"Hello?"

"Hey Ange, it's Brennan."

"Oh hey, how are you? How's Booth? Are you two having fun without us?"

"Booth and I had to write essays for Dr. Wyatt telling about our deepest secret, and I got his essay by mistake. Dr. Wyatt meant to send mine, but he gave me Booth's." Angela smiled. If she knew anything about Dr. Wyatt, she knew he had done that on purpose.

"If I were you Brennan I wouldn't read it." Brennan sighed.

"I know, but I really want to." Angela was taken aback by her response.

"What has gotten in to you Bren?" Brennan sighed, and told her story from the beginning. Angela was beaming and Brennan could tell she was excited.

"Well read it! And you know you will have to tell me if your dream comes true." Brennan rolled her eyes.

"Okay, Angela, I have to go. Bye."

"Bye sweetie! Have fun!" Brennan poured herself a glass of wine, then shrugging, brought the whole bottle to her couch and began reading his essay.

'My deepest secret has got to be my feelings for Bones…I mean Dr. Brennan.'

Brennan choked on her wine and reread the sentence. She couldn't believe what Booth had just admitted.

'I don't even know how it happened, I mean we pretty much bickered the first year she began working in the field with me. But somehow we managed to grow closer, especially with all the trips we had to take, and she began to grow on me. She is actually a very funny and witty person, and a lot of fun to be around, but she just puts up so many walls, walls that I have working over the past two years to break through so that I can see her for who she is.'

Brennan smiled, remembering all the little things Booth had done to make her feel safe and protected. She knew he was right about the barriers that she had put up. She had originally put them up to protect herself, but now they were cutting her off from the world, and Booth had made her realize that.

'I think she is scared of people and emotions because of all the times she was hurt in her life, and I want to be there for her. I want her to know that she can depend on me, but how do I tell her that? How can I make her understand how important she has become to me? How do I tell her that I can't live with out her? How do I tell her that I love her?'

Brennan sighed, put down her empty glass and began drinking straight from the bottle. If this essay kept on going like this, she was going to finish this entire bottle of wine.

'I don't think she is ready, and she might not ever be ready, but I want to try. That's what frightens me. I'm afraid to wait and let my opportunity with her pass, but I don't want to rush into things either. I've never felt like this about any other woman before. They were just flings that didn't feel very real. They almost just kept my body occupied, while my soul was not being attended to, being completely ignored. I always think about her, and she consumes my daily life. I always make sure she is okay, and fed, and home on time, because God knows she doesn't look after herself. She makes me want to do things I have never thought of doing, like threatening people and getting jealous. I was never jealous of anyone before. I was always the one women were jealous over…well, that's not entirely true. I was jealous of Rebecca's new guy, but it was different. I wasn't jealous because of he was with Rebecca, I was jealous because he was with my son, and my son means the world to me.'

Brennan smiled, and thought of Booth with Parker. He really loved his son. She knew that, and she respected him for it.

'But back to Bones…I wonder all the time if she feels the same way that I do.'

He had no idea…

'The things she does to me. She makes me question myself, and what I do, she makes me think about my actions and she makes me crazy. Every time she goes missing, I always rush to the rescue. She says I exhibit my alpha-male qualities on her too often, but what she doesn't understand is that I have to protect everything that I hold dear, which includes her. I need to be able to feel like I am in control. I need to protect her from the harsh ways of the world. I need to make sure that she is always safe. I also need her to always be mine. I need her so much.'

Brennan sighed, and smiled. She needed him too.

'I wonder if this paper constitutes as rambling…oh well. I am writing every thought that comes into my head, just like you told me to write for you Dr. Wyatt. I had this dream last night where I was marrying her.'

Brennan sighed and wished she hadn't finished the bottle already.

'I really want that to happen but at the same time it scares me because I know that would drive her away. I wish she could understand everything that I feel, because I don't know how to tell her. I do love her; I love her more than I ever thought would be possible. She is so good with Parker as well, she just doesn't see it, and that is another reason I want her. She is so good with Parker. I know she doesn't want kids, but she would be an excellent mother. I want her. But at the same time, I just want her to be happy. If she is happy, even without me, I can still be happy with that. I know she would never consider me as a partner, in that way, but I still think about it constantly.'

Brennan shook her head and laughed. She has considered that last year, when she hadn't had sex in about four months…but now was different. She felt something for him too. She didn't know what exactly, it was just there.

'Dr. Wyatt, how do you tell someone who is so scared of the world and of love that you love them? And I think she might be attracted to me, but then again, I thought she didn't go with Sully because of me. Actually, I was hoping she wasn't going because of me, but I guess I can't lie to myself. Her smile, though, her smile makes me feel like I'm on top of the world. Her joy and protection are all that matters to me, and even if she doesn't want to give me her heart, at least I can protect her from anything else, but unfortunately not anyone else. I have been giving subtle hints about my feelings, but I know that she doesn't and can't read them. She is too literal and oblivious to anything like that. I just wish she wasn't because I love her, and I want to show her.'

Brennan smiled. She knew he exhibited behavior that would constitute as a person who cared deeply for another, she was just not aware that he loved her…before reading this essay that is.

'So my deepest secret is definitely my love for Dr. Temperance Brennan, a love that I will always hold on to, even if it isn't reciprocated. I love her; I love her so much that I can barely stand it. She looks after me and I her. We make a good team like Sully said, but we go even deeper than that, we make a good partnership, and a good friendship, and most likely a good relationship. I love her. So here is my essay, and my plea for you to leave me alone for the summer.

Booth'

Brennan laughed out loud at the last line. She knew she was so drunk that she probably would have a huge hangover in the morning, but it didn't matter. She now knew how Booth felt. The thought about where her essay might end up never crossed her mind as she fell asleep.

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