Chapter 8
" Do we know anything at all?" Cragen asked his squad.
" We know that whoever these people are, they know where both Elliot and Olivia live, so chance are when they were watching 'Livia, they were somewhere close-maybe in an apartment across the street or next door? Someplace where they could easily see her, but she couldn't see them." Fin said, rubbing his eyes tiredly.
" We also know that whoever the bastards are, they know both Liv and myself." Elliot added, also rubbing his eyes. It was 11:45 pm, they had been working all day, and that was all they had gotten so far. Cragen sighed. They had no leads, absolutely nothing.
" Ok guys, go home, get some rest, and come back tomorrow morning. We're not doing Olivia any good by being exhausted. Elliot, my office." Elliot raised an eyebrow at John and Fin, but they both just shrugged and left.
" What's up Cap?"
" Don't blame yourself for what happened Elliot. I can tell you're beating yourself up for it. None of this is your fault." Don said.
Elliot sighed, rubbing his eyes with the heels of his hands.
" I know. Its just…Christ…I couldn't stand it if something happened to her. I just…" Cragen held up his hand to stop Elliot.
" I know Elliot. Hell, even Fin, Munch and Casey know. Anyone with half a brain can tell that you love her. Either way, we're going to get these guys. Now go home and get some rest." Cragen said, motioning for him to leave. Elliot thanked him and headed home.
But he couldn't sleep. He kept on going over in his mind the things he could've done differently. It must've been around 2 in the morning when his phone rang.
" Hey man, it's Fin. How you doing?"
" Eh, you know. I've been better. We all have. How about you? How're you holding up?"
On the other end of the line, Fin shrugged, keeping the emotion from his voice, but struggling to keep the tears from falling.
" I'm ok. It's just…rough, ya know? Livia's my little sister, I gotta watch out for her, keep her safe. I swore to myself, the second I knew she was here for good, I swore I'd never let anything happen to her. Now I've screwed up again." Fin said shakily. Elliot was silent for a minute. What did Fin mean by "again"?
" Want to talk about it?" Elliot asked cautiously. He wasn't usually the one they all went and talked to, normally it was Liv. But since she wasn't here, Elliot decided he'd be the next best thing. Fin took a deep breath and spoke again, a little more quietly this time.
" I was 3 years old when my little sister Emma was born. I didn't know much then, but I knew that I was her older brother, and I had to watch out for her. She looked up to me, and I loved that. Made me feel wanted. My mom never really liked me, and my dad died before I was 5. Anyway, I teased Emma like any other brother, but the second she had a problem with someone, I had her back. As she got older, she started hanging out with the wrong kids. Nearly got put into juvie because of it, but I managed to get her out of it. Then, when I was 16, she got raped. She never told anyone…" Fin paused, taking a shuddering breath.
" A month later, she committed suicide. All because of a fucking prick bastard who raped my little sister!" Fin said angrily.
" That's why you joined SVU?"
" Yeah. I screwed up with my sister, so now I've gotta do the next best thing and save Liv."
" Fin? Can I ask…"
" How I found out? She left a note. She had left school at lunch that day and came home. She left the note on the front table, where she knew I'd see it. She overdosed on my mom's sleeping pills." Fin took another deep breath, and tried hard to control his voice. He almost never let his emotions show, and didn't want to start now.
" Fin?"
" Yeah?"
" We're gonna get these bastards. We're gonna get them, and they're gonna be sorry that they ever ran into us."
Fin laughed. " Hey Elliot?"
" What's up?"
" Thanks man."
" Anytime Fin. See you tomorrow."
" Yeah. See ya."
Ok, so I know some of the things in there don't make sense, especially since Fin came to SVU after Liv, but that's why it's fiction. Raise your hand if you liked the Fin-ness!! -raises hand- Please R&R guys!!
Nell