-Rated R for- Drama, Language, Slash, Sexual Content
-Spoilers- All five books.
-Summery- This is a Harry/Draco fic that happens in the sixth year. Draco finds out that sometimes feelings are mixed up.
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Hidden Desires
Chapter 13
The Untouchable
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It hurts to be pushed away by the one that you care for. Rejection leaves you feeling ugly. It's like a flower that blooms to it's most beautiful state then come winter, it can't live. Winter breaks its will.
It hurts even more to be pushed away by the one that you love.
Draco walked silently through the halls of the Hogwarts School with that same broken will. The bitterness he felt for Harry was unbearable. It was the most embarrassing and painful feeling that had filled his existence. If he ever came face to face with Harry he had no idea what he would do. Maybe just stand there and stare at him without any words. Maybe he would curse madly at the other boy. Maybe he'd just walk past him and ignore him.
"I don't want you," are the words that had come so easily from Harry's mouth.
"I don't want you either," thought Draco.
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Cho and Pansy sat near the lake, hidden from view by thick shrubbery and several trees. Birds hopped around on the ground in search of worms and chirped joyfully. It was a very pleasant day for winter although a snowstorm was expected later in the evening.
"I have to ask you a question," said Cho quietly while twirling pieces of grass around her fingers.
"Shoot," responded Pansy while picking a wildflower and sticking it in her hair.
"Have you heard from Draco lately?" asked the Ravenclaw girl while adjusting the flower in Pansy's hair.
"I talked to him briefly lastnight. Apparently things have gone very sour."
Cho frowned, "What happened?"
"Draco avoided giving me all the facts but basically it sounded like he got uptight about something that Harry had said. Then that led to Harry saying that he wasn't ready for Draco or something along those lines," said Pansy. Her voice softened, "And you know, I really couldn't read the look on his face. I've never seen him look like that before though."
"Like what?"
"So sad."
Cho put her hand on Pansy's knee, "That will never happen to us," she said as if she was reassuring her companion.
"I know."
"Pansy? Pansy.. are you crying?" asked Cho, lifting Pansy's chin towards her. "You are!"
"No! No I'm not!" lied Pansy turning away, wiping a salty tear from her own cheek.
"What's the matter?"
Pansy avoided all eye contact with Cho as she lied again, "Nothing, just something in my eye!"
"I'm not stupid Pansy," Cho responded quietly.
"I know," Pansy said, diverting her eyes. "It's just.. Cho, I want you to know how much I really do care for you." Cho smiled revealing her very pearly white teeth. "And that.. When we first got to together it was because I was trying to get you away from Harry."
"What?" asked Cho, her smile fading darkly. "Why Pansy.." Before she could continue Pansy interuppted her.
"I'm sorry! That was a really low thing to do but what's worse is the fact that I grew to like you so much," said Pansy, leaning forward on her knees she framed Cho's face with her own hands, "I grew to love you, Cho. Honestly and deeply!"
Cho's dark eyes looked deep into Pansy's. Her bright smile returned, "I love you too, Pansy." These words brought a wide smile to the Slytherin girl's worried face.
And at that moment they embraced. An accidental love.
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The snow began to fall heavily outside, blanketing the normally dark ground with its eerie white cover. The Gryffindor Common Room was warm from the roaring fireplace and it smelled strongly of potpourri and peppermints.
"So you're not on speaking terms with him?" asked Ron in the softest possible voice to Harry.
Harry shook his head. "I told him I didn't want him," he responded looking down trodden.
Ron raised his light eyebrows slightly, "You didn't mean that though," he remarked.
"No," said Harry quickly, "No, I really didn't."
"But come on! What's the problem? Just go talk to her.. I mean, him."
Harry weakly grinned at Ron's slip of the tongue. "Easier said than done. What do you reckon' I would tell him?" he asked with a sigh.
Ron studied Harry for a moment then flung his hands into the air, "I say, you tell him what you told me. I mean, look how mad I was and I found a way to get around it. You know if you really love him, that is."
"I do."
"Then tell her.. him," Ron said with a mischievous smirk.
"Thank you, Ron," said Harry.
"Thank me for what? I didn't do anything.."
"You have!" exclaimed Harry, "You've really done well these past days with me. I know the concept is still hard for you accept, but you've been great. A real bestfriend."
Ron smiled at Harry with the most genuine smile that Harry had seen in a while.
It was good to have his old friend back.
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Harry knocked on the door lightly. A voice said, "Come in."
He walked into the man's office with a small smile on his face. He greeted him with a hello.
Lupin smiled at him. It wasn't his usual smile that would brighten up a room just because of the way it perfected his aging face. It was a tired smile from too much work and too little sleep.
"Am I interrupting anything?" asked Harry.
Lupin looked around the room then back at Harry. "No, not at the moment."
"Good," said Harry quickly, "Because I really have to ask you a question whether you want to answer me or not."
Lupin nodded gently, looking at Harry with piercing expression.
"How were you in my place? Like, who were you with?" asked Harry quickly glad to have gotten it out.
Lupin's face darkened as he looked down towards his desk. "It was a very good friend that I once had.."
"It was Sirius, wasn't it?" asked Harry.
The teacher looked up at his student who looked back at him with some kind of mixed expression of triumph and sadness.
At that moment they both knew and understood eachother better than they ever had before.
Remus and Sirius had once been in love.
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The end of Chapter 13!
Notes: This chapter was a bit shorter than usual and I am almost done with chapter 14 so that is going to be up as soon as possible.
Thanks for all the awesome reviews!
Please continue reviewing!
-Spoilers- All five books.
-Summery- This is a Harry/Draco fic that happens in the sixth year. Draco finds out that sometimes feelings are mixed up.
~*~
Hidden Desires
Chapter 13
The Untouchable
-
It hurts to be pushed away by the one that you care for. Rejection leaves you feeling ugly. It's like a flower that blooms to it's most beautiful state then come winter, it can't live. Winter breaks its will.
It hurts even more to be pushed away by the one that you love.
Draco walked silently through the halls of the Hogwarts School with that same broken will. The bitterness he felt for Harry was unbearable. It was the most embarrassing and painful feeling that had filled his existence. If he ever came face to face with Harry he had no idea what he would do. Maybe just stand there and stare at him without any words. Maybe he would curse madly at the other boy. Maybe he'd just walk past him and ignore him.
"I don't want you," are the words that had come so easily from Harry's mouth.
"I don't want you either," thought Draco.
-
Cho and Pansy sat near the lake, hidden from view by thick shrubbery and several trees. Birds hopped around on the ground in search of worms and chirped joyfully. It was a very pleasant day for winter although a snowstorm was expected later in the evening.
"I have to ask you a question," said Cho quietly while twirling pieces of grass around her fingers.
"Shoot," responded Pansy while picking a wildflower and sticking it in her hair.
"Have you heard from Draco lately?" asked the Ravenclaw girl while adjusting the flower in Pansy's hair.
"I talked to him briefly lastnight. Apparently things have gone very sour."
Cho frowned, "What happened?"
"Draco avoided giving me all the facts but basically it sounded like he got uptight about something that Harry had said. Then that led to Harry saying that he wasn't ready for Draco or something along those lines," said Pansy. Her voice softened, "And you know, I really couldn't read the look on his face. I've never seen him look like that before though."
"Like what?"
"So sad."
Cho put her hand on Pansy's knee, "That will never happen to us," she said as if she was reassuring her companion.
"I know."
"Pansy? Pansy.. are you crying?" asked Cho, lifting Pansy's chin towards her. "You are!"
"No! No I'm not!" lied Pansy turning away, wiping a salty tear from her own cheek.
"What's the matter?"
Pansy avoided all eye contact with Cho as she lied again, "Nothing, just something in my eye!"
"I'm not stupid Pansy," Cho responded quietly.
"I know," Pansy said, diverting her eyes. "It's just.. Cho, I want you to know how much I really do care for you." Cho smiled revealing her very pearly white teeth. "And that.. When we first got to together it was because I was trying to get you away from Harry."
"What?" asked Cho, her smile fading darkly. "Why Pansy.." Before she could continue Pansy interuppted her.
"I'm sorry! That was a really low thing to do but what's worse is the fact that I grew to like you so much," said Pansy, leaning forward on her knees she framed Cho's face with her own hands, "I grew to love you, Cho. Honestly and deeply!"
Cho's dark eyes looked deep into Pansy's. Her bright smile returned, "I love you too, Pansy." These words brought a wide smile to the Slytherin girl's worried face.
And at that moment they embraced. An accidental love.
-
The snow began to fall heavily outside, blanketing the normally dark ground with its eerie white cover. The Gryffindor Common Room was warm from the roaring fireplace and it smelled strongly of potpourri and peppermints.
"So you're not on speaking terms with him?" asked Ron in the softest possible voice to Harry.
Harry shook his head. "I told him I didn't want him," he responded looking down trodden.
Ron raised his light eyebrows slightly, "You didn't mean that though," he remarked.
"No," said Harry quickly, "No, I really didn't."
"But come on! What's the problem? Just go talk to her.. I mean, him."
Harry weakly grinned at Ron's slip of the tongue. "Easier said than done. What do you reckon' I would tell him?" he asked with a sigh.
Ron studied Harry for a moment then flung his hands into the air, "I say, you tell him what you told me. I mean, look how mad I was and I found a way to get around it. You know if you really love him, that is."
"I do."
"Then tell her.. him," Ron said with a mischievous smirk.
"Thank you, Ron," said Harry.
"Thank me for what? I didn't do anything.."
"You have!" exclaimed Harry, "You've really done well these past days with me. I know the concept is still hard for you accept, but you've been great. A real bestfriend."
Ron smiled at Harry with the most genuine smile that Harry had seen in a while.
It was good to have his old friend back.
-
Harry knocked on the door lightly. A voice said, "Come in."
He walked into the man's office with a small smile on his face. He greeted him with a hello.
Lupin smiled at him. It wasn't his usual smile that would brighten up a room just because of the way it perfected his aging face. It was a tired smile from too much work and too little sleep.
"Am I interrupting anything?" asked Harry.
Lupin looked around the room then back at Harry. "No, not at the moment."
"Good," said Harry quickly, "Because I really have to ask you a question whether you want to answer me or not."
Lupin nodded gently, looking at Harry with piercing expression.
"How were you in my place? Like, who were you with?" asked Harry quickly glad to have gotten it out.
Lupin's face darkened as he looked down towards his desk. "It was a very good friend that I once had.."
"It was Sirius, wasn't it?" asked Harry.
The teacher looked up at his student who looked back at him with some kind of mixed expression of triumph and sadness.
At that moment they both knew and understood eachother better than they ever had before.
Remus and Sirius had once been in love.
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The end of Chapter 13!
Notes: This chapter was a bit shorter than usual and I am almost done with chapter 14 so that is going to be up as soon as possible.
Thanks for all the awesome reviews!
Please continue reviewing!