-Rated R for- Drama, Language, Slash, Sexual Content
-Spoilers- All five books.
-Summery- This is a Harry/Draco fic that happens in the sixth year. Draco finds out that sometimes feelings are mixed up.
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Hidden Desires
Chapter 14
Memories of You
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Harry sat there not sure of what to say to his teacher after this striking revelation. They sat in silence avoiding each other's eyes. But somehow, this brought them together. Harry wasn't sure why but this new understanding opened up in front of his eyes. He couldn't help to be curious about it and wonder what had happened and wonder how it had all began. He even wondered if his father knew.
"How did.." Lupin began. He paused and looked at Harry in the eyes, "How did you know?"
Harry noticed the expression on Lupin's face. It was indescribable. He felt this rushing guilt for mentioning Sirus to Lupin, but he somehow knew that it was something that would have had to been brought up eventually. After all, it really wasn't Harry's fault that Lupin kept telling him that he had been in a similar situation.
"I don't know," replied Harry truthfully. He really wasn't sure how he had come to the conclusion. Maybe because when he had seen his godfather and Lupin together, there was this connection that you could not ignore. When their eyes met it was like sparks would go off.
"I just knew," said Harry. Lupin nodded then looked away. Harry could not tell for sure but he could have sworn that for maybe just an instance, he could see a tear form in the corner of the teacher's eye. He wouldn't ever mention it though.
"It gets extremely difficult," said Lupin softly, his voice cracking slightly. "You begin hating yourself for every argument and every moment that you could have been together, that you weren't. And you wake up at nights thinking that someone is still going to be there and.. Oh, I shouldn't be telling this to you, Harry."
"It's all right," said the boy, biting his lower lip. "I understand." Lupin smiled weakly.
"Maybe you do," said the teacher. "But you're still young and things have just begun for you."
"I guess you're right," said Harry.
"I am."
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It was a new day and it felt like he was sitting in this wasteland alone. Hated, unwanted, and maybe even forgotten. For every void that was now in his heart was filled with resent. Nothing could heal him now. He wanted to take the easy way out. He knew it was foolish and drastic but he wanted this aching pain to stop. He wanted to be mended and perfected into a numb person with no memory of his past excruciatingly embarrassing days with a boy named Harry Potter.
But with all the hatred that he felt for Harry, he found the same equal amount of love that could not be pushed aside. This made him even more angry with himself. Even after such rejection he still found it in his heart to have this fools' love. The prospect of being alone was settling in more and more after each minute that had passed. And even though he was sure that things would not change between him and Harry, he still felt as if there was a hint of hope left. That maybe, something would happen like a change of heart. He knew that this was probably impossible but he didn't want to let go of it.
This was the only thing in his life that he refused to say goodbye to.
It was a beautiful morning with sheets of snow piling up inches upon inches on the frozen Hogwarts' grounds. No matter how awful you felt inside, you couldn't ignore how lovely everything was outside.
Though the cold out there couldn't match the cold that was inside him, for some reason it was so tempting to Draco. He had to take a walk through the snow.
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"Look Pansy," said Cho while sitting at a desk near a window in her dorm room. Pansy lay on her bed still half asleep but her eyes fluttered opened at the sound of her name.
"What?" she said while attempting to stifle a yawn.
"Draco is outside!" responded the Ravenclaw girl, crawling on top of her desk to get a better look at the boy. Pansy immediately jumped up and ran over to the window to take a look. "Oh, if only we could get Harry out there!"
"Maybe we can!" said Pansy filled with excitement.
"How?" asked Cho glancing back and forth between Pansy and Draco wading through the snow.
"Send him an owl!" Pansy said quickly.
"What do we say though?"
"The truth."
"What?" asked Cho looking dumbfounded.
"The truth, I said!" Pansy exclaimed still filled with excitement from the prospect of getting Harry and Draco back together. "The truth is enough to get him out there."
"Do you really think so?"
"I do."
At this, the Slytherin girl grabbed a quill and a piece of parchment and began scribbling madly while Cho leaned over her silently mouthing what she was writing.
When Pansy finished she lifted up the parchment and read over it quickly with an expression of victory upon her face. "Now to the Owlery," she announced.
The left the room at top speed, running down the hallways. Some would compare them to the running of the bulls in Pamplona as they knocked over a several younger and smaller students on their way to the Owlery.
"Crazy girls!" or, "Are you insane! Watch where you're going!" a few of the students would yell. They didn't listen or care.
They reached the Owlery and Cho immediately began sneezing. "Allergies," she said while on the verge of another messy sneeze which caused a few alarmed owls to scatter.
Pansy attached the letter to an owl hoping that it would be delivered fast. "Send this to Harry Potter as quick as you possibly can!" she said as the owl immediately took flight and disappeared out the nearest window.
She wiped her hands on her own shirt and said, "I think we did our good deed."
Cho giggled, "I believe that we did!"
They left the Owlery hand in hand. After all, why would they care about what people saw?
They were in love.
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The end of Chapter 14!
The next chapter is going to be up very soon!
Thank you for all the great reviews! Please continue reviewing!
-Spoilers- All five books.
-Summery- This is a Harry/Draco fic that happens in the sixth year. Draco finds out that sometimes feelings are mixed up.
~*~
Hidden Desires
Chapter 14
Memories of You
-
Harry sat there not sure of what to say to his teacher after this striking revelation. They sat in silence avoiding each other's eyes. But somehow, this brought them together. Harry wasn't sure why but this new understanding opened up in front of his eyes. He couldn't help to be curious about it and wonder what had happened and wonder how it had all began. He even wondered if his father knew.
"How did.." Lupin began. He paused and looked at Harry in the eyes, "How did you know?"
Harry noticed the expression on Lupin's face. It was indescribable. He felt this rushing guilt for mentioning Sirus to Lupin, but he somehow knew that it was something that would have had to been brought up eventually. After all, it really wasn't Harry's fault that Lupin kept telling him that he had been in a similar situation.
"I don't know," replied Harry truthfully. He really wasn't sure how he had come to the conclusion. Maybe because when he had seen his godfather and Lupin together, there was this connection that you could not ignore. When their eyes met it was like sparks would go off.
"I just knew," said Harry. Lupin nodded then looked away. Harry could not tell for sure but he could have sworn that for maybe just an instance, he could see a tear form in the corner of the teacher's eye. He wouldn't ever mention it though.
"It gets extremely difficult," said Lupin softly, his voice cracking slightly. "You begin hating yourself for every argument and every moment that you could have been together, that you weren't. And you wake up at nights thinking that someone is still going to be there and.. Oh, I shouldn't be telling this to you, Harry."
"It's all right," said the boy, biting his lower lip. "I understand." Lupin smiled weakly.
"Maybe you do," said the teacher. "But you're still young and things have just begun for you."
"I guess you're right," said Harry.
"I am."
_
It was a new day and it felt like he was sitting in this wasteland alone. Hated, unwanted, and maybe even forgotten. For every void that was now in his heart was filled with resent. Nothing could heal him now. He wanted to take the easy way out. He knew it was foolish and drastic but he wanted this aching pain to stop. He wanted to be mended and perfected into a numb person with no memory of his past excruciatingly embarrassing days with a boy named Harry Potter.
But with all the hatred that he felt for Harry, he found the same equal amount of love that could not be pushed aside. This made him even more angry with himself. Even after such rejection he still found it in his heart to have this fools' love. The prospect of being alone was settling in more and more after each minute that had passed. And even though he was sure that things would not change between him and Harry, he still felt as if there was a hint of hope left. That maybe, something would happen like a change of heart. He knew that this was probably impossible but he didn't want to let go of it.
This was the only thing in his life that he refused to say goodbye to.
It was a beautiful morning with sheets of snow piling up inches upon inches on the frozen Hogwarts' grounds. No matter how awful you felt inside, you couldn't ignore how lovely everything was outside.
Though the cold out there couldn't match the cold that was inside him, for some reason it was so tempting to Draco. He had to take a walk through the snow.
-
"Look Pansy," said Cho while sitting at a desk near a window in her dorm room. Pansy lay on her bed still half asleep but her eyes fluttered opened at the sound of her name.
"What?" she said while attempting to stifle a yawn.
"Draco is outside!" responded the Ravenclaw girl, crawling on top of her desk to get a better look at the boy. Pansy immediately jumped up and ran over to the window to take a look. "Oh, if only we could get Harry out there!"
"Maybe we can!" said Pansy filled with excitement.
"How?" asked Cho glancing back and forth between Pansy and Draco wading through the snow.
"Send him an owl!" Pansy said quickly.
"What do we say though?"
"The truth."
"What?" asked Cho looking dumbfounded.
"The truth, I said!" Pansy exclaimed still filled with excitement from the prospect of getting Harry and Draco back together. "The truth is enough to get him out there."
"Do you really think so?"
"I do."
At this, the Slytherin girl grabbed a quill and a piece of parchment and began scribbling madly while Cho leaned over her silently mouthing what she was writing.
When Pansy finished she lifted up the parchment and read over it quickly with an expression of victory upon her face. "Now to the Owlery," she announced.
The left the room at top speed, running down the hallways. Some would compare them to the running of the bulls in Pamplona as they knocked over a several younger and smaller students on their way to the Owlery.
"Crazy girls!" or, "Are you insane! Watch where you're going!" a few of the students would yell. They didn't listen or care.
They reached the Owlery and Cho immediately began sneezing. "Allergies," she said while on the verge of another messy sneeze which caused a few alarmed owls to scatter.
Pansy attached the letter to an owl hoping that it would be delivered fast. "Send this to Harry Potter as quick as you possibly can!" she said as the owl immediately took flight and disappeared out the nearest window.
She wiped her hands on her own shirt and said, "I think we did our good deed."
Cho giggled, "I believe that we did!"
They left the Owlery hand in hand. After all, why would they care about what people saw?
They were in love.
-
The end of Chapter 14!
The next chapter is going to be up very soon!
Thank you for all the great reviews! Please continue reviewing!