Lillys POV

I was home now sitting in rosies room holding old stuffed animals letting my tears over flow my mind.I could feel my greay world coming again.My eyes went blurry I feel my head crash against the carpet as my world turns to grey once again...

9 hours later

I like it here...It takes me away from my pain...My world where I practically killed my little sister!If only I wouldnt have sat heri n the front I knew toddlers can't sit in the front because of the air bags but I let her anyways.Im stupid...My grey world is all I have the only place I feel semi safe.I can feel the world around me but I can't hear it...I can't smell it or see it.I don't want to all the sadness out there is scary.My mother is in a state of deep depression.My father hasn't moved since I came home from the hospital...he just lays on the couch all day starring at the ciling talking to the sky...I think he is talking to Rosie.I feel guilt rush over my body just thinking about Rosie made my grey world darker.My breath is ab-normal and my throught hurts like hell.I don't know why I always am here it feels like im always here I never see Miley anymore because im in comas.I don't even know if you can call them that I meen I can control my thoughts and stuff it isnt like im dead asleep.Whatever i is I don't mind so much being here.

Next day

My eyes open as the grey world turns blurry and then my world is bright again...Bright Ihate brightness it makes me think of being happy...Rosie was always happy.I turn around and see Miley sitting next to me starring at me like im on display.

"Miley?"

"Lilly are you ok?Why do you keep leaving...I can't stand watching you fade in and out anymore it hurts me."Tears fall from her eyes.

"I need to fade out right know Miley I can't take the pain of the world right know."I said and walked over and hugged her.

"But I love you and I can't stand watching you fade I want you to be solid."

Did she just say she loves me?

"Love?"I said and looked at her teary eyes.She nods slowly and pulls me into a kiss.

I have found another place I feel Safe in Mileys arms.I kiss back feeling her warm lips lock with mine.I need to breath but im afriad to let go.I finally pull back and my face turns red Here we go again my world is spinning Mileys getting blurry.

"Lilly no!!!"I hear Miley say

As my world turns to grey...