Title: As Speech Disappears Into Silence
Author: LittleLottexoxEriksTrueAngel
Chapter Five: When I First Saw You
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A/N: This chapter should answer some of your questions……………………………….
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Angrily Erik hissed, "You shall never see beneath Erik's mask, Christine."
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Christine's eyes widened. What had she been thinking? Trying to remove his mask?!?!
Immediately, she began to back away, but his grip remained firm. He stood, towering over her, and pulled her closer to his body. Her other wrist found its way into his grasp and he shook her hard.
"Do you want to see, Christine?" He hissed. "Do you want to see what a monster I truly am?"
She shook her head over and over, silent tears streaming down her pale cheeks.
Something inside of Erik snapped.
Roughly, he threw a dazed, stunned, scared and confused Christine to the ground. She watched him for a moment, fearful that he would do something else, that he would hurt her.
Erik stared at Christine, a strange, unknown look upon his masked face.
Christine scrambled to her feet and tearfully scurried out of the room…as Erik just stood there.
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When I first saw you
I said "O My", I said "O
My"
That's a dream
That's my dream
I needed a dream
When it all seemed to go bad
Then I found you
And I have
had the most beautiful dreams any mans ever had
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Erik stood rooted at the spot continuing to stare. Christine had fled hours ago, not that he could blame her.
He sank to his knees in agony. Oh, Christine….he thought. My Christine….
What the hell am I doing? He wondered.
Erik had no idea anymore.
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When I first saw you
I said "O My", "O My"
That's my dream
That's my dream
I needed a dream
To
make me strong
You were the only reason I had to go on
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Erik sat at his desk, his head resting in his hands.
On the way to his study, he had passed by Christine's bedroom. She had been crying. He had heard her! His Christine had been crying! And it had been entirely his fault!
Why did it have to come to this? Erik wondered to himself. Why did everything good in his life have to be so difficult?
Of course, he knew the answer.
His face.
His wretched, poor excuse for a face.
The face of a monster.
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Christine ran from the dining room as quickly as possible. How could she have been so stupid?
"Nice move, Christine." She scolded herself, as she pulled the jewels off of her person and onto the dresser. Her dress followed, landing on the floor.
Wearing only in a light shift, she shuffled around the room, looking through all of the drawers until she located a pale pink nightgown.
After slipping it over her head, she collapsed onto her bed and began to sob.
The night's dinner had officially ended life as she knew it.
It was hours before the distraught, young, woman fell into a fitful slumber.
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A half empty bottle of whiskey lay open on his desk.
So, it has come to this? He thought, eyeing the bottle in disdain. She has driven you to the drink! That insufferable girl!
Why can't she just love me?
Nadirs recent words echoed through his head. "Do you think that she could ever learn to love you, Erik? After what you made her do?"
But she will learn to love me! Fear can turn to love! She'll learn to see me! She will discover the man who is behind this monster!
"How long before she sees…and she will eventually see it Erik, and runs from you?"
No, she could never learn to love a beast.
A lone tear trailed down Erik's visible cheek. If I can't love her…
Erik picked up the short, glass he had been drinking from and threw it against the wall in anger and in disgust, his drunken thoughts consumed with memories of the night when he had first seen the lovely Christine.
The night that sealed both of their fates.
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You were my dream
All the things I never knew
You were my
dream
Who could believe they could ever come true
And who
would believe
The world would believe
And my dreams too
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It had been an unusually warm spring day. Erik had been traveling around for business, and he, along with a few other men (Nadir included), had stopped in the small town of Perros to stay at an inn for the night.
It was a bad town, which was a common fact known throughout the land, but still they chanced it, and secured rooms at the local inn.
It had been obvious upon their arrival that there was a festival of some sort going on amongst the peasants who lived in the town.
Almost everyone had been out on the streets that day. But, that had not been where he spotted her.
After the day's festivities had ended many of the locals headed to the inn to continue in their celebrations. Many a man and many a woman gathered to hear music.
Erik and the others were seated at the back of the room and watched the evening's activities with amusement. Well, all except Erik. His ears were bleeding!
Most of the performances had been somewhat painful to Erik. Not a one had any obvious musical training and were less than mediocre.
All but one.
Once a round of clapping had concluded, a voice called out, "Sing something for us, Christine!!"
Another cried, "Yes! You must sing something for us all, Christine!"
There was a round of Yes, Please Do's and Sing Christine's.
"I do not think so." Was the response. The voice was utterly beautiful. It was Angelic and perfect. "Not tonight, anyway."
She is an angel!
"Oh, Chrissie…" A child whined but Erik did not hear it for he had been watching Christine. He knew then that he had to have her.
"Alright, alright." The angel laughed. "One, short, little song."
"Yay!!!!!!!!" Someone squealed.
Christine opened her mouth in song and the most beautiful sound was exposed.
"There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that
I've tried to write
over and over again
I'm awake in the
infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again
So
I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only
yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only
hope
Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy
dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my
dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have
for me
over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my
hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I
know now you're my only hope
I give you my destiny
I'm
giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I
am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back
So I lay my
head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I
pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're
my only hope"
Wild applause sounded throughout the room.
Erik stared at the angel in awe.
She had captivated him with her song.
My own little siren, he thought.
His cold heart had soften and filled with love for her. He knew he could never find another like her.
He resolved in that moment that Christine would be his and nothing and no one would stand in his way.
She was his dream…his everything.
His…
…Now, then, and forever.
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When I first saw you
I said "O My", "O My"
That's my dream
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The whiskey bottle came next, exploding against the wall in a mix of glass and liquid.
I was so captivated by my little songbird that I soon learned all that I could about her. It had not been long before I found out about her father's illness. Which I then took advantage of and forced her to come here. I forced her to trade her life's for her father's. I've locked her up here. Erik thought bitterly. I've taken a flower from the sunlight.
And my flower will wilt in this darkness…
Drunk, not only on alcohol, but drunk on love, he did not care. All he wanted was her.
No matter the cost.
With a sigh, he rose from his chair and made his way to the door. He needed rest.
Christine's first lesson was in the morning and he wouldn't want to be late…
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A/N: Okay…the lyrics that I inserted into this chapter is 'When I First Saw You' from Dreamgirls. I thought about it while I was writing this chapter and I had to put it in. It is such a beautiful and romantic song. (Note: The version I used is the version performed by Jamie Foxx in the movie)
Also, the song Christine sings is the song Mandy Moore performs in the movie A Walk To Remember, called Only Yours. This is another beautiful song.
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