Yay, I got 6 reviews this time. I'm going to try to post another chapter today or tomorrow so I made this one really short because it's Edward's POV.
Reviews :
SymphonyRain
Lola422
Thank you, I'm glad you enjoy the story.
tinkapjill40
I loved your idea for the dialogue hihi I wish Bella could be more like that.
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Librarian
You guessed right where I'm going with this ;)
jacobblacklover24
Sorry but Edward will be in the story, it's why I put ExB JxB in the summary but keep reading maybe I won't be so cruel with Jake. ;)
chinmayee
Thank you for your honesty, I know my writing has big flaws, but a girl got to start somewhere and I'm still adjusting to English it's really different from French. I hope you'll like where I'm going with this story.
In the Dark
I went against my better judgement when I decided to visit her. I wasn't afraid of waking her. I was afraid of myself. I was so weak when it concerned her. She was both my strength and weakness. Letting her go had been the more difficult thing I ever had to do. When I reached the foot of her bed, her scent hit me. It was the sweetest thing. She seemed so peaceful; her perfect face expressionless; her pale skin glowing in the moonlight.
I wished for a moment that I could just lie beside her and take her in my arms like I used to. I missed just holding her and watching her sleep. My body used to feel alive against her warm skin. Now it was numb. I had ripped my heart out to let her go and now all I wanted was to wake her, apologize for all the awful things I had said and ask beg her to take me back. But I couldn't. I would never be good enough for an angel like her. She deserved someone with no darkness upon him. I would forever be lurking in the dark.
When I had encountered the wolf in the woods, I'd been really surprised. I didn't know a new pack had been formed. Now I understood they were the only reason Bella was still alive. I would never forgive myself for leaving her in such danger. But it was over now and I needed to leave soon. Before dawn in fact. I could not stay longer and be tempted to be weak again. I was just a vampire in love. It was a blessing that she had been unconscious. This way, she would never know I'd been here and I would never have to face the hate in her eyes. I turned to look at her desk; nothing had changed during my absence. A little drawing on her math homework attracted my attention. It was a little broken heart. Names had been written in it but she had erased them. Her breathing became suddenly uneven. I heard her panting, struggling with some horrible nightmare. It killed me no to be able to do anything. I hid in the dark when she woke up screaming.
"Why Edward; why?" She breathed softly. I froze, did she know I was in here? Her voice was so sad but so beautiful. "Why did you come back if you don't care for me." She added, tears pouring out of her eyes. I felt my heart breaking at her words. "Are you dead or just too selfish to understand that I need to see you?" She continued. I was now sure she had no idea I was in the room with her. I realised she knew I was in Forks. She knew I had gone after Victoria. To her I was either too dead or too selfish to pay her the visit she seemed to want so desperately. Maybe if she thought I was dead it would be for the best. "It would kill me if I found out you were dead Edward." She exhaled before her breathing became even again. Maybe I needed to face her and give her closure. Maybe. Would I be able to leave if I saw her again?