Okay Chapter 10, I wrote this before even writing the beginning and I wanted to fix it up and make it longer but as you will see it's not a very positive chapter so I'm posting it anyway.

crystalwolfberri
2008-01-22
ch 9,

Yay ! Thanks for your review keep reading and keep reviewing because I love it.

tinkapjill40
2008-01-22
ch 9,

I love your reviews so I'm going to give you time in between chapters so you can review all of them. MOUHAHAHA I'm evil.

chinmayee
2008-01-22
ch 9,

I'm glad that you liked it ;)

School Librarian
2008-01-22
ch 9,

Everything will come in time très chère. (Promise it's soon ;))

jacobblacklover24
2008-01-22
ch 9,

If Bella doesn't stay with him you can have him ;) What's your name so I can be sure to give him to the right girl ? ;)

Chapter 10 - Torn

We broke apart reluctantly but I knew it couldn't last. I was with Jake and he was, well, he was not in love with me.

"Bella I'm sorry…" He started his voice bringing memories of the day he'd left back to the surface.

"Please don't apologize." I didn't him to stand there and apologize for kissing me, for leaving me because I wasn't the right one for him. I already knew all of that. And yet.. I had hoped… but I was a fool for ever hoping he'd be back to tell me he loved me. It was very foolish of me.

I tried to look casual, like I hadn't just kissed my one true love, like he had never left me taking the pieces of my heart with him, like I didn't care. I needed to say something; I didn't want him to think I was actually hoping he would stay with me, that he loved me. I knew better.

"I just wanted you to know you're safe now. Victoria is dead."

"Thanks I guess, does that mean you'll leave soon." I asked trying to sound detached. I saw in his eyes what he was about to answer and decided to speak first. "Just so you know, I have a new life now, you can't just come back and mess with it."

I made it sound harsh so that he knew I was mad at him. 'Why, why now? Why did you come back NOW, why do you have to leave again, why.' A big knot in my throat forbidding me to speak again, I just stared at his angelic face. I could tell he was hurt.

"I'm with Jacob now." I waited for his reaction. I didn't know what I was waiting for.

"Jacob." He stated struggling to say his name. "He is a werewolf isn't he?" He was clearly trying to keep his voice even but I sensed the edge of angriness in it.

"Yeah, so?" All his muscles were tensed, he was almost shaking, fist dangerously closed. But he kept is comments for himself because he took a deep breath and stared at me blankly. His eyes were black. Minutes passed by, hours maybe, it was so hard to keep track of time in a moment like this.

"I'm happy you moved on Bella." He said faintly.

'What, you are HAPPY? You were my true love, my everything, my soul mate. I hate you for leaving me.' I felt tears filling my eyes but I never said the word burning my tongue, I never admitted to him that I hated him for leaving because I was still hurt by his absence every second of every day. Instead I just said a lie.

"I'm happy I moved on too."

Ridiculous how easy it was to say it even if it was the most outrageous lie I had ever said. How ironic that I knew how to lie only when it hurt me the most. He would leave, I would make him. This way I would never have to face the temptation of falling again, of leaving Jacob. If I left him, considering that he had imprinted on me, it would kill him and I would never put him through that. 'I wouldn't.' I was a fool only trying to convince myself. If Edward was to beg me and tell me he never stopped loving me like I imagined he would so often, I would go to him. Painful truth was that I still loved him. Truly, madly, deeply and he didn't love me back. Not enough to stay with me anyway.