Thanks for the reviews, I'm in a hurry so I'll answer to them later. Hope you'll like it, I was feeling guilty about last chapter.
Ice
'I thought I would be strong enough to stand it but I'm not.' I admitted to myself. 'I left her for her own good; I wanted her to live a normal life, to be happy. Now she is with him. I have lost my one true love to a werewolf, who has even more chances to kill her by accident than me and who won't age at all like me. Stupid me. I was so blind I never saw that she wasn't the normal girl type. 'I would do anything to have her back, I love her so much.' If I still had a beating heart it would have stopped the moment she told me she was in love with a werewolf. She is so beautiful and me so hollow without my Bella. 'Too bad for me, she's not mine anymore and never will be again.' When I think of her smile when I first played her the lullaby or of her eyes glimmering in the shadows of her warm bed, it makes me sick. 'I lost her for nothing.' It was the awful truth I would have to live with for the rest of eternity.
I decided that I would leave as soon as possible but as I lay on the grass of the meadow, our meadow, I couldn't resist the urge of seeing her one last time, to make sure she was happy. The kiss we'd shared had awakened my heart; I couldn't let her go without another glance to her perfect face. 'Stop it you fool.' But I was a fool very much in love so I got up to go check on her. I got to her house and realised with disgust that he was with her. His smell was revolting me and ruined the sweet scent of my Bella. I was a little relieved when I saw them talking in the living room instead of in her bedroom. I didn't know if I could have stand the sight of them in the bed we'd shared so many times.
I had to be enormously careful. I had to make sure the wind was blowing in the right direction so that he wouldn't smell my scent. But his own was coming so strongly towards me it was easy figuring out where the wind came from. I knew Bella would be even madder at me if she ever found out but I didn't care. I was ashamed of myself for not respecting her privacy but I wasn't thinking straight anymore. My sensitive vampire ears allowed me to get the conversation. It was so dark I wasn't worrying about them seeing me. "It was nothing I promised." Bella said in a rush. I guessed she was talking about me. She was right, I was nothing worth mentioning. "Don't lie to me Bella you entire body reeks vampire." Jacob replied angrily. I wanted to kill the boy, didn't he see she was hurt by his behaviour? "He comes back after breaking you and you threw yourself in his bloodsucking arms." The dog barked at her. 'She was into pieces when he left and she still feels for him, how can she, she should be mine. The leech sure put a spell on her. No one in their right mind would run towards pain like that.' His thoughts were rushing through his brain.
'Bella did I really break your heart?' I asked myself. I thought she would be over me in no time after all I was only a mistake nature had made, a monster. "Jake please, I lost control I thought he was dead. He killed Victoria." She said defending herself. 'I don't care if he killed all his kind, it's him I want dead.' I was getting angrier by the minute. I couldn't figure out yet what details she'd said to him. The reminiscence of her lips against mine was almost tangible to me. I could still feel the warmth of her body and her soul completing mine. It was because of the kiss that I was still here. I didn't know what I was hoping for, that she would say she still loved me. Improbable since she hated me.
"Please Jake say something." She pleaded. "Are you still in love with him." He asked and I stopped breathing. 'If you do I'll track him down and kill him.' I almost laughed at this, I would like to see him try this way maybe I could kill him without being the bad guy. I wished I could hear Bella's thought like never before went she stayed silent for what felt like an eternity. "Jake I'm with you now and you've imprinted on me. I love you, I won't leave you." My sweet angel breathed softly while what was left of my heart got swept away and my being turned numb again. She had really moved on. There was no reason for me to stay in Forks or even in this world. 'After this I'll never be able to admit to her I never imprinted. Doesn't change a thing, what she doesn't know won't hurt her. Anything to keep her away from that monster.' My heart became as cold as ice when I caught this thought. The bastard would pay.