Ok you'll hate me at the end of this chapter but it was the longest I could managed to do.

Reviews :

iloveEDWARDbby

You can go on ;) I love long reviews

SymphonyRain

I'm trying really hard to update a lot ;)
To answer your question, it depends. I'm not a Bella I'm afraid. Perhaps I'm more like Rosalie (though I do not look like her at all) but again Rosalie have a really hot temper so maybe more like Angela (though it's less exciting) hihi ;)

tinkapjill40

Lovely review keep writing long reviews pleasse ;) Since I don't want Jacob to be a total jerk in this story, I will give him a chance but not because he deserves it

LeighK81

Keep reading !

likeiwouldevertellyou

Yes I considered having a beta I used to have one couple sof years ago but it's so hard to find enough time to write, if I add another person schedule to the mix I will never update.

jacobblacklover24

Arghh, you guessed why I asked you your name ! Well wait maybe I'll do something unexpected with it.

jacobblacklover24

I'm being nice with him as much as I can

abzz

Thanks :)

Kanamelover

I don't know yet if I'll be able to grant your request, just read and see

crystalwolfberri

School Librarian
2008-02-10
ch 14,

Here it comes

Confessions

Edward's declaration seemed so unreal in the morning light. If it hadn't been for my sweet lullaby still playing I would have thought it was all a dream. I stretched in my bed, trying to postpone the inevitable agony I know I would feel if I had to get up and actually choosing between my vampire and my werewolf. Edward had left me. He said that it was all for my own happiness but what if a part of him needed to get away from me? Then he would leave again soon. But if Edward was telling the truth, could I resist him forever? Would I end up cheating on Jacob more than I already did? 'I could tell him to go away.' But as soon as I thought it I knew I would never tell Edward to go away. But again, I could never leave Jacob. I didn't really know all the details about imprinting but it surely would kill him if he was to see me in Edward's arms. Edward would be fine on his own. I knew he didn't really need me. I longed for him, but what if he was to leave me again? On the other hand, Jacob would not grow old with me. Edward would never be older but he could change me… but he wouldn't. I signed in despair as a monumental headache prevented me from doing anything but stare to the ceiling.

I was really surprised when I heard the distinctive thud of little rocks crashing against my window. It was odd, Jake had agreed on seeing me only later in the afternoon. I opened my window. The sun was out today. 'Edward won't be able to watch over me.' I thought disappointingly. "Bells can you come out?" My actual boyfriend asked with a weird look on his face. "Coming." I dressed unwillingly and made my way to him with a fake smile on my face. He captured me in his arms and kissed me passionately. I was surprised and a little reluctant since yesterday's fight but it was nice to just feel loved and not think of anything else so I gave in. "Bells I have something important to say." He said breaking the kiss. I waited patiently, as long as he didn't ask me for answers I was willing to listen for whatever he would like to say.

"Bells I love you." Jake exhaled, his arms tightening around me. Why everyone around me were saying these beautiful words when I didn't deserved them. I felt a lone tear roll on my cheek. He loved me so much and yet I was torn between him and Edward. "I love you too, what with the sad face?" I asked trying to sound normal. I was worried he figured out Edward hadn't left and that he would ask me to make a choice right now. "Bells I have something to confess to you but I want you to keep an open mind, please." He begged. Okay now I was beyond worried, what was going on? "Bells you remember the night I told you I'd imprinted on you?" He trailed off. I really didn't know where he was going with this so I just nodded. He seemed uncomfortable that I wasn't saying anything like he hoped that we would have rambled on longer before getting to the point. "Bells I was wrong, I didn't really imprint on you." His eyes were glued to the floor. I was totally lost.

"You didn't really imprint on me?" I repeated, shocked. My heart was jumping in my chest. "How did you find out I mean did you imprint on somebody else?" My voice was all high and squeaky now. I couldn't understand how he could have mistaken his love for imprinting and why did he realised it now? He sighed deeply, his eyes looked so sad and clouded with guilt. Wait guilt? "Bells I knew all along I'm sorry." My mind took about 30 seconds to register this piece of information. My eyes widened in shock. I harshly put myself away from his. "You lied to me?" I could tell he was torn apart but I didn't care. He had lied to me when I was most fragile, he used it to convince me I belonged to him and I had almost believed it. If looks could kill, he would have burned on the spot. He tried to take my hand back but I hit him instead. "Bells please I know it was wrong I wish you would forgive me." I cut him off. "Forgive you? Wait you think that I'll understand that you lied to me about it because you loved me and that it's all okay?" I screamed at him. I felt so betrayed. He was supposed to be my best friend, to take care of me. "Just so you know, Edward visited me in my bedroom last night." I don't know why I said that, it implied so much more than what really happened but I wanted to hurt him so that it would chase off the sheepish look he had on his face. His reacted immediately. He was getting angry too and it seemed so much easier to be angry than to face the pain. "The filthy leech is responsible for all of this; he would like to have a little more fun with his pet I guess." He growled bitterly. Before I knew what I was doing I slapped him. "How dare you?" I hissed.