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It's all about love
I would be lying if I said that I felt guilty about slapping him. I mean he had just called me a pet; like Edward considered me to be so beneath him. But I admit the violence had calmed me down a little. Jacob betrayed my trust. I didn't have a second to feel the tears coming that they were already pouring out. All this time I thought fate had given me a second chance it was really just a lie. He didn't even realise what he had done. "Am I that expendable to you so that you could use me before you imprint?" I sobbed. It was unfair and I knew it. I mean, deep down I knew he hadn't done it to hurt me but it didn't excuse anything. He tried to take me in his arms to comfort me but I pulled away. "I'm sorry Bells, I wish I could make it better, I wish I could go back in time and…" "But you can't." I interrupted him. I dried my tears as much as I could manage. "I need time to think." I stated refusing to look at him. He sighed. "Bells I don't want to leave you alone like this." He tried to follow me when I walked back into the house but I closed the door. "Bella, please, I love you." He begged. I just wanted him to go away. "This…" I waved my hand between him and me. "This, it's not love." I slammed the door closed again and fell to the floor. I was so sad, so angry. My heart was jumping, my body shacking, my cheeks soaked. If it wasn't as bad as when Edward had left, it was near. Edward, just thinking about him made it a little hard to bear and before I could stop myself I did what I had been dying to do since last night. "Edward." I whispered.
Before I knew it I was pressed against a hard body and encircled by one strong, cold pair of arms. I drowned myself in his scent not trying to find my way to the surface. I don't know how he got me to lay down on my bed but I remember asking him to hold me. Nestled in his arms I could feel peace again. I was home. I didn't know how long it'd been since this morning. "Where is he?" I breathed. "He's been gone for a while but he smelled me and he didn't look so thrilled about it." I looked into his eyes. He looked worried. About me and how I would react. I could swear there was hope in his eyes. I was amazed to see he hadn't lie, that he was really just a whisper away and that he loved me. It seemed too good to be true.
He brushed the side of my face softly. We were face to face now he was no longer holding me. We just stared into each other eyes. Just like that I found myself falling again. I found myself tracing his handsome feature with my hand. He was real. He kissed my hand and I shivered. His skin was deliciously cold, calming my body, my soul. It was like we were frozen in silence. I could see the hope growing in his eyes. I let myself reach out to put my lips on his. Then it became crystal clear to me. Why Jacob had lied, why Edward had left. It was all about love. I had failed in fooling myself; I was still in love with Edward. I had been all along and no matter how hard I would try to move on I never would. The phone rang and startled us. I tried to come back to reality and in a second Edward was handing me the phone. "Hello." My voice was all weird. "Are you okay Bella." Charlie. "Yes dad why?" I tried to sound casual. Charlie wasn't used to call me something was off. "Well, I'm at Billy's and we saw Jake earlier this afternoon and he looked quite upset, I was afraid something was wrong with you guys." I took a moment to decide whether or not I should tell him but the truth is I didn't want him to come home right now so I lied. "Everything's fine I'm working on my French essay, we just had a little fight because I couldn't go camping." Charlie sighed, he knew I was lying, but he respected my choice to keep him in the dark for now. "Okay Bells I'm going to get home pretty late don't cook for me." "Thanks dad." I hung up. The phone call had put the situation back into reality. Edward was still standing up beside my bed. He looked unsure again. "Should I leave you alone if you want to, uh, figure things out?" He asked reluctantly. I took his arms and pulled him towards me. "I love you too Edward, I never stopped." I confessed.