...here it is...and dang...it's longer than my other chapters. Plus it gets all emotional. Thank goodness I can't feel or this might have made me sad .

No personal perspective in this chapter (in case you forgot)...It was hard to do after writing the first four chapters like that but I gots it done. WHOOT!

Now forget everything I just said and enjoy the latest update!

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Timmy practically drug his feet up to his room, throwing himself on his bed. He was tired, despite it still being early and didn't plan on staying up. Wanda poofed him into a pair of pajamas and Cosmo used his magic to pull the covers over him. Timmy let out a grateful sigh as he turned over in his bed.

"Goodnight guys." He mumbled, and Cosmo smiled slightly, comforted by the sense of normalcy that had set in.

"Goodnight Timmy." They both said at the same time.

Cosmo looked over at Wanda and tried to smile, but instantly stopped himself when she turned her head away.

Wanda didn't know what to do. She had promised Cosmo they'd talk, but she was beginning to dread the oncoming conversation.

'Divorce'...that was what Wanda had asked for, but she had been hurt and angry at the time and now that her mind was working rationally again she knew that wasn't what she wanted. It was obvious that Cosmo was upset, and though she had tried to keep her attention on Timmy, Wanda had found herself stealing glances toward Cosmo whenever she was sure he wasn't looking. She was still hurt though, she could feel the dull throb in her heart..but a divorce? She couldn't do that to Cosmo...or their godchild for that matter.

After all, Timmy was growing up and he was about to face many new challenges in his life, nothing that needed to be further complicated by Wanda or Cosmo. He had only just now started to see Tootie in a new light, something that made Wanda very happy; crushes like Trixie Tang were one thing, but she knew this was different.

Timmy didn't seem to understand what he was feeling though, and Wanda had found herself smiling up at his nervousness. It reminded her of Cosmo when they had first started dating. She tried not to think about it too much though, because it also reminded her of how different Cosmo had become...and how much she missed that side of him.

Without word or warning, Wanda raised her wand and poofed out. Cosmo was confused at first, but the reoccurring nervousness took hold of him again. He raised his wand, preparing himself for the worst and followed after her.

When he entered their bedroom Cosmo instantly froze.

Wanda was sitting in the same spot she had been in the last time he had poofed in. She wasn't crying this time though, instead she was fiddling with her hands as she stared down at the floor.

Wanda could feel the tension in the room grow with ever moment of silence that ticked by. She didn't expect Cosmo to say anything first, but she was also at a loss for words.

Cosmo swallowed hard and kept staring at Wanda, he knew she was nervous, but didn't know what to do.

"Wanda?"

The name left his lips without even thinking, and Wanda looked up slightly startled. Cosmo's mind went blank as he stared into her eyes...they were beautiful, just like the rest of her; but in them he could see himself and he was reminded again of how he had hurt her.

No. He didn't want to hurt her. He never wanted to hurt Wanda. He felt scared again. What if Wanda was going to tell him she was leaving? What if this was the last time he ever saw her again?

No more Wanda.

His eyes began to sting with tears and he jumped forward and wrapped his arms around her waist. Wanda blinked in surprise and confusion and Cosmo buried his face into her chest and started crying.

"Please don't go!...Don't go Wanda! Don't go!"

Wanda felt a pang of guilt when hearing Cosmo's desperate pleas and slowly she brought her arms around his shaking form, though still unable to speak, she didn't like seeing Cosmo so upset.

"I didn't mean it!...I'm sorry!" He said crying loudly into her chest-her shirt wet with his tears.

"Are you really?" Wanda asked in a small voice and Cosmo immediately pulled away.

He wiped his eyes but tears kept falling. He took in a shaky breath and nodded.

"I'm so sorry, Wanda." He told her in a smaller voice this time. "I understand...I hurt you."

"You understand?" She asked...she really hoped that he did...that maybe they could make this better.

"I..said things." He told her, looking down ashamed ."But...but they're not true...Wanda...none of it's true."

Wanda looked questioningly at her husband.

"Then why...why did you say them?"

Cosmo looked up confused. He knew what he had done, but why...Why had he said those things?

"I...I don't know." He told her, sounding slightly panicked. "I was joking but...I didn't mean it...I didn't know it hurt you."

"How could you not know?" Wanda asked, feeling slightly distant.

Some of the things Cosmo had said in the past had really hurt her and it was hard to believe that he had just been joking...that he didn't know the effect his words had had on her.

"I'm...I'm not smart...I forgot...I didn't.." he tried to grasp at something to defend himself with, but knew that he had simply not noticed or had chosen not to notice. "I don't...I don't know!"

Wanda looked down in disappointment.

"Please...please don't be sad Wanda." Cosmo said floating even closer towards her. "I'll do anything for you...I will...I love you so much!"

Wanda looked up feeling tears in her eyes. "Oh Cosmo...do you even know why anymore."

"YES!..I do...list...I made one," he fumbled on each word frantically trying to gather his thoughts. He had repeated the list over and over again in his head on their way home and now he couldn't get anything to come out of his mouth.

"Cosmo, you're not making any sense." Wanda told him, slightly concerned though she tried to hide it.

Cosmo swallowed and nodded again.

"I do know." He said. "I love you! I love you cause you're...you're everything."

'Because I'm everything' Wanda thought.

"You're smart Wanda...you make things make sense." he told her. "You're nice too...and patient with me more than anyone else...and you never ..never make me sad."

Wanda listened and tried to believe that what he was saying was true.

"You're beautiful too." He said, gazing at her meaningfully. "So beautiful Wanda."

She felt herself doubting his words. Beautiful? If she was so beautiful then why did Cosmos attention seem to stray every time another woman was around.

"What about Blonda?" Wanda asked looking the other way.

Cosmo blinked surprised and confused and Wanda could sense it.

"Do you think she's beautiful too?" Wanda asked. "And the Tooth fairy...and Brittany Brittany?"

Cosmo blinked, surprised, ...he clearly hadn't thought of everything. Did Wanda think that he loved someone else? Blonda? She was too selfish. The Tooth fairy? Too vain...and Brittany Brittany? She wasn't smart. Most importantly though was that they weren't Wanda. None of them even came close to her.

"But...I love you..not them." Cosmo slowly replied, but Wanda could find no comfort in his words, no reassurance that he really understood or that he cared.

Cosmo wanted to fix things but he knew he wasn't doing a good job. Wanda wasn't happy and so he wasn't happy. He made a mistake, a big mistake, but he wanted...needed another chance to make up for it.

"Please Wanda...I'll try harder." Cosmo practically begged her. "I never meant to hurt you...and I'll never ever do it again..I promise!"

"And how can I be sure you won't forget?" Wanda asked, not angry, just not sure if she could trust Cosmo with what was left of her heart. She hated seeing him so torn but she needed to know.

"I won't." he insisted. "I can't...Never...I hate myself for hurting you!"

Wanda's eyes widened as she looked at him. "Cosmo...don't say that."

Cosmo could see the concern in Wanda's eyes and felt torn. He loved her for giving him that look ,but he also knew he didn't deserve it. Wanda was always thinking of others, always thinking of everyone but herself. He remembered telling her a long time ago that she never had to worry anymore because he'd always be thinking of her. It had been one of those rare moments when he had been able to say exactly what he meant and she had hugged him for what seemed like ages and whispered 'thank you'.

Cosmo closed his eyes tight; somewhere along the way he had stopped thinking of Wanda first and he honestly couldn't figure out why. He loved her so much and yet he had hurt her...and still, even now when she had every right to be mad at him, she was looking at him with those eyes-the ones that told Cosmo that Wanda had never stopped thinking of him first.

"I'm so, so sorry." He replied in a hushed tone.

Cosmo looked down at his shaking hands and then closed his eyes. "it's true...I'm a horrible husband." he sobbed, his body shaking. "I don't deserve you...you're better off...you should...you should leave me!"

It hurt him to say those words, but somehow it felt like the right thing to do. He wanted Wanda to stay because he loved her, but if being with him made Wanda unhappy then he'd rather be alone. It was time he started thinking of her first again.

"You...want me to leave?" Wanda asked slightly taken back.

Did Cosmo really not want her around.

"No...no." Cosmo replied shaking his head furiously. "I don't want you to stay for me...not for me Wanda."

Cosmo looked up trying desperately to calm himself.

"I want you to be happy even...even if its not here." Cosmo said. "Please don't stay just for me...you deserve better."

Wanda looked at him for a moment and finally understood, her eye ssoftening.

"Oh Cosmo." she gentle replied resting her hand on his shaking shoulder. "I'm not going to leave you."

Cosmo looked at her with blurry eyes. Did she say…?

"Huh..?"

"I could never leave you." Wanda replied, smiling slightly at the truth in her words. "Even if I wanted to."

"Do you...do you want to?" Cosmo asked worriedly.

She shook her head and lowered her hand, tears still brimming in her pink eyes. "No Cosmo...I don't."

It was the truth. She didn't want to leave him. In fact, she wanted him back; she wanted her Cosmo back, the one that made her happy, the one that loved her.

"Wanda." Cosmo said in a very sad tone. "I want you to be happy again...please tell me what to do...I need you to tell me how to make things right...I need you."

Wanda could feel tears running down her face. He needed her, but she needed him too.

"Please Cosmo just be yourself again." Wanda told him. "Be the person I married...don't ever change."

Cosmo nodded and then floated even closer to her.

"Do you..forgive me? Can you?"

Wanda found herself torn...could she forgive him? Could her heart ever feel whole again? She wanted to say yes...she wished with all her heart that she could reply so confidently but she couldn't.

"It's just going to take some time," She answered cautiously.

Cosmo nodded some his eyes searching hers.

"Do you...hate me?" He asked timidly.

Wanda smiled some.

"I could never hate you, Cosmo."

"You should." Cosmo replied looking downhearted. "I..I hurt you."

"But you won't again...will you?"

"Never...never ever" Cosmo replied shaking his head.

"Then I can forgive you,..in time." Wanda replied, making sure Cosmo knew this wasn't something that could instantly be repaired.

Cosmo sniffled, wiped his nose on his sleeve, and then smiled weakly. "I like your swirly pink hair too." He said and Wanda found herself smiling some at the innocent remark.

"Wanda..." Cosmo whispered sounding serious again. "I do love you...I wish I was smarter so I could tell you how much."

Wanda frowned slightly.

"You never needed to be smart...to let me know you cared." she told him.

Cosmo gave a slow nod...he would make sure that she knew from now on. Carefully, and much to Wanda's surprise, he placed one of his hands around her waist, the action seemed timid but his hold was confident as he looked into her eyes.

Cosmo pulled her close, the distance between them instantly gone and Wanda could see the concern and love radiating from his bright green eyes. They stared at each other for awhile, before Cosmo pressed his lips against hers and brought her into a kiss.

Wanda could feel her body jolt and, though it didn't seem possible, Cosmo pulled them even closer together. The kiss was strong...not like anything Wanda could remember from Cosmo and her insides flared as she felt overwhelmed with...with his feelings...

They broke apart and gasped. Wanda's face showed her surprise and exhaustion, while Cosmo's held a note of sadness and apology.

"Sorry." Cosmo said breathlessly. "I...I tried."

Wanda looked at Cosmo in bewilderment as she tried to catch her breath.

"I didn't even get close..." Cosmo continued. "I love you so much more than that."

"More...more than that?" Wanda asked stunned. She had never felt something so strong before.

"Much more." Cosmo replied looking down. "I'm so so sorry."

Suddenly Cosmo felt Wanda's arms around him, her soft pink hair brushing against his face as she hugged him. Cosmo then pulled his arms around her too and they stayed like that for several long minutes.

"I love you." Cosmo finally spoke but the sadness in his voice was replaced by confidence and his hold tightened.

"I love you too." Wanda answered in a whisper and Cosmo pulled away to look at her and smile.

Wanda tensed slightly...not knowing what to do next...feeling that they had said everything they had needed to for the time being. There was an awkwardness in just ending a conversation as important as this though and Wanda had no idea how to go about doing it.

"Is it bedtime, Wanda?" Cosmo asked rubbing his burning eyes and Wanda relaxed at his casual tone. Leave it to Cosmo to break the tension...to make everything feel so normal. It was one of the reasons she loved him.

"I think so pudd'n" Wanda replied though she used the pet name cautiously.

Cosmo smiled sleepily.

"I like pudding." He said, his eyes starting to close and his wings beginning to droop.

Wanda was sure he was about to fall over but instead he grabbed her hand and gentle pulled her towards the bed they used to share, the one that she became so used to sleeping alone in.

Cosmo allowed Wanda to get in first and then seeming slightly aware of what he was doing he cautiously crawled in next to her and lightly kissed her cheek.

He laid down.

"G'night Lamb chop," he whispered wrapping his arm around her.

"Olive ya" he mumbled, instantly falling asleep.

Wanda stared at him for a second wondering if it was really that simply...if things could really go back to normal again. Slowly and with slight uncertainty she allowed a smile to grace her lips as she watched Cosmo sleep. It made her feel safe to have him beside her, to feel him hold her, and a slight warmth rose in her chest. Lamp chop...she had almost forgotten how much she liked being called that.

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Whoot! Told you it was emotional. Can't say for sure if the problem is totally solved yet...I mean...this requires a little more than just kiss and makeup...right? LOL...okay I'm still debating. I could go for the quicker version...patching things up with Timmy and Tootie and just ending it...or...I could go for the longer version of twists and turns and...a few more surprises. Don't pressure me too much though or I'll explode!

Thanks for reviewing everyone! lol...I feel honored, Ghost Reader .