Hi everyone, or the few who are reading this so far .! Sorry so long for the update, I'm in the musical at my high school, West Side Story, and that coupled with AP calculus and AP government have kinda took up all of my time. But now, at the end of my busy spring break, I finally found time to sit down and write! I've been itching to write this chapter since I finished the last one as after this one, the rising action of the story begins and the true drama comes out -insert evil smile here-. Well, finally here's chapter 3!

The Miserables, Chapter 3: Who am I?

I had never blacked-out completely like that before, and it really did scare me and leave me with some nasty bruises...however, they were nothing compared to what I would feel eventually...I even wish that all I could feel something were just bruises..something that would eventually fade away into nothing. But I had felt hurt before that, though it would be eased by the person I thought least to...

I jerked up suddenly and did not know where I was. Last place I was...The living room, Sora...Riku.. "Uhhhhhh..." I placed my hand onto my head which had just began to throb severly. Looking with only one eye open to try and get rid of some of the pain I was feeling I found that I was in my bedroom and saw a dark figure hunched over in a chair beside my bed.

I smiled to myself, "Sora..."How sweet of him to wait until I was awake... I removed my hand from my head and placed it on his cheek, only to have it quickly grabbed by his hand. A quickness that I did not even know Sora had.

"Nam?" A tired voice growled as his head slowly raised. I quickly removed my hand from his as I slowly reconized his voice. Something I probably shouldn't have done so fast.

"Whooha..." I replied as I became a little dizzy and off-balanced, though I was only sitting up on my bed. I guess I had momentarily forgotten that I had blacked-out not too long ago.I started to fall backwards until I felt a pair of arms on my back that slowly laid me back down. My eyes watched him as he laided me down, though I began to protest, " No..leave me alone...I don't need your help..Riku...I don't ..need you.." I had a feeling that I sounded sporadic and probably made no sense what so ever, but I still felt the need to get my point across. However, it didn't work as it only brought a smile to Riku's face. He pulled my covers over me a bit and sat back down in the chair, staring at me with amusement in his eyes, much to my dismay.

"Still the same stubborn Namine I remember.." He laughed, but he caught the glare in my eyes as I stayed silent in protest to his being there. "Well, maybe not all the same, but still the same qualities..."He trailed off into silence and turned his gaze from me. What he said next I would have never guessed, "Look, I know...I know you hate me, and to be completely honest, I don't blame you one bit." He placed his elbows on his knees and placed his face in his hands. I was ataken back by his words, and was about to reply, but his hand came up as a signal to stop me.

"Sorry, I really need to get his out first. I've been waiting 6 years, 8 months, and 3 days for this moment, and I'm not going to let it pass. You have a right to know everything, and it'll be easier if you just wait until I'm finished Nam..I mean Namine. I really don't have a right to call you by the nickname I gave you. Not after...Well, I better start at the beginning, about a month after you left Twilight." He looked at me for the first time since he started, and I saw the hidden saddness in his eyes begin to flow freely for what seemed the first in a long time. " You better get comfortable, this might take awhile"

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I snuck out into the kitchen to grab two bottles of water and some much needed aspirin, letting Riku collect his thoughts for a moment. Looking through the little hole in the wall that lead as a small bar area for the living room and kitchen, I saw Sora asleep with his head laying against the back of the sofa. I smiled and quickly rushed back into my room and Riku, failing to see Kairi laying on Sora's lap.

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After taking a quick sip of the water I got him, Riku sighed and started:

"Well, like I said, I'll start from about a month after you left, when everything was fine, well...not fine as you weren't there in Twilight with-...Nevermind, that's off topic, it was when everything was better then it would be. In an attempt to try and get my mind off of the fact you lived so far from me, my mom suggested that I should get a job, to not only make some munny, but to get a healthy activity that could relieve me of my worries about you. So she gave me the number of an old woman who was looking for someone to help her around her house, among other things. I called her and she was very happy to have me as a helper, and paid a decent amount of munny, so I was interested and started the next day." He took another sip, glancing up at me and my intriqued expression, genuinely curious of what he had said so far, and then continued.

"It was a normal kind of job, I cleaned up some trash in her garage, delivered some mail, other easy odds and ends that she gave me to do. Then one day, she came in and asked me if I could watch and entertain her granddaughter while she went shopping with her own daughter. Of course, I was expecting some little brat to watch, but then a young girl, around our age back then walked in. At first I was confused, but she soon explained that her grandmother always spoke like she was so much younger then she actually was. We spend the day just hanging out and talking, finding out we went to the same school and were in the same grade, though I was one year older then her...like I am with you" He glanced up at me once more, then turned his gaze to my lamp.

"Then her mother and grandmother came home...and her mother...well she was...Her mom was your mom, Nam-" He couldn't even get my name out as I screamed a loud WHAT?! as he said it was my mom and was about to say more until Riku tackled me on my bed, covering my mouth with his hand. with a hard look in his eye he said calmly, "Look, do you want to full story because I'm not finished and please, for once, can you just sit and listen?!" He just then sat there, on top of me, breathing a little heavily after getting slightly worked up.

I glared at him at the fact that he was still on top of me and still covering my mouth. I bit his hand in an attempt to get him off, but it seemed that old trick didn't work anymore. In fact, it made him smile once again. " I had a feeling you would do that, though it doesn't phase me anymore. now, if I let ago, you promise to stay silent until I'm done?" Closing my eyes, I nodded. He rolled off me and sat next to me on the bed.

"As I was saying, before you so kindly interupted, The girl's mom was your mom. But she's not your real sister, in biological sense. She was adopted by your mom after her real mother, a good friend of your mom's, passed away. This happened a about 6 months before your parent's divorce. In fact, it was the reason they split, as your mom tried to keep it secret as your dad didn't like the idea when she brought it up once. The reason I know this is as soon as she saw me, she knew that I would tell you as soon as I left, so she explained everything..and made me promise to never tell you about it. She said it would ruin your opinion of her, had it not been destroyed already by your father. She also knew you were trying to begin your new life in Destiny Islands...and she didn't want you to worry about your secret adopted sister back in Twilight and just focus on you and your new happiness. " For about the third time, Riku just stopped. He looked right into my eyes and grabbed one of my hands.

"I was ...stupid to say the least...and young, Namine. The only way I thought I could protect you from this knowledge...to make sure you would never know and hate your mother for lying to you...I thought it was a very serious thing. Though looking back...well. The only way I thought was to cut myself off from you. I believed that if I stopped talking to you that I would allow me to knew have to chance to tell you about your adopted sister. I knew you were strong...you would get over me...forget me. And as much as it hurt, I believed it was for the better. I really did, and for that, I truly am sorry." I long ago tore my gaze from him and sat with my head in my hands, as Riku had before he began.

" When I heard you had moved back here...I knew I couldn't ever approach you on the street or come to your door, this musical was the only way..The only way to tell you that for the past few years, you don't know how stupid..how horrible...naive...I feel for doing that to you..I know that you would understand...you wouldn't be as upset as your mom believed. I don't even know why...I just...I'm so sorry, Namine. I'm so sorry that I'm so stupid and that I put you through so much...so much that you should not have been put through...I'm so sorry"

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Everything was silent for a long time. The tears had been flowing down my cheeks for was seemed like an eternity. I tried to take it all in, but it just didn't seem to compute. Then it hit me. He had been trying to protect me. To puss me away so I would have a less stressful life and nothing bad would ever happen. Though he had to know that he was doing the opposite. But, he had still cared enough to try and do what was best...he still cared..now...today.

It was then I completely broke down. The tears flowed faster and all my bottled emotions came out at once, a ruch that I had never felt and I just couldn't stop crying. Riku at some point moved over and just held me as I cried, petting my head and continually saying "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry"

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Namine eventually calmed down and fell asleep in my arms. I wiped the remaining tears from her cheeks and attempted to move her, but she wouldn't let go, so I just laid down on her bed, as she was still curled against me.

She was going to kill me once she found out that I hadn't told the whole truth. Like it was Kairi who was her adopted sister...among other things. Oh well, what happens, happens...It's our destiny, and no one can change that.

I looked down at Nam's now peaceful face. So familiar, yet so different. I placed a light kiss on her cheek, and wrapped her arms around her, as it would probably be the last time I would ever be able to. It was my destiny to break her heart..and I can never get it back.

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Well, that's a pretty long chapter 3 for you guys...sorry it took so long..and if it's a little confusing and not as climatic as you thought, it's supposed to be like that. It's like when you think something is going to be a huge deal, not in a good way, for someone you care about and you don't want them to know you do you the first thing the pops into your head, no matter how stupid it is. And it's not until much later that you realize what I stupid thing you've done. Maybe it hasn't happened to you, but trust me, I've done it a few times o.x

Well, read and review! Any comments welcome :D!

Up next Chapter 4: Fantine's Death ...(not literally, just a heads up .)

"so 'amine, What do you think of that girl Kairi?"