Disclaimer: I'm not making any money from this and I don't own Doctor Who. If I did I would be hiding in a corner, completely embarrassed by Series 4's premiere.
Pairings: The Doctor/Rose, slight Pete/Jackie, Rose/Mickey
Summary: Rose writes to The Doctor again, she doesn't know why though. He'll never get them.
Rated: K
A/N: Decided to make it into a series, as the first one seemed quite popular!Angsty but reminiscent and cute! Also the song is 'Please Remember Me' which you can find on John Barrowman's album. It's a good song, but I obviously do not own it! Comments for cookies….
Dear Doctor,
I don't know why I'm writing another letter. It's stupid really, isn't it? But somehow, I feel like I'm holding onto you. That you're still here. But you're not, are you? You're gone, forever. The one thing that brought us together tore us apart; Time and Space. How ironic. I miss you everyday; I miss your cheeky smile, your shining eyes, and your techno babble speeches. Yeah, I miss the travelling, the adventures, the new planets and the aliens; but I miss you more.
It's been a few months since we said goodbye. I've stopped crying myself to sleep now, but don't think I've forgotten you. Everything I do reminds me of you; especially working at Torchwood. I'm quite high up actually. Obviously it helps that my dad runs the place; but also my knowledge on other planets and the way I deal with them. You taught me that Doctor. You also taught me what it means to be human.
Those Cybermen, the day they took me away from you I wished I could be like one of them; No emotions, no pain, no hurt. But that first time in the parallel universe, you taught me that emotions are what make us human. And that's what makes me human; you and my empathy. They kind of go hand in hand.
"Tell me Doctor, have you known grief, rage and pain?"
You told him, you told John Lumic that they hurt. And they do, you're right. But I, like you, would rather die without them. So Doctor, don't grieve for me. Don't be angry at what happened. But I hope you remember me, as I will remember you.
Before you came along I used to wake up in the morning; go to work; eat chips; go to bed; and do the same thing the next day. You showed me a better way of living, the better person I could be. I always wonder why you did it. Why did you ask me to come with you? Why did you care for me? Why did you trust me? But then I ask myself the same questions; Why did I go with you? Why did I care for you? Why did I trust you? The honest answer? I don't know. I truly don't know. I feel like we had some bond, from the very first moment I set eyes on you.
Between us we had this, jokey sense of humour. Everything was fun to us. Until it got serious of course, but even then, you could help me light up the room with your wit. Mickey pointed this out to me. That time when we…when we were on that spaceship with France on it. I remember it all, like it was yesterday.
I said "Oh, here comes trouble, what you been up to?"
"Oh, this and that. Became the imaginary friend of a future French aristocrat, picked a fight with a clockwork man...met a horse" you replied.
"What's a horse doing on a spaceship?" Mickey asked, baffled. I don't think he quite got it like we did.
"Mickey, what's pre-revolutionary France doing on a spaceship? Get a little perspective." You do make me laugh.
But that's it with you. Laughing, joking. It's all a façade. A stupid façade of your bloody secrets and hidden emotions…which you don't realise until it's too late! How could you do that to me? I may love you, but I love you so much it hurts. And they do say you have to hate someone to love them. And sometimes I did hate you. There goes those emotions again!
Pre-revolutionary France. Pff, like you cared about pre-revolutionary France. All you cared about was yourself. You and that silly Reinette. I know that you cracking that mirror, would save the world, but it also meant that you left me. You didn't even say goodbye. You're good at that. You were just going to leave me and Mickey stranded on that spaceship while you were off galavanting with Reinette Poisson. But you did come back, luckily for me.
Do you know what she said to me, that Reinette of yours? She said 'But you and I both know, don't we, Rose? The Doctor is worth the monsters.' And she was right. Always bloody right. I'm not angry anymore. Of course there were times when I was but not now. Now I just want you. Like I said, don't be angry at what happened, and nor will I.
You've got to live on Doctor. Day by day, having new adventures, because that's how it's meant to be. Have new companions, new strories to tell, new people to be angry at you. Life has to go on, and that's what I'm doing. That's what we're doing. Mum, Dad, Mickey and me. And my new baby brother or sister when it comes along. We are all so lucky to have met you, to have let you come into our lives, we're all better people because of it.
I hope I made you a better person too, or I hope I at least affected your life in some way. I heard a song the other day; a song that entirely sums up what I feel, and what I want to say to you.
When all our tears
have reached the sea,
Part of you will live in me,
Way down
deep inside my heart.
The days keep coming without fail,
A new
wind is gonna find your sail,
That's where your journey
starts.
You'll find better love,
Strong as it ever
was,
Deep as the river runs,
Warm as the morning sun.
Please
remember me.
Just like the waves down by the shore,
We're
gonna keep on coming back for more.
Cause we don't ever wanna
stop,
Out in this brave new world you seek,
O'er the valleys
and the peaks,
And I can see you on the top.
You'll find
better love,
Strong as it ever was,
Deep as the river
runs,
Warm as the morning sun.
Please remember me.
Remember
me when you're out walking,
When snow falls high outside your
door,
Late at night when you're not sleeping,
And moonlight
falls across your floor.
I can't hurt you anymore.
You'll
find better love,
Strong as it ever was,
Deep as the river
runs,
Warm as the morning sun.
Please remember me.
Love always and forever,
Rose Tyler x