AN: Chapter 13 (How unlucky), Hope you enjoy it, the stories powering on, thanks for the reviews :).

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"Fear not those who argue but those who dodge."

- Dale Carnegie

Chapter 13 – Contemplations and Controversy

Raven sat on her bed, staring at the remaining imprint on her sheets where Beast Boy had sat. Her emotions were a blur, she couldn't understand them and they swam swiftly around her head, not wanting to be understood. What had happened? They had been arguing, and then they talked. And they had nearly… Raven threw the thought from her head. She couldn't comprehend why she had leaned into him. Why hadn't she pushed him away, why hadn't she protested? She had let him get so close to her face that she could see every detail of his face and she hadn't had a word against it. She had wanted him, and in that instant it was her only desire. Did this mean she had feelings for Beast Boy? How was that possible, she thought to herself. Years of disputes, years of terrorising each other and now they had been less than a breath from kissing. They had always been at odds, and now… Damn Beast Boy for what he did.

Beast Boy's wings flapped in the twilight, thoughts stirring in his heads, emotions bursting from his chest. They had nearly kissed… He couldn't believe he had leant forward so they were an eyelash away. They had been so close, too close. And she didn't retreat from him, she had accepted it all in turn. Did that mean that Raven liked him? He shook the hope from his head, knowing only disappointment came from hopes that aspired past the clouds. He sighed, just an inch, just one inch more. Damn that alarm that had destroyed what could have happened.

Raven was standing by her window, looking out at the twilight skies. She couldn't push the thoughts of Beast Boy out of her head, and she wasn't sure if she wanted to. Beast Boy had been so close to kissing her, surely that meant that he liked her? Raven thought back days before. If Beast Boy did in fact like her then all of his weird behaviour previously would be explained. How could a pair so separate from each other ever fall for one another? It was just wrong, they were not meant to be together, they were meant to be opposing forces for all eternity. She was never meant to love, never meant to be loved. She was a demon, evil incarnate, she was created to destroy. But yet she had managed to force herself to fight evil instead of be it. Maybe all things were not set in stone. Raven shook her head, the concept of her and Beast Boy… together was ridiculous. This entire thing was a mistake, a horrible mistake. If Beast Boy truly had fallen for her… Would she break his heart again by denying the incident? Could she? She didn't know anymore. She didn't know anything anymore.

Robin, Starfire and Beast Boy returned from their escapades in the city. The moon was glowing brightly, its white aura shining softly on the Tower. Beast Boy stumbled into the common room. It had been a tough battle, there had only been three of them and they had barely been able to defeat Dr. Light. They were lucky that Starfire had kicked the villain into a body of water, shorting out his suit. Beast Boy's mind hadn't been on the fight though, his only thoughts were that of Raven. His memories calling up apparitions of Raven defeating Dr. Light. He wasn't sure whether to talk to her about what happened. He had an instinctive feeling that Raven would want to be alone after an incident like that, and after something like that Beast Boy wasn't inclined to visit her. Perhaps he should wait until she chose to bring the issue up. Letting out a deep sigh that would have blown out the candles of a centenary birthday cake, Beast Boy clambered into his room, not knowing what else to do.

Robin and Starfire sat, as usual, on the couch watching whichever channel took their fancy.

"Robin, do you think Beast Boy has the troubles?" asked Starfire.

"I don't know anymore. Everyone's grown up now, there's no point deliberating on thing's we shouldn't interfere in" muttered Robin.

Starfire nodded, thinking about what her companion had said.

"Though I agree with you Star. He did seem a little distracted during the fight" continued Robin, as if he had quickly pondered the question.

"Indeed" said Starfire, eager to talk.

"Maybe he just has a lot on his mind" murmured Robin. He didn't have much doubt about what Beast Boy would have on his mind. He wondered if Beast Boy had told Raven about his feelings for her. Robin doubted it, Beast Boy had always feared punishment the most. The two continued watching an Italian cooking show, their minds drifting away from where they resided.

Raven had made her decision. Beast Boy deserved someone better than her, so even if he did like her then she would be doing him a favour by not acknowledging what had occurred between them. Raven attempted to eject her thoughts of the changeling from her mind, without success. Emotions swirled within her, and she couldn't understand them. She couldn't wallow in her room any longer. Raven stood up, stepping out of her room, heading for the common room.

With the familiar sound of the sliding doors, Raven entered the common room, seeing Robin and Starfire look at an Italian man cook. She knew that they weren't really paying attention, their minds often drifted off from things, including each other. Raven knew they were together but she still got the sense that they weren't… together. She sighed, who was she to comment on relationships when she had never been in one. And she doubted she ever would. She and Beast Boy weren't meant to be together, she knew that. Two people had never been so different, and how could a pair, so mismatched, ever end up being close? There she was thinking about Beast Boy again, Raven scolded herself.

"Hey Raven" said Robin abruptly, having just noticed her standing behind him.

"Hello Robin" muttered Raven.

Silence ensued between the pair, and Robin slowly turned away, seeing that Raven had nothing else to say. He still was struggling with the fact that Beast Boy was attracted to Raven, and seeing either of them just felt plain awkward. The doors to the common room slid open and Beast Boy walked in, his eyes widening in shock when he glanced over at Raven. She turned around, glimpsing Beast Boy, and quickly walking out. Beast Boy stopped in his tracks, turned around swiftly and walked out of the common room. Starfire looked confusedly at Robin.

"Am I correct in saying that that was quite strange?" said Starfire.

"Yeah…" replied Robin, wondering what was going on with the pair.

Beast Boy walked quickly down the corridor, he didn't know what had made him turn around and follow Raven, but on instinct he had swung around feeling an undeniable urge to speak with the girl.

"Raven, wait!" called out Beast Boy.

Raven stopped in her tracks, snapping around to face Beast Boy, her hood masking her face. "What do you want Beast Boy" replied Raven fiercely.

"I want to talk… about what happened before" said Beast Boy, surprised by the vehement reply of Raven.

"Nothing happened before" muttered Raven, turning around heading for the sanctuary of her room.

"What do you mean nothing happened?" cried Beast Boy, chasing after her.

"I meant what I said" uttered Raven before climbing into her room, sliding the door before Beast Boy could step in. She had hoped to have this confrontation later. Beast Boy suddenly morphed in front of her, shocking her.

"Get out of my room!" yelled Raven angrily.

"No! Tell me what you meant by saying nothing happened. How can you mean that? We nearly… kissed" cried Beast Boy, his voice trailing off.

"Just forget about it Beast Boy, it didn't matter, it wasn't meant to happen" said Raven.

"I can't just forget about it! Not everyone is as good at locking things away as you are Raven" replied Beast Boy vehemently.

"It was a mistake! I'm not supposed to… We're not supposed to… It was just a mistake" cried Raven, as if trying to convince herself too.

"Then why didn't you pull away from me?" asked Beast Boy.

"I don't know! Just get out of my room. None of that should have happened. None of that would have happened if you hadn't started it" yelled Raven. Her anger rising to the surface. Emotions were leaking past her mind's barrier.

"So it's my fault that you leant into me?" cried Beast Boy.

"Get out!" shouted Raven, a glass ornament suddenly exploding beside her.

"No! Not until you accept that what happened before did happen" said Beast Boy loudly.

Raven felt her anger bubbling in her mind, waiting to explode out of her. Letting out a growl of anger, she opened her door and threw Beast Boy out of her room with her powers. Beast Boy pounded desperately on her door.

"Raven, don't do this to me again" pleaded Beast Boy. There was no answer. With a sorrowful sigh, and a slump of the shoulders, Beast Boy walked solemnly to his room. Robin appeared in front of him, nearly colliding with the changeling.

"I heard shouting, is everything okay?" asked Robin concernedly.

Beast Boy kept silent, walking past the team leader.

"What happened?" inquired Robin, searching for an answer.

"I blew it" muttered Beast Boy as he stepped into his room, his grey door sliding to a stop closing the gap between him and Robin. Hopping despondently onto his bed, Beast Boy thought about their argument. Was Raven just denying what had happened between them, or did she really mean that nothing was there, that it had been a mistake? He didn't know. He thought that when Raven opened up to him, he would understand her but after learning more from Raven about herself, he just found things even more complex and confusing. He had hoped their conversation would be like the on they had before, but he had been wrong. She said that she didn't know why she hadn't pulled away from him when he had moved in on her, maybe there was still hope. Beast Boy stared at the bunk above him, it had been days since he had slept on his top bunk where he'd usually sleep on. He turned over, hoping that Raven wouldn't kill him the next time they met.

Raven sighed spectacularly. She had survived Beast Boy's bombardment, but that didn't mean it hadn't cost her. Emotions swirled out of control in her head. Meditation was not an option, ever since her mind had been full to the top with thoughts of Beast Boy she had been unable to achieve the blank state she normally found naturally. Instead Raven slowly let her rage seep out of her, watching things move, shake and explode around of her as tendrils of her power reached out to them. She knew Beast Boy would come back for more, but what should have expected? Beast Boy hated to leave an issue unresolved, and couldn't just simply put things away. Raven still didn't know the answer to Beast Boy's question, why didn't you pull away?. Her mind was clouded and her emotions confused, she didn't know why she had played along. She couldn't believe that she had feelings for Beast Boy, yet the thought kept nagging at her. Raven shut her eyes, hoping that with that act her thoughts of Beast Boy would be shut off too.

The night stars twinkled in the sky, fighting against the darkness, the moon as their ally. There was the sound of the rustling of leaves caught in the night's wind, and the cries of the night's creatures rang out. Two befuddled people lay quietly in their beds, awaiting the reprieve that sleep would give them.

AN: So it continues, tut tut Raven. Enjoy your day today, it's been marvelous down in Melbourne, thanks for all your reviews.